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    • Zebbu
      Zebbu
      Black
      Joined: 28.01.2011 Posts: 323
      The Finnish section shut down, so might as well start to blog here. I did have a blog here before, but I think I'll start fresh.

      So I'm Finnish. Been playing poker about 3 years, of which 2 years seriously. About a year ago I took a shot at NL200, ran badly and had a big downswing in NL100 too - and at the same time I had to pay back 3k€ student money. So my roll went from 13k€ to about 5-6k€ in a few days. Then I sort of lost motivation, didn't play much, tilted a lot, and was finally down to 1,8k€ about 2 months ago.

      So I dropped down to NL50, started playing Blaze poker @ Microgaming, and realized it was within reach to make 3k€ with little to no pressure there (it's not funny to play NL100 with 25 bins knowing you can go busto every session). So I've played that for two months now, got my roll back to 4k€, and wanna get back to NL100 ASAP. However, I've learned that I need a conservative BRM in order to keep my stress levels under control. So gonna grind the NL50 Blaze to the end of this year. Hopefully I'll have at least 7k€ roll then. I'm also gonna get about 1200€ from the jewel promotion, and I think 80 bins is enough for me to play NL100. Here's some of my results. (Had over 1 million hands of NL4, NL10, NL20 and NL50, but my old computer broke down and I lost them.)




      So my EV-adjusted winrate has been about 6bb/100 both in NL50 & NL100. However, I was and still am - though a bit less now - a big tilter. If I had a better mindset, I think I could achieve a 7-8 bb/100 winrate. I don't tilt often - but when I do I just completely blackout for few minutes and throw at least 5 bins away for no imaginable reason. Then I realize what I've done, get sad, angry, and desperate - and continue playing until I've filled the hole or lost at least 20-30 bins. This has happened at least 4 times in the past. Now I have Tilt Breaker which helps a lot, and I believe I have made some progress in my mental game too. (I have the Tendlers book, and I've read it a few times - but I'm not exactly sure how it's supposed to help.)

      My playing style is pretty cally, and my AF has always been about 2.5. I've never really understood playing GTO or balancing your play. I mean, if I think I have little to no fold equity, I'm not gonna bluff just for the sake of having some hands to bluff with in certain spot. Some coach said in some video that first he plays the way he plays, then he thinks about what's his image in his opponents eyes, and then he adjusts his play in every situation according to that image. That's how I try to play too.

      Some random rambling: My red line is going down @ NL50, @ NL100 it's about BE. A lot of this is due to not thinly valuebetting (and getting them to fold their gutshots and A-highs) turn vs. fish (obviously fish related), but instead checking back and calling river (vs. their missed gutshots, A-highs and who knows what). For example, if I have 98 on J84s, I bet flop, fish calls, turn's a blank 2, I checkback turn, river is pretty much any card, fish bets, I call. I mean in this spot I've seen many a fish pot bet 2x, A-high, all missed draws and what not. So when a fish has a low fold to C-bet, I checkback the turn a lot. It obviously controls the potsize too, but if an opponent never bluff raises (many fishes don't, although minraises on a wet board with TP are pretty common now) then pot controlling isn't much of an issue.

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      Ok. Had a 450€ day today, and I'm feeling good.
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    • UPAY4DINNER
      UPAY4DINNER
      Silver
      Joined: 27.09.2009 Posts: 21,960
      Hey there Zebbu!

      Welcome back to EN! Sad news about FI but I believe all you guys will fit in nicely here in EN, at least we hope so anyways.

      Good luck with this blog and hope to see you active around here :)


      Regards,
      Gary.
    • Zebbu
      Zebbu
      Black
      Joined: 28.01.2011 Posts: 323
      Well, after the 450€ first day, had a 16 bin downswing. It was maybe 60% running bad and 40% tilting - and that's bad, since I prolly lost at least 300€ cuz' of mental issues. Anyways, now only 5 bins left and the hole is filled - and with RB it's already done.

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      This is a sweet spot to be in vs. 2 fishes. I think making a small 3bet on the flop is the best play - recreational players certainly don't realize they should fold anything less than A8 when I raise back vs. 2 people. I ended up calling though which I think is a mistake - since I don't have position on both of them I wanna have the iniative. Turn I call to keep the CO's FD in. In hindsight, I hate the way I played this hand, although vs. fishes it was OK - but were I against a thinking player my every action was like wawing a flag that has painted "I have the nuts" on it (well I don't have the nuts, but u get the picture).

