Today I am better than yesterday and not so good as tomorow

Originally posted by Casinodepositors
Sad to hear your story even worst is loosing your girlfriend. You know a some say that if you have set backs it will sure have a huge comeback. Hope this year will be your big come back. I know you might learn something on your loses.

Thanks man but this happened when I started the blog over year ago. Now situations is 10000 times better.:)

Originally posted by 4s4s4s
Nice blog. Keep going.

Thanks man.:)

Hey guys,

after almost month lasting break I am back. It was really nice holiday. I was first at Singapore. Really interesting to see this modern city. So many scycrapers I was totally blown away by that. After That I went to Tioman Island in Malaysia to become diver. It was a bit stressfull I was fucking up pretty bad but on the end I made it and I am officialy Diver. I can dive down to 18 metres. After Malaysia I got back to Europe to meeting on Malta. Really awesome experience. I was first time in 5star hotel. However, mainly It was really great to see other member in person. I knew the guys over year from skype so it was really nice to see them finally in person. There was lots of very valuable presentation from Gordon and I gained a lot from that. After Malta I came home after 6 months being abroad. It was great to see my family and my friends. I was on some parties and had lots of fun.

Now It is time to get back. It is always hard to get back from the break. I started playing on 2nd of september. My focus is still not as good as I am used to but I know it is just the matter of few days to get back to the “zone”.

Otherwise I am now still home. I am trying to figure it out where to go. I don´t want to travel on my own but more to live with some people who wants to be succesfull and who are working on themselves. I am in contact with some group so will see how it goes.

I decided to follow some of the stuff that gordon told us.

1) Learn 5 new economic or investment word a day.
2) Spend every day 30 minutes reading or watching videos about some economic or investment things.
3) I wanna write after every day quick review of the day. Something like a journal.
4) Invest every month even if it is 10 euro. I already created some investment plan. So by the end of the month I will invest something.
5) Do everyday one thing that I am afraid of. I am now at home (small village) so there is not much that I can do. Once I moved out I think best way to do everyday something I am fear of is to approach at least 1 girl.

2nd of september

I learnt meaning of these 5 new economic words: abnormal return, above water, absolute advantage, Asian crisis, J curve

3rd of september

I learn meaning of these 5 new economic words: Market forces, Market power, Narrow money, Nasdaq, Natural Hedge

I also watched videos on how bitcoins works and 3 videos from Mike Maloney about the next financial crisis.

Poker session:

+

I played solid

Didn´t do anything stupid

–

I played two guys that I shouldn´t. I just started play after long break so I should table select better.

against guy who had probe 100% I didn´t adjust. I should start checking hands with two streets of value and also check some draw on flop and than raise his probe on turn.

What to focus next sesion:

Play only fishy guys. If he´s not confirmed fish in 30 hands leave him.

Okay Guys that is everything from me. Gl in september

4th september

Learn new 5 words: National housing act, Natural gas equivalent, National treatment, naked call, nano cap.
Poker session

+

Played solid

good table selection

-

against guy who probe 90% I cbetted flop with 2nd pairs. I should check back with hands with two streets of value.

I watched video about how to bitcoin. I also watched video about crisis in Venezuela and how the socialist goverment caused it.

Hey guys,

so far month is going pretty good. Although I had some freedays because of birhtday party + some stuff that needed to be done. SO now I am going to play usually 10 hours a day to make 200 hours this month. I am grateful that I am beating that first month on my own.

I watched this video

where guys talk about the old economy and new economy that is already part of the world. How people should learn how to create job for themselves and others instead of depending and job security. Really interesting. I recommend to everybody watch it. The guy on the end recommend to write 3 problems that you have every day. After a month you will have 90 problems. Than choose 2-3 problems that you are most passionate about and trying to figure it out problems because being entrepeneur is about solving problems.

