Today I am better than yesterday and not so good as tomorow

Originally posted by SDK1987
I think 2,3k profit in a month is very good. I would be happy for sure if I won that amount every month.

Thanks man.:) It is not that long that I would say the same.:) But you know you get better and better and you need more to by satisfied with your results.:)

Hello guys,

first days of grinding not great results so far but it will turn around. Back in the grinding mode. Getting used to that here almost every thai girl is a hooker. A bit dissapointed. Only chance is go for tourist or as Jair discovered play Tinder. I had all my life shitty phone but may be because of Tinder I will buy some proper phone. Otherwise the apartment we are in has only 1 bedroom so we sleep with Jair in 1 bedroom. 😀 😀

Goals for 14-16. march

Play 30 hours

Post 9 hands on forum

comment 15 hands

hit gym twice

Gl at the tables.

Hey guys,

after that we weren´t with Jair as productive as we wanted to be we decided to play 70 hours in 7 days. We started at friday and so far we are making that 10 hours a day. Also we bought membership in gym so I was 4 times this month.

Goals for 14-16. march

Play 30 hours – failed

Post 9 hands on forum – done

comment 15 hands – done

hit gym twice – done

I didn´t play 30 hours because one day I lost almost 1k so I had to take break from it. It is very nice that I can take a break. Go on beach, have thai massage or go on party no matter what day it is.

Goals for 21 -24

Play 40 hours

hit gym twice

Gl at the tables!:)

Yo what´s up guys,

7 days 70 hours I made it but it was quite hard. Last day I have to play 19 hours but I make it happen and now I took break. Finally installed Tinder so I am having some dates. ��

Goals on 28 – 31 march

Play 33 hours

hit gym 3 times

Thank you guys for reading and good luck!

Hey guys,

April is over. It was my worst month for the last 8 months. I didn´t play as much. Some of the reason were that it took us like 10 days to set up everything here but I was also more lazy. Profit only 790 euro, 138 hours and 27k hands.

I realised again few things. It is very important go after your dreams all the time. Past few days I had some bull**** with my computer and it really annoyed me. These things takes lots of energy and I didn´t have too much desire to work a lot. Everytime when I don´t work towards my goals I am much worse person. I get angry because of small things I am not too much in a good mood. In past days I felt like that. I think this is how most people live and feel in today´s world. Don´t work on their dreams, go through life and never use their full potential. Angry and pissed and always blaming someone for their unhapinness.

I was a lot asking myself what is the point of playing poker. I just play some cardgame. I am not providing any value to society. I am not helping to anyone. But last days when I wasn´t feeling that good it made me realise that there is a value in playing poker even if I am not directly helping to someone. Living your dreams and working towards your goals make you happier and better person. So you are better person to your family, friends, people you meet in a pub, strangers… You share much more positivity than if you don´t work on your dreams. I always have much more fun on party when I worked on my dreams compare to days that I did not anything. We could ask the same question to people who play footbal, tennis, ice hockey.. what is the point of them playing this game. They are not helping to anyone but they are living their dreams, they are much better person because of what they do and mainly they inspire and showing others that it is possible to live the life you want to live. I think this is the main purpose of this blog. It is not about me bragging about the results but more inspire the readers of this blog to achieve whatever you want to achieve. When I started the blog I was broke and brokenhearthed guy but my life changed a lot last year and something. I am making money by what I love, I am travelling around the world, I met lots of great people because of poker and I also met lots of great women and had really awesome time with them.

so to finish this post. Work on your dreams everyday because it makes you much better and happier person!

Gl in April.

Otherwise my plan was to finish at the end of april and than go to Las Vegas but because of the bad results in March I probably will not make it and I have to leave thailand till 28 of April. So I am looking for some grindhouse or room. I would prefer something close. so Asia, Indonesia… I don´t have any special requirements. I think I can get away with everybody and If you interested I can help you with NL heads up game. If anybody could offer me something please pm me.

