Goal number two, build confidence to that level that I can tell girls about my feelings, needs and intentions.
Then you may want to check out "Real Social Dynamics" - just look for it in youtube. These guys are crazy and teach stuff that probably helps you a lot. 
Originally posted by ilidek
T_T I am wierdo. I tried to do only one fucking thing tomorrow because I was tierd and I was lying in bed thingink for 20 minutes or so how my whole life will fucked up after skipping this one thing... I wake up angry did this shit and I am going to bed right cuz I am exhausted....
good job buddy, you can be really proud of you for net being a lazy fuktard! you have my respect for that.
@MisterSnS
Thanks for info. I’ll have a look at it if I’ll have some time.
@ thisrockz
Thanks. You know it’s just my thoughts. They are tilting sometimes. They work like that: “oh yeah, today you give up on this, tomorrow you’ll find more things and you will end up poor, because poor ppl make exceptions all the time” then I start think about failing at everything get tilted and do my work ♦
Today only one session:
funny hand:
Hero (SB): $43.77 (87.5 bb)
BB: $31.46 (62.9 bb)
Preflop: Hero is SB with 9
7
Hero raises to $1.50, BB raises to $4, Hero calls $2.50
Flop: ($8) 7 5
9 (2 players)
BB bets $27.46 and is all-in, Hero calls $27.46
Turn: ($62.92) 3
(2 players, 1 is all-in)
River: ($62.92) 4 (2 players, 1 is all-in)
Results:
$62.92 pot ($1.50 rake)
Final Board: 7 5 9 3 4
Hero showed 9 7 and lost (-$31.46 net)
BB showed 2 A and won $61.42 ($29.96 net)
and guy who knew he's FD doesn't count anymore:
Hero (SB): $32.39 (64.8 bb)
BB: $23.61 (47.2 bb)
Preflop: Hero is SB with 9 Q
Hero raises to $1, BB calls $0.50
Flop: ($2) 9 3 Q (2 players)
BB checks, Hero bets $1.50, BB calls $1.50
Turn: ($5) Q (2 players)
BB folds
Damn today I had awesome day. There was one chick, very long tanned legs, great ass, short shirt and very nice face. She was very hot, she was looking at me for a while. I was with friend we went to bus she went there too. I was looking at her and when she was leaving I was trying to leave too. My friend told me. Hold on, go out on next bus stop. I told him I tried to told her I want to go out with her somewhere.
We go out on different bus station and 3 min latter we meet her again… I looked at him, he looked at me. He went away and I was staying there on my own. I’ve heard blood bumping threw my veins. I’ve heard my heart was hitting like crazy. I went to her and I tried to talk something to her. She was suppressed and she jumped. She told me : “hey you don’t scare me like that”. I just made a nervous smile and told her “I like you and I want to go out with you”. “You’re another guy that tell me that today, I rejected it before”. My head was full of thought, chaos was everywhere. It was very stressful for me and we were talking for a while.
I told her I go to Wrolaw this weekend so I can’t meet her soon. She told me “It’s weird! I go to Wroclaw too” Long story short I get her contact and we should go out somewhere next weekend. I went off the bus. My heart was hitting like crazy, I was shaking for a while. Then I felt endorphin rush in my body. It’s fucking addicting…
I like feeling when my hear hit like crazy, I like when my legs are shaking, I like when I have problems with talking, when I talk with them and there isn’t fucking anything around there. There is only her and me. It’s still very stressful for me but I kind of like it. I just wonder can I get addicted from those emotions…
Originally posted by ilidek
I went to her and I tried to talk something to her. She was suppressed and she jumped. She told me : “hey you don’t scare me like that”.
Hmm, I think I see a constant pattern emerging here 
Lucky that you like it tho, I absolutely hate it when adrenaline kicks in 
Originally posted by ilidek
Damn today I had awesome day. There was one chick, very long tanned legs, great ass, short shirt and very nice face. She was very hot, she was looking at me for a while. I was with friend we went to bus she went there too. I was looking at her and when she was leaving I was trying to leave too. My friend told me. Hold on, go out on next bus stop. I told him I tried to told her I want to go out with her somewhere.We go out on different bus station and 3 min latter we meet her again… I looked at him, he looked at me. He went away and I was staying there on my own. I’ve heard blood bumping threw my veins. I’ve heard my heart was hitting like crazy. I went to her and I tried to talk something to her. She was suppressed and she jumped. She told me : “hey you don’t scare me like that”. I just made a nervous smile and told her “I like you and I want to go out with you”. “You’re another guy that tell me that today, I rejected it before”. My head was full of thought, chaos was everywhere. It was very stressful for me and we were talking for a while.