So far my biggest problem is to get up from bed right after waking up. This was my problem pretty much whole life. I tried for example that I set myself that I have to get up in 15 minutes after hearing alarm and If I didn´t I would have to spend 25 minutes under cold water. Problem is that I am forced to get up but I often didn´t feel that good first hour. So often I just didn´t set alarm so I didn´t have to force myself to get up. I want to something that I wake up and will be feeling good after while and be happy to get up. I will try3 things after waking up these week.
1) first thing I do is to look ony my goals that I put into my mobile because I noticed that usually even If I am not in a mood of playing once I look on my goals I suddenly get motivated.
2) Till I don´t get up I have to smile. It sound pretty stupid but I was looking on a interview with David Caperfield and he talked about friend of his that she every day after waking up just forced herself to smile. Brain is set up to release certain chemicals once you smile. “We don´t smile only because we feel good but we also feel good because we smile”.
3) Go under shower first take hot one and after cold one. It will wake up my body.

Otherwise most likely I will be moving to Costa Rica. Probably second week in a october. Really excited about new adventure.

That is everything from me now. If anybody has any suggestion how to get up from bed asap and feeling good. Please in coment.

Cya

Hi
I think I broke some sort of record with AK , having tried every possible way to play , raising , calling etc even the recommended tactics in various books and videos, in tournaments and cash games. 37 times in a row it lost and cost me chips or money.
Only once did I not lose with being BB and no one called. I will admit this was on one site, only.
Thanks
Jame

Hey guys,

little update for september. It was my first full month. It was kind of solid month. I had lots of fun stuff outside of poker and 5 days before the end of the month I checked that I only played 120 hours. I made a challenge I am going to play 80 hours in the rest of month. Eventually I didn´t make it but still played 61 hours. I was really unbalanced in these days and had trouble asleep. The brain was just constantly thinking and it was really hard to fall asleep. But still I am proud I played that much hours. It was most I ever played in 5 days.

So in september I played 181 hours and profit 5866 euro. I will probably now buy membership in upswingpoker.com. It is site created by best no limit holdem player “WCGRider”. I am a fan of him and I believe it will provide value for me. I think I didn´t improve for a few months much. I wasn´t working much outside of the tables.

At the end of the month I will fly to Costa Rica. We are now in phase of picking up the house. Looks really epic. I am looking forward to improve my surfing skill. I was on a surf camp almost 4 years ago and I really loved it. Also it is getting pretty cold here so it will be great to spend winter time outside of Czech republic.

That is all from me

Thank you guys for reading and good luck.

Originally posted by Maestro1309

That is everything from me now. If anybody has any suggestion how to get up from bed asap and feeling good. Please in coment.

Try change you diet, remove: carbs , any sugar, any processed foods, alcohol
mainly cook from scratch (basic ingredients) , proteins + vegetable

follow those 3 rules:
1. drink before you eat, don't drink during eating or after
2. chew very well, whatever you eat (every meal will take time)
3. don't mix carbs with proteins

and you will wake up feeling like a god ♦

Originally posted by zyvy

Originally posted by Maestro1309

That is everything from me now. If anybody has any suggestion how to get up from bed asap and feeling good. Please in coment.

Try change you diet, remove: carbs , any sugar, any processed foods, alcohol
mainly cook from scratch (basic ingredients) , proteins + vegetable

follow those 3 rules:
1. drink before you eat, don't drink during eating or after
2. chew very well, whatever you eat (every meal will take time)
3. don't mix carbs with proteins

and you will wake up feeling like a god ♦

Great thank you man for advice!

Hey guys,

so october is behind us. It was actually one of the worst month but there were also some good things. So first of all I have to spend like 3 days in hospital for some small operation. Nothing serious but annoying. During the time in hospital when I had time to think I suddenly become paranoid about some things that happen in Thailand. When I was in Thailand i had there two “accidents” and it is not country where you want these “accidents” to happen 😀 but I kind of forgot about that. However when I was in that hospital I started recall it suddenly and became totally paranoid that I caught some STD. I suddenly started connecting some symptons that I had months ago to some dissease. I think I never freaked out that much in my life. I was thinking that I just fucked up my life because of some stupid mistake. SO I was like 6 days totally in stress. Luckily tests were negative so I was really grateful for that. I am usually very calm person. I ofcourse get stressed or angry sometimes but I am not really living in this all the time worried state like lots of people do. Always worried about things that could happen and in most cases they won´t. Always when I wanna achieve something I know that either I make it so it will be great or I fail and I will gain some lesson. However here it was different I was really results oriented because if results were bad it would be realy, really bad.

