Great dude! I've just found your blog today.
Very funny and the results proof your confident is right !
I'm also lifting. But I'm a beginner. The only way to become better in anything in life is to stand up every single day, every single week, every single month, year after year and work hard, still work hard and never stop working hard.
Dude you are an inspiration. It keeps my mindset right to read things like this blog.
Ps Gordons best poker coach 
greetings
@mblazic87
Thanks 
I'll write about it more if you like it.
@divvie
It's her choice, if she want to be independent women, that's totally fine. A bunch of cats at home is always a nice thing for independent women
@ChrizJay
Thanks dude! I am very glad I inspire you. Work hard go pro.
Pretty funny day. After that I did break from poker, was afraid I'll play bad after this or something because it happens in 10 min or so. I instaled HON was playing like 6 hours straight and i unistall this shit otherwise I wouldn't grind poker ♦ I am such a fish in those games now 
I used to have stats like 10-3 kill to death ratio now I have rather 3-10
Had stupid good mode. I am just moron, I shooted nl400 and was playing with regs there >_< 4 days of high variance and highly exhausting emotional play for nothing. Even though I think about myself as smart person sometimes I do so stupid things......
Originally posted by Jumbleboy
acceptedSent you everything
Today was talking with friend of mine and he told me that I am probably tilting not because of downswing but because I can't adapt well. Nl400 is probably wall where I have to look at my game and try to negate everything I know and I do. Franek was right with it. Even if it's just downswing and not luck of skill nothing will happen. If it was just downswing and I'll improve my game my earnings will improve. If it's luck of my skill after two-three weeks I'll start crushing again but even higher limits. This week I'll check everything I'll work a lot on my game and I'll also work a lot with HM and database, I'll reread my notes etc. Also I need to work on my mindset because I have some fear issue when it comes to playing optimal. I am glad that shooting on nl400 end not that good because I will check everything once again.Also a lot of people want coaching so this week I am gonna work like crazy mofo
Had session with Gordon and it seems it was mainly mindset problem, again I have phobia that everyone's trying to bluff me out of my hand. Will focus mostly on my mindset in next two weeks
Today at Polish I found a topic where you should write about your succes in 2013 and you can win some small awards, it's nothing much but I thought "what the hell" for those of you who know Polish:
For rest only graph and my reflections. I realized that I moved out from home at the very first time in March last year and I was grinding nl4 HU for living. Lately I shoot nl400 even though it wasn't that good it's still 10 times higer stakes then I was starting with. More than that in March 2014 I'll probably move out to Thailand. I also have 16bb/100 winarate on sample more than 100k hands. When I think about all of that I want to punch myself in face... with chair.... Last weekend I thought I am sa bad at this game, I achieved nothing, I am a failer and I doubt at myself. I rarely think about what I achieved I mostly focus on things I still want to achieve. That's why when I have some bad times I give myself very hard times.
Srsly sometimes I want to hurt myself for doing that. Even thought I don't have any reason to I give myself hard times, when something is not perfect as I planed. If we add to poker related things that I fall in love, I improve my apperance a lot I gained muscle and strenght. I met fantastic people and befriend with them, I improved my English a lot, improved my earnings, I improved my work ethic, I improved a lot my self-disciplne and in a year since I start playing HU poker I'll probably move in to another conitnet to chase my childhood dreams about traveling I can say this year was pretty awesome. It was just fucking great and I don't know why the hell I wasn't happy with it.
I am verry happy with today. I was working a lot with databse it's borring as hell but still I have to do it every once in a while. This week I will work more on theory then usuall. I want to rewatch Gordon HU Mastermind just from pure couriosity, I am courius how much different I'll see his movies with expierence I ve earned. In next two weeks I'll also work more on my mindset because I need to improve it.
Also I forgot that from knowing nothing about HU poker I start coach other poeple and it seems I am pretty good at it because people I did coach want to take another sessions with me and work with me in the longrun.
Motivating words. You remind me totally of myself. Started playing $1,5 husngs and moved to thailand, when I took shots at $7. This was last year in october 2012. Now I am playing also nl400hu. Just do it buddy, u wont regret it - awesome country.
Where you want to go? You gonna live alone or moving into a grinderhouse?
Originally posted by thisrockz
Motivating words. You remind me totally of myself. Started playing $1,5 husngs and moved to thailand, when I took shots at $7. This was last year in october 2012. Now I am playing also nl400hu. Just do it buddy, u wont regret it - awesome country.Where you want to go? You gonna live alone or moving into a grinderhouse?
