Really don't know what to do anymore. This has gone on for long enough. 7 years I've suffered this bullshit, 7 years since I first opened a Pokerstars account and I've been playing serious volume for about 3, and not ONCE have I featured in the BOP standings despite having a long term 9-man ROI of 9%. This month has so far been the worst month of the year having had my 2nd, 3rd and 4th biggest losing days of the year in one fucking week!!! Today I've bricked 38 from 40 MTT Sng's seeing no less than what must have been at least 40 AX<Ax in a row, I shit you not! I seriously have not won one single flip with 2 over cards and not ONE SINGLE flip with a pair vs even ONE over let alone two. 2 or 3 days ago I bricked FOURTY-THREE 18-mans in a row, to which 18-man crusher "epitomised" responded; "wow, my worst is 28 and I've played ALOT!" Let me tell you that although I've not played probably 1% of epitomised's 18-man volume, my ROI is considerably better. It kills you, it really does. I'm scouring the place for anti-depressants, painkillers, considering going to see a shrink, a gypsy or some calevoyant to see what the fuck is happening to me. I am the unluckiest person I know; and I don't subscribe to all that "negative thoughts breed negative occurances" bullshit, that's all bollocks! Someone or more likely some THING controls what happens to each and every fucking one of us and I NEED TO FIND OUT WHAT I'VE DONE FUCKING WRONG TO SOMEONE!!!!!!!!! Ya know, one time a few years ago, and I swear down this is true, it was a lovely summer's day and I wanted to go to the shop. Living in a 1st floor flat I closed the door behind me and noticed a black cloud just coming over the block I was in. Got downstairs and no sooner had ONE FOOT stepped out into the car park than did hard, fast, BELTING rain smash into my head!! I sprinted to the car, fumbled the keys into the lock, dived in to witness the rain literally SWITCH OFF! Nothing, not a fucking spit! Proceeded to drive to my local supermarket, still no more rain. Got out of my car SWITCH ON!! Belted it down the instant my car door closed!! Legged it into the shop, rain stopped and didn't start again for aabout another month. Jesus fucking aitch christ who am I?? What have I done to you?!!?!?!? LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!
What's happening at moy poker tables simply IS NOT POSSIBLE. It really isn't. The only reason I win overall is cos I'm a good player. An average player with my luck would be $20k in debt!
I just don't know what to do. Maybe a gypsy woman can help? Maybe turning down the offer of heather in the street one time really did get me cursed???? I need help, seriously no joke. I need some help. I've spent hundreds mailng top coaches my videos and they rarely find leaks, and never anything that's worth writing home about. But deep down I know I play great, just running bad for so so so so so so long plays tricks on your mind. Whenever I sharkscope anyone now and see one player's ROI much better than another's, all I think to myself is "luckbox". And it's true. SnG's are pretty much solved, give or take, I don't care how many people want to argue with that, they are. It's just there are so many millions of luck variables that one person can run great for, in my opinion, more than 50,000 games. I mean take lexsevsk for example. Pisses over the entire world in terms of 9-man ROI at mid-high stakes to which there is absolutely NO explanation other than.... LUCKBOX!!!!!!! So fucking angry!!!!