Hello guys,

let´s review april. Wasn´t best month by results actually it was even worse than march but I deserve it. I didn´t put much hours, I didn´t do all the work outside of tables. I won 487 euro, played 25234 hands and played 136,75 hours.

Since I start travelling I haven´t put as much volume as I used to do and it influence the results dramatically. I take it as a sign to take it to higher level and start crushing again. My dream was always to play poker for living and travel the world and suddenly I made that and start slacking off because I start subsconciously thinking that everything now will just come to me and I don´t have to work for that as much as I used to. True is nothing will come to me, I am the cause not the effect. May will be my best month this year!

I will do some changes this month. First of all everyday I will review my day. Think about things I did that day, how I did that and what could I do better. I sometimes think about those things but if you don´t write it, it is like goals that are not on paper. it is not specific, it is just some thought in your mind that you forget in a day or two. so I dediced I make from now on a journal from this blog. Every day I review here my day. Compare if I achieve all my goals that I set in the morning and think what I can do better. This way I can avoid repeating the same mistakes and instead learn from it. Also realise if I did that day things that gets me closer towards my goals and vision and not some meaningless bull****.

Otherwise I had to leave thailand on 28 of april and move to Cambodia. One guy had a free room in PhomPeng so I am staying here for 1 – 2 months. I felt a bit intimidated and nervous in this city. It is really caotic city, lots of traffic. it is a different world but I am slowly getting used to it. Found some places where I can eat for 1-2 usd for meal which is really great.

I set myself a goal that I want to start getting up at 5 a.m. In europe is midnight that time so I have better action because I think since i am in asia I played a bit less hands. Today I get up at 11 a.m. so still lots of hours to catch. I said to myself that till I don´t get up at least at 6 a.m. I cannot meet any girls.

Also on the end of everyweek on sunday I want remind myself what I did well previous week and kind of tap myself on shoulder.

2.5.2016

My goals for today were

Poker related

Play 8 hours – victory

Do video review – victory

Post 3 hands on forum – victory

Comment 5 hands – victory

Send e-mail to neteller – victory

Gym related

Find place with cheap food – victory

Find gym – lo st

I did all poker related things which is great and this is how it should be done everyday. Few things I noticed in my game.

I got to autopilot and cb air against player who has fold to flop cb 27%. I should check constantly how much the guy fold to cb and if he doesn´t fold a lot to flop. Start delay cbetting.
When I am on tilt I stop taking notes. Take notes no all the time. No excuse. Not taking notes will only cost me more money
I often don´t check how much the guy steal preflop and kind of call the same range. Today I cst too tight against player who has big steal preflop. Always check how much the guy steal and adjust my calling range.
I sometimes forgot to check the stack of the guy. If he has small stack we can cb less with strong hands because we get all the money on river anyway. So if the board is not too wet we can cb 1/3-1/2 to let him do somethign stupid.
577r we ch b A9, 4x if we bet turn we should bet river as well to fold out better A hi or may be some low pair.
when we are facing bet on river. we should ask these 3 questions. 1) Do we beat valuebet? if answer is yes than it is almost always call, 2) is he ever bluffing? 3) if answer is yes we count combination
KK4r we cb 8K, Tx we cb, 4x make over 38 to 28 pot because 4x is never folding
If I do the thing I am supposed to do I will mark it as victory because I think everyday it is a fight between your higher self which want to achieve goals go out of your comfort zone and lower self which want to be lazy and comfortable.

I still feel a bit intimidated in this city. IT is different world. Lots of traffic, people, noises when you go on street but I think I get used to it. I am happy that I found cheap place close to our house where food is for 1,5-2 usd. There is western restaurant like 5 metres from our house but eating there daily would be over my budget. Food is like 7-8,5usd. That would be mean about 30usd per day for food. Tomorow I am going to by membership into gym. I will check online which are good.