I also spent 14 days in Poland with 5 guys. We were a bit working and pretty much every night going to clubs. It was really awesome to go with another guys who can spend whole night in club sobber and still be social and approach women. It made me again realise how alcohol is completely unecesary things. Most guys, even they don´t admit, drink so they can loosen up and be able to talk to women but with little practice you can get into same mood without drinking alcohol and it can last whole night. However when you drink you hit that sweet spot for a little while and than you try to get there again and you are either not drunk enough or too drunk. I didn´t play there that much and I was planning to play a lot when I come back. However on the end my trip in Poland I caught some brutal throat virus. I have never felt so bad in my life. This was like worst days of my life. I couldn´t swallow, eat, drink, sleep, talk. Fuck it was terrible. After two days I got some painkiller and had to eat like 8 pain killers a day to be able to eat and drink something. Also I had to get from Krakow to Prague by 7 hours long travel n this state. It was terrible. After week I eventually get healty but I probably underestimated and after few days I caught it again. Not so brutal but I had to just lie in bed do nothing.

So in october I think I had one of the worst days in my life. I had to spent 3 days in hospital which I never have done before. I totally freaked out because of possible disease and I spent like two weeks having so far the worst sickness in my life. I wasn´t productive I didn´t play even 50 hours but yeah I had lots of fun in Poland. I have lots of fun memories from clubs.

So pokerwise it really sucks because of my super low volume I played 48 hours and won 802 euro but hey it is not so bad. I did almost nothing and still made like average salary in my country.

I arrived to Costa Rica two days ago. Totally love this place. We have really beatiful big house, our own pool, like 10 minutes walk to the beach where you meet like 5 people per hour and also we have our own chef who cook for us two times a day. I pay a bit more than in Asia but hey it is worth it. This was my dream. Also Costa Rica has really beatiful nature. First day I saw like 10 crocodiles in the river, I saw big turtle, lizzard and everytime you look to sky you see like 3-5 raptor flying above you.

Thank you guys for reading and good luck in November

Hello Tomas,

Really good blog. Have found the links on sleep very interesting. 🙋
I look forward to reading future posts.

Good luck at the tables.

Regards

Matt

Originally posted by metalmonkey80
Hello Tomas,

Really good blog. Have found the links on sleep very interesting. 🙋
I look forward to reading future posts.

Good luck at the tables.

Regards

Matt

Hey man,

I am really glad to hear that you like my blog! Also glad that you found that link interesting!

Wish you good luck man!

Hey guys,

November is behind us and here is short review.

Results oriented it wasn´t best month. However I am in Costa Rica and I love it here. Really nice people, good food, weather mostly good. I love I could get back to surfing. First and last time I surfed was 3 years ago. Having our own chef is one of the bets investment. I save a big amount of time a day. Moneywise it is almost same price as go to restaurant. I am glad that I don´t have to do things that I don´t want to and somebody do it for me. We have been on some trips. two national parks, waterfalls and by boat on a island. Really nice.

As I said above. Moneywise it wasn´t that great but I started playing 10 of novembre so I didn´t have that much time. I spent 148 hours playing and made 3030 euro. I started playing some tougher oponnents and especially last three days I lost a lot. I registered on run it once and I see improvements. Mainly starting to realize how much things I don´t know. So I am starting to creating some better strategy against good oponnents. I wanna be good against regulars but on the other hand I don´t have still such a huge bankroll to get into some crazy battles on nl400, nl600. I already lost about 2k this month against good oponents but I think I played good. So Now I will start table selecting good again and will study more to create strategy against good oponents and hopefull by the end of the month I can play better players again.

