better off dead

    • dnalloh
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      i am a waste of skin, blood, flesh and bones. it would be better for the world if i had never existed. my wife and kids love me now (for some reason i sure as hell cant figure out) so i cant just leave them, but it wouldve been SO much better if they had never even got to know me. then i wouldnt be such a drag on their existences.

      maybe i will get lucky and a jet engine will fall from the sky and land on me tomorrow. i deserve nothing more.
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    • p0kerQT
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      Hey dnalloh,

      You shouldnt say such things about yourself :( the world would not be a better place if you didn't exist. Your wife and kids must love you coz you're a good guy, and your kids wouldn't be there if it wasn't for you. I hope whatevers makin you feels this way will change soon, I am here if you need someone to to talk to n get things off your chest.

      Regards,
      Sarah
    • Berzerger
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      If you truly wished for your own death, you would be killing yourself rather than posting here. The fact that you're still alive proves that deep inside you still want to live, which is good. But if you ever find yourself at a breaking point where you're really sick of life and everything around you, try smoking some weed to see if it will change your perception of what's important in your life.
    • SheepMoose
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      But seriously, why wish such things on yourself? You have a loving family, which some people don't have; and I'm sure you have a lot more than half of the communities over in the third world countries.

      So don't look at yourself as unlucky or a waste of space. Just go for a jog, go out to dinner with the wife, and have a relaxing night; they did wonders for me.
    • MrMardyBum
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    • TheBrood
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      Originally posted by dnalloh
      i am a waste of skin, blood, flesh and bones. it would be better for the world if i had never existed. my wife and kids love me now (for some reason i sure as hell cant figure out) so i cant just leave them, but it wouldve been SO much better if they had never even got to know me. then i wouldnt be such a drag on their existences.

      maybe i will get lucky and a jet engine will fall from the sky and land on me tomorrow. i deserve nothing more.
      Everyone(I think) has these thoughts at least once in their life imo. It is a mental state, your mind is making you percieve the world in a weird way for some reason. These thoughts should pass after a period of time, if they don't I'd look for help online or IRL. Suicide is the easy and selfish way out.
    • dnalloh
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      i agree that at this point offing myself would be selfish, and thats y i wont do it. but it would be better for the world if i could just disappear as if i had never existed, like in one of those sci-fi flicks. then my wife could find as big a winner as she is, instead of this anchor around her ankle dragging her down into the depths.

      but, like i said, they do love me and so here i am... worthless and useless and with no luck to speak of. and i wont go into it, but suffice it to say that this isnt a couple months of a bad run, this is 10 full years of me trying every avenue to get things going in my life but having every thing that can go against me going against me. i dont give up ez, BUT 10 FUCKING YEARS!!!!!!!! well, after a while u just have to look at the situation and realize that the world, fate, god, allah or whoever the fuck is in charge has picked u out to get kicked over and over again.

      sorry to post here about this. no one should care. i am not worth the time.
    • NightFrostaSS
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      So what did you do in those 10 years?
    • TheBrood
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      The world doesnt revolve around you, and you are not singled out to be pushed down all the time. It just seems that way. It sounds like real life tilt to me.
    • SoyCD
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      Originally posted by dnalloh
      i agree that at this point offing myself would be selfish, and thats y i wont do it. but it would be better for the world if i could just disappear as if i had never existed, like in one of those sci-fi flicks. then my wife could find as big a winner as she is, instead of this anchor around her ankle dragging her down into the depths.

      but, like i said, they do love me and so here i am... worthless and useless and with no luck to speak of. and i wont go into it, but suffice it to say that this isnt a couple months of a bad run, this is 10 full years of me trying every avenue to get things going in my life but having every thing that can go against me going against me. i dont give up ez, BUT 10 FUCKING YEARS!!!!!!!! well, after a while u just have to look at the situation and realize that the world, fate, god, allah or whoever the fuck is in charge has picked u out to get kicked over and over again.

      sorry to post here about this. no one should care. i am not worth the time.
      I really have no idea what has happened that you consider yourself worthless and useless - but this is simply your subjective perception. Although it sounds like a cliche, everyone can do something with their life and has a worth and use.