4.5.2016/7

Goals were:

Play 8 hours – fail

Do video review – fail

Post 3 hands on forum – done

Comment 5 hands – done

Do morning routine – done

go to gym – done

I didn´t play full 8 hours just 5,25 because I wanted to go sleep earlier so I would get up at 6 a.m. next day. It took me long time to fall asleep and I slept only like 3 hours. so I was pretty destroyed next day

5.5.2016/ 8.5

Play 9 hours -done

Do video review – fail

Post 3 hands on forum – done

Comment 5 hands – done

Do morning routine – done

The goals were pretty similair but I didn´t feel very good. I felt like I was going to be sick. I think that I am missing something in food because I fet like **** and after finishing session I just slept long time.

maybe she became shy and is hiding. it happens

Originally posted by redjoekim66
maybe she became shy and is hiding. it happens

sry man I don´t get what it is reaction on?:)
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Yo what´s up guys,

I didn´t update for a while. reason is I was sick. so I wasn´t playing that much but still I am gonna make at least 200 hours this month.

When I was sick I was only sleeping and watching movies. Really passive and wasn´t happy at all. Made me realise again how pasivity doesn´t do any good and how I am grateful that I have some purpose and goals that I can actively go after everyday. Next day I had bit problem to focus because of the previous days when I was just passively watching movies but I got again to grind mode and today it was good and I played 10 hours and 15 minutes in a row.

Also I had some problem with ear and didn´t hear almost anything on 1 ear. It is really crazy how lots of thing change. Suddenly I couldn´t understand what somebody is saying to me from 3 metres or when there was noise it was even hard to understand what somebody was saying close to me. IT made me realise how we take lots of things for granted and don´t realise how awesome it is that we see, hear, walk etc. We should be grateful for those things. Now I was at doctor he gave some drops and it is getting better. I probably caused it by night earplugs. I am close to road so I hear lots of noices when I sleep and I probably put the earplugs too deep.

few things I noticed in my game

I didn´t notige guy has fcb 11% and cb air. Need to always look how much the guy fold to cb and change my cbetting range based on that

Against guy who didn´t fold to probebets I probeted with air. Always check how much they fold to probe bet before probe betting.

against guy who had low fold to flop and turn cb but high river cb. I played badly and cb F + T alot but didn´t 3 barel. I should against this guy usually either give up or go 3barel.

yo what´s up guys,

today session looked good but I lost about 1,1k to two guys. They were like semiregs. SO I will start tighten up my table selection again till I start making some money. If the guy won´t have limp 15% after 30 hands. I quit him no matter what.

Otherwise my situation got worse. Second ear which was I think okay I now hear bad as well. I am a bit worried. Doctor said to go see him in a week but may be I go today. HOpe it will be alright.

Yo what´s up guys,

yesterday I had pretty good session. Avoided lots of unnecesary matches and made 900 euros profit. I think two reason why I didn´t crush it last three months. First I didn´t put enough volume and second I though I can beat anybody. so I played guys I shouldn´t play. Problem with these long matches is that even if you win you don´t win too much because of rake and if you lose you lose a lot. So I am tableselecting now better so I will start make money again. I didn´t go as tight as 15% limp because there are lots of retards who has limp lower but if I won´t find out that villain is a fish till 30 hands I quit him. It is good to first make some money before I start battling some better players.

Otherwise I was again at doctor with ears. Yeah I cause being almost deaf for over one week already by fucking earplugs. There was cotton around the earplugs and it got inside my ears. Doctor tried to wash it out and even try it take it out by pincer but it didn´t go. Now I am using some eardrops so it should come out if not I will go see her at friday. I hope it will solve asap. it is quite scary when I have problem to understand what somebody is telling me standing meter from me.

Good luck guys!

Had pretty good session. Started and lost a lot in first one hour. Total suckouts and cooler but manage to be BE on the end. Starting to feel confident in my game again since I started avoiding unnecesary battles.

Yo what´s up guys,

I was at doctor few days with my ear. PUt cotton from my right ear and most of cotton from my left ear. So now I hear almost normally and gonna get fthe rest from my left tomorow. Yeah sometimes wasn´t pleasant when somebody is putting metal stick inside of your ear but I am glad I hear now.