I told her I go to Wrolaw this weekend so I can’t meet her soon. She told me “It’s weird! I go to Wroclaw too” Long story short I get her contact and we should go out somewhere next weekend. I went off the bus. My heart was hitting like crazy, I was shaking for a while. Then I felt endorphin rush in my body. It’s fucking addicting…
I like feeling when my hear hit like crazy, I like when my legs are shaking, I like when I have problems with talking, when I talk with them and there isn’t fucking anything around there. There is only her and me. It’s still very stressful for me but I kind of like it. I just wonder can I get addicted from those emotions…
OP keep this kind of post commin pls!!!
:)))))))
And ofc GL!!!
@StaticMoth
It seems my "straigthforward rapist style" works that way... 
I like it. I feel more alive whe I do those things and I get endorphine boost after fear and stress is gone.
@Yozan
Thanks. I think I'll keep those post comming because I hang out more and more with chicks. I am improving in this area and I think it's only matter of time when I'll find something interesting to write about.
@muumionu & Ohsovi
If you don't believe me / don't sure how pretty they are, you can always ask Beseventh. He saw photos of two chicks and one photo of me with other chick. I prefer to keep myself anon that's why I don't put my photos here and I respect girls enough to don't put they photo on my blog. When I find a chick that don't mind about putting photo on my blog I'll do it.
Originally posted by ilidek
@StaticMoth
It seems my "straigthforward rapist style" works that way...
Reminds me of this
Originally posted by metza
Originally posted by ilidek
@StaticMoth
It seems my "straigthforward rapist style" works that way...Reminds me of this
♠_biggrin: nice one
Was tilted by fucking fish who won 100euro from me and in 2.5 hour we played 90 hands becuase he think about fucking everything for max time on each street.... Nothing is more tilting than his thinking about xb on K22 for 30 seconds
Here’s my graph from last month:
Today I am going to different city. I was invited to Polish HU meeting. Everything was spontaneous I though what the hell I am in. I was sleeping for 4-5 hours. I haven’t drink anything for more than year so it will be fun…. 
I hope I won’t get too drunk too fast ♦
For last two days I was sleeping 7-8h (today 3h yesterday 4-5h). It was great trip, and I realize that when I have luck of sleep it’s very easy to make me tilt. Today one stupid women told me that she can’t sell me ticket because she sells them up to 15 min before bus leaves and now it’s 14 min before it leaves and I need to wait 2 more hours on next bus. To those kind of people I always want to do high five, in their face, with chair….
Anyway I am going to sleep cuz I am exhausted and I can’t wait to play some poker and let someone kick my ass in Mai Thai
Originally posted by ilidek
For last two days I was sleeping 7-8h (today 3h yesterday 4-5h). It was great trip, and I realize that when I have luck of sleep it’s very easy to make me tilt. Today one stupid women told me that she can’t sell me ticket because she sells them up to 15 min before bus leaves and now it’s 14 min before it leaves and I need to wait 2 more hours on next bus. To those kind of people I always want to do high five, in their face, with chair….
This is one of the most annoying behavioural things ever, when people just blindly enforce a rule that makes no logical sense just because "it's the rules".
Originally posted by metza
Originally posted by ilidek
For last two days I was sleeping 7-8h (today 3h yesterday 4-5h). It was great trip, and I realize that when I have luck of sleep it’s very easy to make me tilt. Today one stupid women told me that she can’t sell me ticket because she sells them up to 15 min before bus leaves and now it’s 14 min before it leaves and I need to wait 2 more hours on next bus. To those kind of people I always want to do high five, in their face, with chair….This is one of the most annoying behavioural things ever, when people just blindly enforce a rule that makes no logical sense just because "it's the rules".
You know they work where they work for reason. The less someone think, the less responsibilie job he gets. Bus was empty, but she can't sell ticket because it's 14 min before bus leaves. That's why she'll never have company or get promoted.
I have one guy at reception at my apartment who is great in what is he doing. I am sure that he'll get promotions when it will be possible to mandger or someone like that.
