Originally posted by thisrockz
wow, u have pretty lonh sessions. Do you even make a break?
Alos I wonder that you get so less hands in that time. Do you wait sometimes like 1 hour+ for opponents?
Yesterday I was doing a lot of notes and I was playing mostly at one table. Today I didn’t make notes and I was playing 2-3 tables so you can see the difference in hand volume. Usually I play one to two sessions a day. Yesterday I was playing 207 and 292 min sessions. My longest session is 440 min in a row. I ate three meals during that session.
Originally posted by cowboykoen
what rooms do you play on? Anyway nice going man 
Do you post hands somewhere?
Thanks I decided to keep in private my rooms. I am talking only about Ipoker. I post hands from session review at Gordon’s Forum.
“Playing poker, I busted two laptops and at least 25-30 mice. I
put a small hole in my wall, and nearly made a much bigger one
when I threw a chair across my office.”
By LeatherAss from Treat your poker like a business
When I read those words for the very first time I was laughing. I thought WTF?! Chair, laptops, mice? WTF!? I didn’t realize how it works until I start playing full time. Those things have different impact on you when you play 2 hours 5 days a week and when you spend on poker 50-60 hours a week. When you play like a pro you have much more emotion to deal with. You need to rebuild yourself and learn how to deal with it especially when you have problems with aggression and you search pain when you’re under big emotional pressure like me.
I think it mostly because of gym but I do like pain. It gives me release, no matter how pissed I am or how big emotional pressure I feel, pain gives me release. When I train at the gym and I feel pain it’s only me, there is no past, there is no future it’s only me, problems aren’t exist, nothing really matter, my mind is free, I don’t think about anything, it’s really relaxing in some way. After exercise I am like new born. I feel serotonin in my veins, pain doesn’t exist any longer and still nothing really matter, those are best moments in my life. I think that’s why when I am on tilt I punch desk or wall I want to feel serotonin again and I connect one with other.
Today I had huge tilt. I was scared a bit about my rage. When I closed tables I was really pissed. I was like clicking bomb, there was only matter of time when I do something stupid. I kicked in my knee on the desk (I don’t know how to describe it) when I was trying to wake up and because of that I lost control. I threw chair at the wall I broke few small things and I threw shaker with water inside. Now it’s like a dream, like something unreal, like I would be drunk or on drugs. I need to learn how to quit thought guys. I was playing with one guy who made a lot of problems. He was donking 60% of the flops, he was raising a lot of rivers and when I called him he always have nutz. My mindset is too weak to play vs those aggressive guys. I’ll be ready latter to play vs them but now I need to just leave them, until I’ll learn how to deal with huge pressure better. Even though I’ve heard about quitting them I needed to learn it in a hard way….
I quit “stop whining bitch” challenge. I’ll come back to this exercise latter on. I don’t whine that much and I have more problems with my emotions than with winning. I’ll make exercise from Gordon Tilt course to improve my quitting muscle. I don’t have problems with abide my stop lose but I have problems with leaving aggressive guys, that’s why I’ll make exercise from his course about quitting.