Otherwise pokerwise not doing great again. I checked my winrate this month and it is 8,5bb/100 which is little bit below my average but it is still good so I am just doing really bad on higher stakes. Not sure if I am playing bad or field gets tougher or I am unlucky but it is really frustrating. When you are not winning for longer time period than you start more focusing if you are winning or losing instead of how can you make right adjustment to beat the guy. Than you are on emotional rollecoaster when you are happy when you win and frustrated when you lose. This is really bad I would like to get to the point when I am just totally free of outcome and only focusing on playing good game.

yo what´s up guys,

find out some leaks in my game with help of coach “Nubson”. One of it was that cb too much. Kind of get into autopilot and wasn´t thinking about why cbet and why not. Over time I forget focus on these basics things and it became bad habbit without even noticing. It is good to have someone who looks on your game because you create bad habits and you don´t even know about that. Now I am more thinking which spot are good to cb and which not. Have now much better feeling of my game.

Yo what´s up guys,

Yesterday session really good. I am now playing 10-12 hours everyday. I have really super good feeling of my game. Suddenly I get some things and oponnents which I had problem just week ago. Suddenly I know how to crush them.

Hey guys,

may is behind us. It was really interesting month. I had some ups and downs. Most of the month I was slightly above break even and I was really frustrated. I thought it was going to be another bad month because last two months were really disaster for me. It makes me really question myself and my game. Luckily I found some leaks and pretty much most of my profit come from my last 7-8 days. I Feel really confident in my game now and I think I am even better player than I was before. I believe than confidence doesn´t come from your succeses but when things are not going your way but you still push through even if doesn´t look good at all.

So results for this month were. I played 37195 hands, 197 hours and profit 3477 euro. I promised that this will be my best month so far this month and it isn´t. But I am really happy for this month it was I believe breaking month for me and now I will start crushing again. I also promised 200 hours I didn´t make that. Last week I was really pushing it a lot played like 10-13 hours a day. Last day I was finishing at already like 8 a.m and was really destroyed. so I went to sleep to get ready for another month.

Also like 14 days of the month I was almost deaf. It was really interesting experience for me. I couldn´t have almost any conversation with somebody and everything was almost like a dream. Our senses creates our reality and sense of hearing is after sense of seeing the most important. The reality was completely different and it makes me think how we should be grateful for things that we take for granted. Like being healthy, being able to see, hear, move etc.

I have 13k left to finish program. I have to leave Cambodia till 28 of june. My goal is to finish program till this time and than just enjoy travelling in Asia. Learn surf and dive on Bali before I have to go back to europe to meeting on 17 august.

So I am going really hard this month playing 60 hrs a week. I believe I can make it.

Really inspiring man, what limits are you playing now!?

Originally posted by Pnnkaznk
Really inspiring man, what limits are you playing now!?

Thans man!:) Really apreciate your coment. Currently NL50-NL400. I used to play even nl600 but currently I am traveling + paying shares so I play up nl400.

Hey guys,

june is behind us. It was very good month for me but it could be better.

My goal was to make 13k so I finish program and play 240 hours. I didn´t make neither of it. I played 183 hours, around 34k hands and won 6814 euro.

It was my best month this year so far. Even I didn´t make 13k I am grateful for that after march and april being disaster. I am a bit angry on myself that I didn´t make that 240 hours. I was like 3 days sick so I just lied in bed. Something with stomach and also I took 3 days trip to Siem Rap. Even though I could´ve made it.

I was lately a lot thinking why I am not putting that much volume as I want to. I figure it out something. I got to the point that I thought I should be only motivated positively and that negative motivation is bad. I am often motivated positively by the vision, by things I will do in a future, by the things I will have, by the experience I will have. The problem is that sometimes I am just tired, I don´t want to do anything, I just want to watch movie, I don´t want to wake up early etc. In this situation negative motivation has its place. Negative motivation is good that it helps to push through when you don´t want to do something. For example I have a big problem with getting up from bed by time. Last 4 days I had to do plenty of things so I needed to get up early. I set a rule that I have to wake up till certain hour and If I don´t do it I will have to spend 25 minutes under totally cold shower.(I really hate cold water). I get up from bed every day because of the fear of cold shower. Even that first 30 minutes I don´t feel too good, I hate whole world and I just want to sleep. It pass after 30 minutes and I am alright. OF course I cannot be on sleep deprivation all the time but sometimes you need to shorten your sleep for some time.