Around half of the month I created new habbits. Every day I learn 20 minuts spanish, 20 minutes I look on something about investment or economy (mostly khanacademy it is really good) and 20 minutes I read. I recognize at myself that often I start doing something but after some time I stopped doing that. I read that to create a habbit you need 21-30 days. SO I will set for myself that every month I will do something (or not do) something for whole month and on the end of the month I will decided if it is worthy and I will continue in this habbit or not.

SO this month

20 minutes spanish

20 minutes something about investment and economy

20 minut reading

Thanks to everybody for reading and wish you gl in december

Hey guys,

didn´t updatet it for three months. Don´t have any excuse I guess just lazinness to update. ♦ So in december two days before christmas I moved to Colombia capital city Bogota. In december I was partyng a lot so didn´t play that much. I was allowed to play heads up as well as 6-max. I was doing this till like half of the february. Played 6-max only nl100 to not loose much money. I won some money there but nothing much. About 19 of february I decided to quit 6-max and invested into improving my heads up game. Bought one course and spend like 16 days just studyiing doing analyses etc.

From 19 of february till 7 of march I was only watching videos and doing analyses with three days break on the end of february when I took vacation on one of my friend birthday party. So started playing on 8 of march and realise what a bunch of fishes most regs are. I was so afraid to play most regs. Especially on KOTH sites I thought they are really good because they battle a lot. Lots of them are ridiculossly weak and even the stronger one usually stopped playing you when they see you are solid after like 100 hands. Also took vacation on 4 days in the end of March to island Mucura. Real paradise. White sand, clear blue water, palms, coconuts. Really amazing.

Results in March were really good. I played limit nl50-nl400 and give that I started playing on 8 of March + had 4 days vacation it is really good. I am not sure exactly how much hours I played. I didn´tk eep track of that much. I would say something like 120 may be. not sure and made 9400 euro. Which is one of my best month. So the studying really paid off. I feel much more confident now in my game and see lots of improvements.

I also decided that every month no matter what I am going to invest 20% of my winnings. I was planning it doing it already for some time. However I always said to myself that I want to get on higher limits or I had some bigger expenses that month. It will be always the case. I always want to get to higher limits and at least when I know that 20% of my winnnings will dissapear every month there will be more pressure on me to make more money.

Now actually I got sick on 31 of march and felt super bad for a few days. Now I am getting out of the sickness finally.

Otherwise something from my personal life. I wasn´t planning to stay in Bogota that long. I have been here already over 3 months. Bogota is nice but it is about 2500 metres above sea. So the weather is kind of changing between rainy, sunny and cloudy and there is no sea. Also in the beginning was hard to get adjust to different amout of oxygen in the air. Now I don´t know if I adjust or ju get used ot it. Really good parties, girls are pretty smart and have some friends here. But the reason I am still here is because I find here really cool girl that I like. (It is really hard to not fall in love in Colombia). So I am a bit overstaying. Not sure how it will be if she became my gf or not. Will see. It is also good that she doesn´t speak english so I am forced to speak only spanish. In the beginning it was really tough because I didn´t know shit of spanish but thanks to google translate we were able to talk. Now I can most of the time say what I want in some way that she understand.

Probably in April will be focusing on heads up a lot however friend that I lived with in Costa Rica and one month here in Colombia is really good 6-max player. (reg on 500 zoom). Promised me coaching for really good price. So may be also start focusing again on some 6max.

Okay guys thank you for reading my update and wish you good luck in April.

hey guys,

I decided to start blogging again. to share my progress, may be inspired some and put some pressure on me.

It has been over two years since last post.

Since that lots of changed. I have lived most of those two years in Colombia but also travelled to USA and stayed in europe. I have been in relationship now over year and half. Currently I am staying in Malta where my girlfriend study english

About my poker career everything went smoothly until bitcoin crash haha. I have made some stupid decission because most of the last two years I have just played on asian apps and thought to myself well why keep dollars and euros. Let´s keep it in crypto and If I wanna cash out I can always cash out and at least this way I get interest. After crypto crash suddenly there was not that much to cash out. Now it looks good again, however I have lots of my crypto porftolio in other crypto currencies not just btc. So I am still struggling a bit.

