- 04.06.2012, 11:59
- This post has been edited 4 time(s), it was last edited by eXtremeACE: 25.07.2012 23:55.
I made a blog long time ago and I failed.. I couldn't keep up myself motivated, and even though I was making money on NL2/NL5 (I had a somewhat big sample, I'm not talking 5-10k hands), I quitted.. :/
I don't know why, I have this problem in my life. I have a lot of good sides that are plus for playing poker, for example I can't easily be tilted, I'm patient, knowledge-thirtsy, but I have this flaw in my life that It's hard for me to stick with stuff.
Like I would start learning programming, and in the beginning it will be fun and interesting, but as soon as I get a little more proficient at it, it starts becoming boring thing to do, and I quit.. I almost feel ashamed if I were to mention all the things I started doing (and quitted once I was somewhat good at them oO).. I tried programming, 3d modeling, animating, making sites, doing web designs, making games (C++, unity, flash), learning to play guitar and start a band, and I can even mention poker here as well because I learned about it few years ago, mainly on this site, but I "quitted", I never managed to follow a strict schedule and put in a lot of volume on monthyl basis.
But I was a kid, a young kid who had his whole life ahead of him when I tried doing all these things so there were no pressure.. Now I'm not all that older, I'm currently 19, but I feel the whole life is starting to pick up its pace and I really need to chose what I want to do in my life at this point, and STICK with it!
Out of all those things I mentioned, poker and programming were two things that somehow stuck with me, and I always find my self coming back to them. Since i tried it "all", I like poker the most. And I'm good in school, I'm not some school drop out who has chosen poker because it's seem easier. No, not at all, quite frankly I'm a good student, and I'm going to study the math and computer science at faculty of mathematics in the capital town of my country. But in all honesty, even if I would to finish this faculty with best possible grades, and if I land an job really easily I would still prefer to play NL200 one day, and make living with that, not with some 08-16h job..
So that's the plan anyway - by going to faculty I should have always a plan B if poker fails me, I would have an nice income and live happily off it, but deep in myself I really see myself playing poker and trying to rise through ranks and keep studying this seemingly easy game of poker.
However, I have an entry exam to the faculty this month, in the period of 25.-29. of June, so I can't really play much this days, because I should prepare for that exam the best I can, and really get as much point as I can! Whole summer is in front of me, and I really want/should/have/MUST put in a tremendious hands in during that time.
I know I wrote this big introductory post and I probably bored 80% of you who opened it expecting to read something interesting, but not yet! but I had to write it, I really did and it will also server for me to remind me that I should put my focus on poker and make my dream come true through hard work!
My (strict!) current goals:
Play MSS FR until I have 160$ or 40BI for NL10
Be active in Hand Evaluation forum and keep improving
Watch numerious times videos on MSS, made by Gerv and Subar
Try to attend coaches during Sundays 19:00-20:00 on MSS
Play as much as I can. I don't want to set # number of hands, basically I should play as much as I can because life can't wait.
Current bankroll on Stars: 31.67$
Graph so far (NL5, MSS FR, 4.3k hands):
Not pretty I agree, but that's variance + my bad plays + small volume, hopefully it will go up, up, up..
For anyone reading (if there's any? ), is it possible on Elephant to see a EV line on the graph, like HEM can?
That should be it, we'll see how it goes from here!
I really hope to look at this post again in a 12 months or so, and see a big difference and improvement!