Last year in August I had my breaking also mainly because of negative motivation. We made bet with "Uhlvar" that both of us gonna play 300 hours and if one of us wouldn´t make it we would have to pay each other 1500 euro. Before August maximum hours I put in in one month was 150 hours. So it was really lots of hours for me and I think I wouldn´t make that without negative motivation. I don´t think using only negative motivation is good but I think negative and positive motivation should be in balance.

After this month i had only 6.2k left to finish program. Luckily I started first two days really awesome and made profit 2.6k. So there is really not much to left. By 4th of june I flied out of Cambodia to capital city of Malaysia Kuala lumpur. So far I am at hotel and trying to find out some accomodation for this month.

Thank you for reading and good luck in July!

Hey guys,

so let´s start with review July. It was pretty good month.
Even I didn ´t play for over one week I still managed to play
173 hours and about 35k hands. I needed to make 6200 euro in
order to finish program. I made 5458 euro. So I almost made
it.

It took me another 5 days to make that last 800 euro. 889 if
I want to be precise. I learnt last few days how it is
important to focus on last steps same as on all other steps.
I wanted to finish the last step quickly so I can do some
traveling here in Malaysia. So my focus was qute bad for like
3 days because I just wanted to get over with. If you have
bad focus than it is harder to play long and enojoy the game.
Luckily I realised this and start focusing on what is
happening now and made that 900 euro in next two days.

It is interesting that August is last 3 years somehow
important and breaking month in my life. In 2014 August was
month went everything went down. I lost most of my money and
hand only 300 euro on my account. I owned 800 euro to my
parents. My gf broke up with me. In 2015 I had breaking month
in August when I spent 300 hours playing poker. (even outside
was highest tempature for like last 100 years) I had in that
time my best month in life and since that I started crushing
tables. This year I finished program in August. I am
excited what will happen next year in August.

So This is it. One part of my journey is over. It is really
incredible. I remember myself when I started living
in dormitory and I was imagining the day I will achieve it.
The days when I will be in asia on a beach, on parties, doing
scuba diving. Now my vision and dream are reality. It seems
so long but actually it is not that long. During that time I
changed a lot. I feel like totally different person in many
aspect. Life can change so much and so quickly if you have
vision and you are willing to work for it.

I want to thanks everybody who support me on this journey.
Special thanks to Gordon who decided to quit being full time
pro and help make other peoples dream reality. M1ndcntrl who
helped me with my mindset, motivation, goals. "Uhlvar" my
first coach, who helped me in the beginning and also because
of probebet with him I had my breaking month last august.
JurrasicDaniel for really deep thought process. Nubson - for
make the game simple. Illidek - for his lifestyle which
inspires me. Somebody - for great coachings and always
responding to my questions. All others members who
answers to my hands and gave me opportunity to answer their
hands. Also all people who read my blog. Thank you for all
your comments in my blog. It is great to know that some
people are reading my blog and that I inspire somebody. On
the end I should thanks to my parents. Even that they would
rather be if I did something else, they accept it. I feel
like I am thanking for getting nobel price. However this
is probably my biggest achievement so far in my life and I am
really happy I made this thing reality.

No I will enjoy holiday here in Malaysia till like 15 of
August. I will go to Island here in Malaysia to make one of
my goal reality and make myself scubadiving license. After
that I probably will go to Singapour and after I will flight
to Malta. This month is gonna be epic and I am
really excited about it.

Thank you for reading.

Sad to hear your story even worst is loosing your girlfriend. You know a some say that if you have set backs it will sure have a huge comeback. Hope this year will be your big come back. I know you might learn something on your loses.

Nice blog. Keep going.