      Prima, $0.25/$0.50 No Limit Hold'em Cash, 6 Players

      BTN: $146.30 (292.6 bb)
      SB: $33.72 (67.4 bb)
      BB: $49.03 (98.1 bb)
      UTG: $17.28 (34.6 bb)
      Hero (MP): $54.77 (109.5 bb)
      CO: $100.75 (201.5 bb)

      Preflop: Hero is MP with K K
      UTG folds, Hero raises to $1.50, CO calls $1.50, BTN folds, SB calls $1.25, BB folds

      Flop: ($5) 8 K 8 (3 players)
      SB checks, Hero bets $3, CO raises to $6, SB calls $6, Hero calls $3

      Turn: ($23) 5 (3 players)
      SB checks, Hero checks, CO bets $4, SB raises to $11.75, Hero calls $11.75, CO calls $7.75

      River: ($58.25) 4 (3 players)
      SB bets $14.47 and is all-in, Hero raises to $35.52 and is all-in, CO calls $35.52

      Results: $143.76 pot ($3.00 rake)
      Final Board: 8 K 8 5 4
      SB showed 8 J and lost (-$33.72 net)
      Hero showed K K and won $140.76 ($85.99 net)
      CO showed 8 7 and lost (-$54.77 net)

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      Here's another hand, vs. 2 fishes again. I raise the fishes donk with my NFD, the button has only 35bb so it doesn't really matter if he shoves. Turn I check back because no better hand is gonna fold. I do get value from draws but I'd rather avoid the situation where he calls the turn and then donks the river and I propably have to either fold the best hand or bluffcatch a big bet with A high. Luckily I get a good river card, and I think it's a snapcall.

      Prima, $0.25/$0.50 No Limit Hold'em Cash, 6 Players

      BTN: $18.73 (37.5 bb)
      SB: $68.73 (137.5 bb)
      Hero (BB): $50 (100 bb)
      UTG: $37.66 (75.3 bb)
      MP: $35.02 (70 bb)
      CO: $71.37 (142.7 bb)

      Preflop: Hero is BB with A 7
      3 folds, BTN raises to $1.50, SB calls $1.25, Hero calls $1

      Flop: ($4.50) 9 8 2 (3 players)
      SB bets $2.25, Hero raises to $6.50, BTN folds, SB calls $4.25

      Turn: ($17.50) 8 (2 players)
      SB checks, Hero checks

      River: ($17.50) 8 (2 players)
      SB bets $8.75, Hero calls $8.75

      Results: $35 pot ($1.75 rake)
      Final Board: 9 8 2 8 8
      SB showed 6 7 and lost (-$16.75 net)
      Hero showed A 7 and won $33.25 ($16.50 net)

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      Ok, maybe 1 session before watcing an episode of my favourite show Mad Men. That's how I cool down before going to bed.
    • UPAY4DINNER
      UPAY4DINNER
      Silver
      Joined: 27.09.2009 Posts: 21,960
      Run beter today!
    • Zebbu
      Zebbu
      Black
      Joined: 28.01.2011 Posts: 323
      This is a strange hand. I thought it was vs. a reg since he had a full stack and had raised to 3xbb a few times. Anyway, I flat AA vs. UTG open - I think it's maybe better than 3betting, since u get so many folds, not many if any 4betbluffs, prolly only get it in vs. KK, and it's kinda hard to get value postflop from worse after 3betting.

      So my plan is to check-call it down. But opponent checks back. So maybe he has Ax, or is just giving up. Turn brings the A, obviously I check (many regs bet here into the A, which makes really no sense at all, unless u know the opponent realizes it makes no sense and is gonna do something about it. Which surely is overleveling @NL50). I guess I should check-call the turn, but I think raising looks bluffier, and he might have some SDvaluehand he's gonna check back the river with.

      Well he raises back to a ridiculous amount, and I start to think that 1) he's not a reg, and 2) he slowplayed the flop with something or hit two pair and wants to get the money in, and that 3) he's not bluffing the river if I just call and might check back even 2 pair on the river especially if some scare card falls - so I shove. Unfortunately he folds. He had auto top up on, so he really was a reg. I guess he thought I wouldn't raise a valuehand and that I'd let him rep the Ax - but obviously he wouldn't raise back with an A, so I guess I should shove any non SDvaluehand here and expect it to work close to 100% of the time.