I switch recently to 6-max because I am getting coached by one of my friend + there are some other guys. so we have some group. I started with nl50, since I had not played 6 max for a very long time. I have already been playing over month nl100. I was ready to move up to nl200 but hit some downswing and had to cash out some money. So I am now still on nl100.

I think one of the big mistake I have done last two years is to not clear goals in other areas of my life. There are other areas of life which directly or indirectly influence you on the table and in life. So last week I created goals for others areas of my life, emotional goals, social goals, financial goals, character goals, fitnes and health goals + there are some more which I will create next week

I will be sharing here mainly my shorterm poker and financial goals, since I don´t think it is good idea to share long term goals. The other goals from other category i will share some some but some i will keep private.

I think it is important to have a goals longterm like several years, than 1 year, than monthly, weekly and daily. I have made a mistake a lot in a past that I just created longterm goals(year +) but than realised that I have not achieved them. Reason is that you can get lost during day in your life and forgot if you are going the way you want to go. I think goals are like compass. If you do not have goals you are like a sailor without a compass. You don´t know where you go, so you will never get anywhere. If you have just longterm goals. Lets say 1 year +. Well now it is like knowing you are going to north but check your compass once a year. Now if you have been whole year going south you will find it after one year. However if you have longterm goals so you know your destination and also shorterm you are checking your compass everyday and everyday make sure you are going the right away.

I think another thing is to always have high standard for yourself and what can happen we start lowering our standarts. day after day without notice. So for me having high stadards is to change what I should do to what I must do. Reason lots of people do not have high standards because it is just painful. it is painful to wake up at 6, it is painful to go play 12 hours etc. However only thing more painful than this is to wake up one day and ask yourself what if? what if I have done all the things I should have done, what if I what if what if and the pain of regrets is much higher. than the pain of pushing yourself. so choose your pain or the pain will choose you.

One more thing that I think is very important and it is to have the purpose reason why we do things we do. however not just ask yourself why do you want to be succesful and lets say response is to be financially free. ask yourself why do you want to be financially free and than ask again on the answer you get and ask yourself at least 7 times so you go really deep and find a strong reason. After do the same with what happen if you do not achieve what you want and remind yourself everyday the pain that will cause it in a future if you don´t achieve it.

My goals on month of july

Post 140 hands on discord
Play 100 000k hands
Keep track of hands and hours of play
Run sims for these spots
Sb vs bb 3b pot 2 sizings 10 boards finish the once that I have not finished
Bb vs bt srp versus big sizing 10 boards finish the once that I have not finished
Sb vs bb how cb different turns - 10 boards finish the once that I have not finished
Run donkbetting - 10 boards
UTG vs BB srp 10 boards how to defend versus big and small sizing
Utg vs sb 3b pot - 10 boards
Co vs sb 3b pot - 10 boards
Rewatch every my coaching video
Rewatch at least 4 others people coaching videos
Have 4 sweating session (either I watch somebody or somebody watch me)
Run database analyses

Goals on 15.7 – 21.7

post 35 hands on discord

keep track of hands and hours played

Finish the boards sb vs bb what to cb on T

Run 10 boards for donkbetting turn versus small cb flop and polarized cb flop

Rewatch my last three coaching video

Rewatch coaching video of some other student

Have sweating session

Run database analyses

correct some stuff in my hud

Before kickbox training watch at least 20 minutes video on technique

Wake up every day between 6-7 a.m. unless I go to party day before

Print eye chart

Go to gym 3 times

Go to kickbox 2 times

Do meditation with goals visulation every morning

Do breathing exercise 5 days

Have 3 emotional states anchored

,

Goals on 17.7.

Play 7 hours

post 7 hands on discord

record myself playing

reanchor one emotional state

read 10 minutes before notes that I have

update my hud

meditate in the morning

go to gym

do breathing exercise

Nice blog man. I will definitely be coming back for updates.

Originally posted by isssean
Nice blog man. I will definitely be coming back for updates.

Great man!Thank you for support.

My post of 18.7. it was not added

Hey guys,

concert of Oasis was great. However it is funny it was free on Malta, which is crazy. Last week there was a free concert of Martin Garrix. So I think people do not appreciate when it is free so I felt the atmosphere is not so good like when it is normal paid concert. However I enjoyed it.