      Even if it means that for the moment you are only a loving father to your children and loving husband to your wife - you are already serving a purpose (and quite a big one at that).

      I'm not going to go into the problems people I know have been put through - because I certainly know a lot of difficult fates - but self pity won't bring you forward.

      Life is what you shape it out to be.

      Best regards
      SoyCD
    • MrMardyBum
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      [x] This thread screams, "Give me attention".

      [x] This thread already got to much attention.
    • Verre
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      This thread made me laugh so hard my co workers are looking at me like i'm some kind of wackjob.

      At least you have a wife and family, go get a job, stop being a bum, contribute to society, stop feeling sorry for yourself.

      Either you have common depression or your an attention whore or this is just a joke, either way, you thinking your life sucks is just sweet.

      I have had my career ended by a car accident, been in a wheelchair, been laid off at a new career, blah blah blah blah I still think I'm the greatest thing to walk this earth.

      The reason you suck is because you think you suck and therefore make it reality.
    • MrMardyBum
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      Originally posted by Verre
      This thread made me laugh so hard my co workers are looking at me like i'm some kind of wackjob.

      At least you have a wife and family, go get a job, stop being a bum, contribute to society, stop feeling sorry for yourself.

      Either you have common depression or your an attention whore or this is just a joke, either way, you thinking your life sucks is just sweet.

      I have had my career ended by a car accident, been in a wheelchair, been laid off at a new career, blah blah blah blah I still think I'm the greatest thing to walk this earth.

      The reason you suck is because you think you suck and therefore make it reality.
      :s_thumbsup:

      You really commited to that chair, or is it just an excuse so you don't have to try and walk home after a night on beers? ;)


      Also, You can't be the greastest thing to walk this earth, since I still walk upon it... When I die I will however hand you my crown ;)
    • Verre
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      Haha no I was only in the chair for a few months after the accident. The best part about this story (take note OP), I learned how to
      #1) Play profitable poker at live casinos
      #2) Learned skill in investing money profitably!
      #3) Read a lot and gained new insight into things I would have never had the time to do.
      #4) Realized I'm better than most people at most things if I just put my mind too it.

      And most importantly, I'm frickin awesome and even though some things that have happened to me in the past SUCK hardcore, I can control 95% of my life and if I do, for the most part it will be better than someone like this dude. Sure tomorrow I might get struck by lightning and die, but thats the 5% chance. Oh btw, I got struck by lightning :f_biggrin: That was like 6 months after I got hit by the car. Go figure.

      DL "Kim Mitchell - Ain't Life Amazing". The song isn't all that great but while I have been laughing at your attitude this song popped into my head.
    • swissmoumout
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      Somehow,
      I'm frickin awesome
      and laughing at someone who's feeling down and asking for help don't quite go together in my mind. If you're just gonna be an asshole, don't bother posting.


      Dnalloh, listen to SoyCD and P0kerQT, they're the only ones talking sense around here. (Especially for this part:

      Even if it means that for the moment you are only a loving father to your children and loving husband to your wife - you are already serving a purpose (and quite a big one at that).
      Go spend some time with them. You may not realise this right now, but you're far from "useless" or "worthless". Being there for your family is way more important than, well, anything else I can think of really.
      Just talking also goes a long way - whether it's with your family, friends, a psychiatrist or on here :)
    • MrMardyBum
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      Originally posted by swissmoumout
      Somehow,
      I'm frickin awesome
      and laughing at someone who's feeling down and asking for help don't quite go together in my mind. If you're just gonna be an asshole, don't bother posting.