      Prima, $0.25/$0.50 No Limit Hold'em Cash, 6 Players

      SB: $97.83 (195.7 bb)
      Hero (BB): $50 (100 bb)
      UTG: $55.99 (112 bb)
      MP: $52.27 (104.5 bb)
      CO: $17.45 (34.9 bb)
      BTN: $37.33 (74.7 bb)

      Preflop: Hero is BB with A A
      UTG raises to $1.50, 4 folds, Hero calls $1

      Flop: ($3.25) 5 2 8 (2 players)
      Hero checks, UTG checks

      Turn: ($3.25) A (2 players)
      Hero checks, UTG bets $2.50, Hero raises to $7, UTG raises to $25.50, Hero raises to $48.50 and is all-in, UTG folds

      Results: $54.25 pot ($2.71 rake)
      Final Board: 5 2 8 A
      Hero mucked A A and won $51.54 ($24.54 net)
      UTG mucked and lost (-$27 net)
    • NutzAreOk
      NutzAreOk
      Bronze
      Joined: 28.01.2011 Posts: 7,409
      Good thinking as always. Keep it going! :f_thumbsup:
    • Zebbu
      Zebbu
      Black
      Joined: 28.01.2011 Posts: 323
      KK 120bb deep HJ vs CO here. Don't know if stacking off here is good, I mean I've very rarely seen (regs ofc) someone stackin off here with AK or QQ. And I'm really the nittest of nits in early positions. So I call, hope for a good flop, and luckily I get one - a flop where I will get all my money in. But how?

      The downsides to just calling are 1) that I let him realize his equity with every hand that has some equity vs. my hand, and 2) he will probably pot control some hands that might stack off if I raise the flop. The upside obviously is that he might barrel off with some bluffs since he can rep so strong. However, people at anonymous NL50 tables don't bluff that much, and especially not on the river.

      So I decide to raise cuz' 1) I'm gonna stack off vs. AA anyway, 2) I don't expect him to 3barrel bluff, 3) he will prolly pot control hands that might stack off otherwise, and 4) he might play back at me since I'm not repping anything. Plan is to jam any turn that is not a J, A or Q - if it's a Q or maybe a J, I can't really imagine getting called by anything worse anymore. Maybe I check a K too. Well, a Q comes, I check, and see what he does. He bets 10€, I call reluctantly, and kinda hope he checks the river. Which he luckily does. I was gonna fold. Luckily the opponent was just making some moves.

      Prima, $0.25/$0.50 No Limit Hold'em Cash, 6 Players

      Hero (MP): $59.15 (118.3 bb)
      CO: $71.52 (143 bb)
      BTN: $25 (50 bb)
      SB: $52.15 (104.3 bb)
      BB: $69.15 (138.3 bb)
      UTG: $50.75 (101.5 bb)

      Preflop: Hero is MP with K K
      UTG folds, Hero raises to $1.50, CO raises to $4.50, 3 folds, Hero calls $3

      Flop: ($9.75) 3 4 8 (2 players)
      Hero checks, CO bets $6.75, Hero raises to $15.50, CO calls $8.75

      Turn: ($40.75) Q (2 players)
      Hero checks, CO bets $10, Hero calls $10

      River: ($60.75) 6 (2 players)
      Hero checks, CO checks

      Results: $60.75 pot ($3 rake)
      Final Board: 3 4 8 Q 6
      Hero showed K K and won $57.75 ($27.75 net)
      CO mucked A 6 and lost (-$30 net)
    • Zebbu
      Zebbu
      Black
      Joined: 28.01.2011 Posts: 323
      Yea I can't take it anymore. I feel like I wanna trash everything and drink myself to death.

      I've ran 20 bins under EV last 15k hands, and hit some ridicilous coolers 200bb deep vs. random fish. Of course that happens, but then I've also lost 20 bins more to tilting. It seems every session starts with going down 3-4 bins, then I win them back, and then I lose it back to in some annoying way - and then I lose it completely and tilt off more money. For the last 4 nights, I've started playing at about 22.00 and quit at 10-11 in the morning because I'm just completely unable to quit when I'm down.

      I just lost 11 bins in 1k hands, of which prolly 6-7 I just gave it away. I'm now in a 40 bin downswing @ NL50, and that's just ridicilous. No matter how bad you run, that would never happen without my tilting problems. I really don't know what's wrong with me, or how I can I make it better. I'm prolly BE for this month, however I've tilted away 1k€ at least, prolly a lot more.