I overslept today. I forgot to set up goals in the evening for today and when alarm went up I said. I need to rest a bit more. So to not happen this today. I always need to set up goals for the next day before. so in the morning I am aware how many things I need to do and also always remembered after waking up. why I do that and also what are the concequences of not achievening my goals. This works for me. so tmr again getting up 6-7

goals on 18.7 were

meditate in the morning – done

post 7 hands on discord – done

play 4 hours – done

do breathing exercise – done

goals on 20.7

play 7 hours

post 7 hands on dsicord

run 3 boards SB vs BB cb T

Read before session notes at least 10 minutes

meditate in the morning

Do breathing exercise

hey guys,

review of previous days and week. I forgot to update yesterday dunno why I though that I updated.

goals on 20.7

play 7 hours – done

post 7 hands on dsicord – done

run 3 boards SB vs BB cb T . done

Read before session notes at least 10 minutes – done

meditate in the morning – done

Do breathing exercise – done

Goals on 15.7 – 21.7

post 35 hands on discord – done

keep track of hands and hours played – no

Finish the boards sb vs bb what to cb on T – done

Run 10 boards for donkbetting turn versus small cb flop – done

Run 10 boards for donkbetting turn versus polarized cb flop – no

Rewatch my last three coaching video – done

Rewatch coaching video of some other student – no

Have sweating session – no

Run database analyses – done

correct some stuff in my hud – done

Before kickbox training watch at least 20 minutes video on technique – done

Wake up every day between 6-7 a.m. unless I go to party day before – no (I had 1 or two days that I did not get up in this time)

Print eye chart – done

Go to gym 3 times – done

Go to kickbox 2 times – done

Do meditation with goals visulation every morning – done

Do breathing exercise 5 days – done

Have 3 emotional states anchored – fail

So I did not make some of the goals. Reason is that some of the goals I was delaying for later days but than friday to sunday are my grind days and I thought it is more + ev to grind that to study or watch some coaching video because the action is best. so for this week my goal is to have all the goals done by thursday so than friday – sunday is just my grind day.

Also I all days got up from bed before 7. however there was one day, when I had a free day before I kind of take the next morning as a part of the free day. However next time the next day is working day already. so I will set up my alarm. One day I did not get up early because I did not plan my day ahead night before so I kind of prefered to stay longer in bed. Not knowing how much tasks I have.

another thing is that they are some categorizes of my life that are like on the hold however if you don´t pay attention to them they will get worse. so even though I am busy guy. I still want to find some time everyday to work on them. one of them is spanish. There are still lots of grammar stuff that I do not know. so every day at least 30 minutes of spanish. Second is trading. I am in one closed mentorship on group but I have not been watching videos because of being busy. However everyday I find at least 30 minutes time to do some trading.

Goals on week 22.7 – 27.7

run sims turn donkbet if big cb on flop

have 2 sweating session

Post 35 hands on discord

UTG s bb srp 10 boards how to defend versus small sizing

UTG vs bb srp 10 boards how to defend versus big sizing

Look on two my last coaching videos

Look on 2 people videos of someone else

Find trezor in czech republic where to store gold and silver

Have 80% of unlimited power read

Go to kickbox two times

Go to gym two times

DO meditation every morning with visualization

Watch 20 minutes before kickbox some video on kicking or punching

wake up everyday between 6 and 7. a.m.

Anchor 5 emotional states

Make my room totally dark at night

Have a weekly call with my friend where we friend about our upcoming and past week.

On today I do not write any goals. I was busy right from the morning. I had tennis session. Won 8:6. after I prepared for coaching looking for leaks of regs I play regularly with. In session we discused it each reg pretty deep. So there were some good info. After I had weekly call with my friend to talk about our upcoming and past week and how to organize it better for future. Shared some good info together and will have 2 more guys joining in next week. Than I was with my girlfriend and also print eye chart so I can start working on improving my eyesight.