Thanks dude! I think it's pretty cool idea and I won't regret it. I am thinking about Chiang Mai I'll probably rent my own apartment. We will see, my good friend go there in a month, he will check everything and let me know. I also know (not as good) 2-3 people who live there, so I think I'll get some pretty nice feedback.
You left Thailand?
Pretty fine day. Was planning a lot to create pretty good and flexible schedule. Everything seems very professional and I have each files I need in one place. It should increase my work. For sure I feel more like pro right now. I want to be as professional as I can. I read Letherass book and I try to implement as much ideas as I can. This guy is great and I think the same way with a lot of the things. Before I'll go somewhere I want to build pretty solid work ethic again. I get lazy a bit when I was living with ex for month and a half.
When someone prepare for you 3 meals a day, you have enough sex and everything you get lazy a bit, that's why I did install rescue time again. I want have even better work ethic. Putting 50-60 hours a week is not enough, those hours have to be high value hours. BTW today was talking for the very first time by inter cam. It’s great. I don’t know why I didn’t try it before. Was talking with this chick who didn’t tell me do we see each other in 2 hours when we should meet and then sent me 50 sms when I didn’t replay her back ♦ Still this talking by cam is great.
Pretty great day. I did 2 hours of coaching, was grinding like 6 hours, was learning and was analysing few things. Tomorrow I am gonna change my monitor (for the 3rd time in 3 weeks ♦ ) Had two 27" first of them was fine but I couldn't set up 2560 with my laptop, second was is just terrible, my head and eyes are killing me when I use it so I bought 3rd one.I hope I won't need to give back this 3rd monitor
Originally posted by ilidek
Thanks dude! I think it's pretty cool idea and I won't regret it. I am thinking about Chiang Mai I'll probably rent my own apartment. We will see, my good friend go there in a month, he will check everything and let me know. I also know (not as good) 2-3 people who live there, so I think I'll get some pretty nice feedback.
You left Thailand?
Nice choice, I lived also in Chiang Mai. There is a big pokercommunity over there, so I am pretty sure, u will find a lot of people to hang around.
I am currently at home, cause I tried to study again, but recognized its not the thing I really want to do. Heading to go back to thailand in January or February.
Originally posted by thisrockz
Originally posted by ilidek
Thanks dude! I think it's pretty cool idea and I won't regret it. I am thinking about Chiang Mai I'll probably rent my own apartment. We will see, my good friend go there in a month, he will check everything and let me know. I also know (not as good) 2-3 people who live there, so I think I'll get some pretty nice feedback.
You left Thailand?
Nice choice, I lived also in Chiang Mai. There is a big pokercommunity over there, so I am pretty sure, u will find a lot of people to hang around.
I am currently at home, cause I tried to study again, but recognized its not the thing I really want to do. Heading to go back to thailand in January or February.
sounds great
TT I am going to sleep. Slow mother fucker stole my cash, heh did 5 coolers to me. In 2-2.5h we played like 80 hands he was so fucking slow I am so fucking tilted becuase of this bitch TT
He thought playing slow was what people ment when they told him that slowplaying is a good strategy?
Originally posted by DukeFreedom
He thought playing slow was what people ment when they told him that slowplaying is a good strategy?
You definitely made my day sir! 
Even though I have i5 and 8gb ram on my latpop I have some problems with HM2, that's why I want to test PT4. Everything seems fine but somehow it doesn't work with Ipoker. I have the same folder adress like with HM2 but PT4 doesn't seem it. I hope it will work because it's tilting when you try to mark a hand and you have to open 4-5 times because HM freeze or when you have to write few times notes because it freeze as well.
I tried pt4. It was hard to search graphs filters, hands and so on without guide reading. So hm2 is the best IMO.
Originally posted by Jumbleboy
I tried pt4. It was hard to search graphs filters, hands and so on without guide reading. So hm2 is the best IMO.
Yeah HM2 is definetelly very good. Fixed my PT4 issue so I'll test it for a while.
Today didn't check my cashier balance even once. Felt much better because of it. I think I need to check my cashier only when I think I hit a stop-lose. I think PT4 will work fine, I want to test it for a while. Support didn't give me an answer for like 2 days until I spam them, 3 tickets and forum. Then I got an answer in 15-20 min.
Was checking luck bell curve in PT4:
Since September gained 4cm in chest, 1.5cm in biceps, lost 1 cm in waist and gained 2.5kg. Not that bad, but could be better. I am very happy with strength progress. I start from dumbell benchpress with 25kg and ended on 35kg (32.5kg 8-8, 35kg 6-6).
I need longer break from poker. Will try to force myself to play some more until New Year then I really need a break.