      I'd like to take some time off, but I can't since I'm dependent on my poker winnings. Well, the gemstone promotion money will help, but that's over a month away. I just feel god awful, but I'm gonna keep playing, cuz' if I don't win any of them back, I'm gonna feel like shiti for days.
    • Zebbu
      Zebbu
      Black
      Joined: 28.01.2011 Posts: 323
      Ended up losing 7 more bins. I'm not sure if it's possible to run any worse than I've been running for the past week. Now I'm feeling like it's all over. I'm feeling completely hopeless. 3 hands vs. somebody who wasn't even a fish, he just donked every time and every flop, turn and river. Prefloprange was prolly 100%. And he donked when he didn't have anything either, and whenever he won money from me, some other reg took my money from him in the next hand.

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      Obviously I started to isolate the fish with every decent hand and big. This is actually vs. 2 fishes. When I get minraised I did feel very uncomfortable, but no way I can fold, he can have a flush or a 3x.

      Prima, $0.25/$0.50 No Limit Hold'em Cash, 6 Players

      MP: $77.94 (155.9 bb)
      CO: $123.15 (246.3 bb)
      Hero (BTN): $85.53 (171.1 bb)
      SB: $13.75 (27.5 bb)
      BB: $54.02 (108 bb)
      UTG: $203.14 (406.3 bb)

      Preflop: Hero is BTN with A 3
      UTG calls $0.50, MP folds, CO calls $0.50, Hero raises to $4, 2 folds, UTG calls $3.50, CO calls $3.50

      Flop: ($12.75) 3 3 A (3 players)
      UTG checks, CO bets $6.25, Hero calls $6.25, UTG calls $6.25

      Turn: ($31.50) 6 (3 players)
      UTG checks, CO bets $15.75, Hero calls $15.75, UTG raises to $31.50, CO folds, Hero raises to $75.28 and is all-in, UTG calls $43.78

      River: ($197.81) 5 (2 players, 1 is all-in)

      Results: $197.81 pot ($3 rake)
      Final Board: 3 3 A 6 5
      CO mucked and lost (-$26 net)
      Hero showed A 3 and lost (-$85.53 net)
      UTG showed 6 6 and won $194.81 ($109.28 net)

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      This is how a fish owns you with 3% flop equity.

      Prima, $0.25/$0.50 No Limit Hold'em Cash, 4 Players

      BB: $199.04 (398.1 bb)
      Hero (CO): $156.41 (312.8 bb)
      BTN: $67.02 (134 bb)
      SB: $88.07 (176.1 bb)

      Preflop: Hero is CO with T T
      Hero raises to $3, 2 folds, BB calls $2.50

      Flop: ($6.25) K J 8 (2 players)
      BB bets $3, Hero calls $3

      Turn: ($12.25) 5 (2 players)
      BB bets $6, Hero calls $6

      River: ($24.25) 6 (2 players)
      BB bets $12, Hero calls $12

      Results: $48.25 pot ($2.41 rake)
      Final Board: K J 8 5 6
      BB showed 5 6 and won $45.84 ($21.84 net)
      Hero mucked T T and lost (-$24 net)

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      This was one of the first hands, although I alredy knew he was a big fish. Did think about folding, but that would have been a huge mistake, since he played every pair that way, and usually air hands too. What I should have done different was to raise the flop very big and then shove turn.

      Prima, $0.25/$0.50 No Limit Hold'em Cash, 6 Players

      MP: $9 (18 bb)
      CO: $169.69 (339.4 bb)
      Hero (BTN): $94.38 (188.8 bb)
      SB: $73.50 (147 bb)
      BB: $47.52 (95 bb)
      UTG: $22.17 (44.3 bb)

      Preflop: Hero is BTN with J J
      UTG calls $0.50, MP folds, CO calls $0.50, Hero raises to $3, 2 folds, UTG calls $2.50, CO calls $2.50

      Flop: ($9.75) 2 9 5 (3 players)
      UTG checks, CO bets $4.75, Hero raises to $12, UTG folds, CO calls $7.25

      Turn: ($33.75) K (2 players)
      CO bets $16.75, Hero calls $16.75

      River: ($67.25) 4 (2 players)
      CO bets $33.50, Hero calls $33.50

      Results: $134.25 pot ($3 rake)
      Final Board: 2 9 5 K 4
      CO showed 4 5 and won $131.25 ($66 net)
      Hero mucked J J and lost (-$65.25 net)

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      Well I got a hockey match in the evening, so I guess I need to sleep. Not really sure if can get any. Not going out after the match either, I'm just gonna play for as long as it takes to start winning or go busto. Either way is good, this feeling is so horrible I need some way out of it.