Goals on 23.7

Watch two coaching session of other guys

Had one sweating session

Post 5 hands on discord

Run 10 boards donkbetturn vs flop big cb

Find storage for gold and silver

Call my mom

Anchor two emotional states

Meditate in the morning with goal visulation

Have quick morning swimming

Go to kickbox

Watch 20 minutes before the kickbox video on punching or kicking

wake up between 6-7 a.m

Hey guys,

quick review of yesterday. I had to do some accounting stuff which took me more than two hours and had really hard kickbox training. After training I just came so tired, ate and went to sleep. so did not achieve all my goals on that day

Goals on 23.7

Watch two coaching session of other guys – fail

Had one sweating session – fail

Post 5 hands on discord – done

Run 10 boards donkbetturn vs flop big cb – done

Find storage for gold and silver – fail

Call my mom – fail

Anchor two emotional states – done

Meditate in the morning with goal visulation – done

Have quick morning swimming – done

Go to kickbox – done

Watch 20 minutes before the kickbox video on punching or kicking – done

wake up between 6-7 a.m – done

goals on 24.7

watch two coaching videos of other guys

post 7 hands on discord

Run 10 boards in pio

have sweating session

put notes on reg into h2n

call my mom

find storage for gold and silver

meditate in the morning

swim in the morning

I will skip gym today and will go friday instead. I still feel sored after yesterday kickbox. I just did morning jog + swimming

hey guys,

quick update of yesterday. I wanted to go now two weeks without day off because after I have vacation. so I though I could pus hit. However yesterday I did not have too much energy. so I did not lots of things. so I think I should have taken one day off every week no matter what. To restore my energy.

goals on 25.7

post 7 hand s on discord

Have sweating session

finish 10 boards in pio

find storage for gold and silver

Go to kickobx

do meditation in the morning

put notes on reg into h2n

play 6 hours

hey guys,

quick update. Yesterday I woke up not hearing properly on my right ear and during the day I started feeling pain. I skipped my kickbox class because of that. I will go see a doctor. Hope it is going to be fine. My gf had something similar few weeks ago.

goals on 25.7

post 7 hand s on discord – done

Have sweating session – fail

finish 10 boards in pio – done

find storage for gold and silver – fail

Go to kickobx – fail

do meditation in the morning – done

put notes on reg into h2n – fail

play 6 hours . done

goals on 26.7

wathc my last coaching video

play 8 hours

post 7 hands on forum

do morning meditation

put notes on reg into h2n

use NLP to anchor two emotional state

Hey guys,

update of my week. It was really interesting week. I did not achieve all my goals on this week but it is fine. I put quite a lot on me. I lost like a day because I got “swimmer´s ear”. I got infection into my ear from everyday morning swimming in a sea. so one day I woke up and did not hear on my ear and next day and half I was in a huge pain. Now my hearing is coming back.

However that is not what was interesting this week. I had a slightly losing month last month, which was due to some of the leaks but also low volume because I spent lots of time studying. THis month I am around BE however I also studied a lot. It is very frustrating and some days I had no desire to play. This year and even last months of last year have been the most stressfull in my poker career. Due to three things. First problem with my life bankrol because of puting too much money in crypto since I used to play on chinesse apps. (why keep money in fiat when I can keep it in crypto where I get interest ♦). Second learning new format 6max. Third first time in my life being responsible for someone else except me (my girlfriend). She flew from Colombia with me to Malta to learn english.

Lots of days this year I have spent stressed and not getting results I desire was influencing me negatively. Even though my results are not that bad. I had pretty good winrate on nl50 and may be did not play such a huge sample on nl100 but still I am up there pretty good. So lots of this feeling of not getting results is not real it is just that I am not making now the money I used to make. Which is understandable due to learning new format and playing low limits. Lots of time I am just stressed because I am not sure if I have enough money to pay all my bills, debts, coachings and still move up the limits. However I have still investments that I could at worst case scenario sell. However two days ago I did not want to play at all. I felt afraid that I was going to have a losing session and I was going to be stressed. So I stayed for a while with that feeling and than I started having some ephiphanies. so I wanna share what I get.