      Dnalloh, listen to SoyCD and P0kerQT, they're the only ones talking sense around here. (Especially for this part:

      Even if it means that for the moment you are only a loving father to your children and loving husband to your wife - you are already serving a purpose (and quite a big one at that).
      Go spend some time with them. You may not realise this right now, but you're far from "useless" or "worthless". Being there for your family is way more important than, well, anything else I can think of really.
      Just talking also goes a long way - whether it's with your family, friends, a psychiatrist or on here :)

      Lol, everyone has problems, I myself have had some majorly horrendous experiences, that would make this OP'ers life seem like that of a superstar who never wanted for anything.... Expect me to show sympathy for someone whinging when I am getting on with my life?

      Get a grip, that's the best and only real advice needed here.

      And at the end of the day this is a poker forum, not a "Oh, woe is me" forum. I mean what is actually up with his life?

      Fuck all. Go piss and moan elsewhere until you deserve pity from others. And when you really deserve it, you'll find you don't need it, cos the only one that is able to change things and help you get over them is your god damn self. The sooner you realise this the better.

      So yeah I think this is a lame excuse for attention.

      Grow up and get sorted.


      And furthermore, how do I know this? Cos I myself was once like this before I realised how bad life could really get.
    • dnalloh
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      Originally posted by MrMardyBum
      [x] This thread screams, "Give me attention".

      [x] This thread already got to much attention.
      if u think the thread got too much attention...

      STOP COMING BACK AND POSTING IN IT THEN U STUPID FUCKING DICKHEAD LITTLE FUCKING CHILD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

      NOBODY FUCKING FORCED U TO READ IT IN THE FIRST FUCKING PLACE!!!!!!!!!

      AND SURELY NOT TO RETURN AND POST DICKHEADED POST AFTER FUCKING DICKHEADED POST!!!

      i already wrote that nobody should care, but some do anyway. great, and i do truly appreciate it, but if u feel the need to enhance your own self worth by pushing others down, well then i wonder how much self asteem u REALLY have and how much u r still just an itty-bitty little child inside who needs to prove just how big he is too himself by laughing at those "smaller" than himself.
    • dnalloh
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      And at the end of the day this is a poker forum, not a "Oh, woe is me" forum. I mean what is actually up with his life?


      And furthermore, how do I know this? Cos I myself was once like this before I realised how bad life could really get.
      first of all, this is the "small talk" subforum that is dedicated to non poker topics. but u r too filled with your pathetic self righteousness based in insecurity and stupidity to notice that. dumbfuck.

      and if u had ever felt this way b4 and think now that the best way to deal with it is to go off on others, then u never really felt this way before. fuck off.
    • dnalloh
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      Originally posted by Verre
      This thread made me laugh so hard my co workers are looking at me like i'm some kind of wackjob.

      At least you have a wife and family, go get a job, stop being a bum, contribute to society, stop feeling sorry for yourself.

      Either you have common depression or your an attention whore or this is just a joke, either way, you thinking your life sucks is just sweet.

      I have had my career ended by a car accident, been in a wheelchair, been laid off at a new career, blah blah blah blah I still think I'm the greatest thing to walk this earth.

      The reason you suck is because you think you suck and therefore make it reality.
      see above.

      but i also find u just as funny. get a job and contribute to society. yep, just that fucking simple. again, if u had been through this and think that the best way to deal with it is to laugh at others. well, what a great human being u r then.

      laugh at me all you want you pathetic loser. i hope you and mardy enjoy your little fuck fest. who gets to suck first, and then empty into the other one??
    • dnalloh
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      @ QT, soy and swissmount:

      thank you for your kind words and encouragement. sorry i flamed your board as the last thing i do, but i just came one last time to check for info on what i needed to do to cancel info and then had to read these 2 morons posts. as i am obviously not totally stable i couldnt read these things and not respond. i would prefer not to argue with low iq idiots in a forum, but my own intelligence is apparently sinking too.

      oh well, this is my very last post here since i cant actually close my acct. again, thanks for the support. and thanks for the capital. sorry i couldnt do more to warrant your investment.
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