Now is more important than future goal! If your goal in a future becomes more important that right here and right now you are viewing present moment as a enemy because you wanna be in a future instead of present. I am a big fan of goals I have goals for all areas of my life. however it depends how do you view goals. I used to view goals subsconciously as something that will fullfill me in a future. However goals are just a compass that is showing you which way to go. IF your goal is to be best no limit omaha tournament player your compass is very different from somebody who wants to be 6max cash game no limit holdem player. Problem starts the moment the future goal become more important that right here right now, you are not present in the moment and if you are not present moment you can´t get into flow state, zone, deep now, whatever you call it. If you do not get into that state, ironically it will be harder to get your future goal. Ironically if now become more important than future goal you will get to future goal easily and sooner.
Do not play for money, play for the art! Poker is played with the money so lots of time we view it that is the purpose of playing to make money. However money are just by-product. I have never heard Michael Jordan say I love basketball because It makes me that amount money in a year or Eminem saying that he loves to make music because it makes one milion dolar every week (I dunno how much he makes per week). Everybody who achieve some mastery loves the the thing just for the thing itself not for the reward. My coach also said to me that he is obssesed to find the answer for every spot. I think what happened to me and what happened to lots of poker players is that they are at first motivated by the lifestyle that poker gives you. However when you finally move out of your parents basement and you live in grindhouse in thailand, Constarica or whatever is your goal now what is the reason to play? You do not have one. Now the poker can become prison to you because you only play it to sustain the lifestyle you have. I have met many pokerplayers who now hate poker. Now how far can you get with that attitude?Not very far. Poker is the expression of yourself and it is art. May be when I say art we imagine painting, photography etc. however everything is art because everything you do is expression of yourself and you only express your best self when you are full present in a zone, deep now, state…
If I am going to get broke, let it be but at least I will have a good time! Lots of time after losing session I felt angry or bad. However it is really stupid. since about 45% of session are losing no matter how good player you are. So why am I angry after session? It is the same reason why parents are angry on their child when they missbehave. It is because they feel they are losing control. I am angry because I feel I am not in control. however there are only few things I can control. My thoughts, emotions and action. I can´t control if Iam running bad or good and I am not doing myself any favor by being angry. so only thing I focus is being in control of these three things thoughts, emotions, action.
Goals on week 22.7 – 27.7

run sims turn donkbet if big cb on flop – done

have 2 sweating session – fail (we never get together at the certain time)

Post 35 hands on discord – done

UTG s bb srp 10 boards how to defend versus small sizing – done

UTG vs bb srp 10 boards how to defend versus big sizing – fail

Look on two my last coaching videos – fail

Look on 2 people videos of someone else – fail (I did one)

Find trezor in czech republic where to store gold and silver – fail

Have 80% of unlimited power read – fail (I will read it on my vacation in a 6 days)

Go to kickbox two times – fail ( i went once because of the infection in my ear)

Go to gym two times – fail (also went once because of the infection)

DO meditation every morning with visualization – done

Watch 20 minutes before kickbox some video on kicking or punching – done

wake up everyday between 6 and 7. a.m. fail (I had like two days when I slept longer because of the lose of motvation to play but otherwise I am pretty happy with getting up early most of the days)

Anchor 5 emotional states – Fail (I did three)

Make my room totally dark at night – done

Have a weekly call with my friend where we friend about our upcoming and past week – done

On friday I am going to vacation with my girlfriend to Italy. So I make less this week. however there are some things I need to change. In past my plan was to mainly study monday – wednesday and than play longe session friday – sunday and thursday something between studying and playing. Sounded like a good plan since the action is best on weekend. however problem is that 6max playing long hours is for me impossible. In a past playing heads up even 13 hours a day was okay because it was mainly bumhunting fishes. However in 6max when I need to pay attention to stats of several people behind me etc. It takes lots of focus and I guess yeah I could play 10 hours but definetely not my A game. I found usually the 6hours is maximum per day. so I prefer to study and play at the same day. Now I wanna put more volume in since I have studied a lot past two months and make some really good improvements. so now it is time it pays its interest. so I will play monday to thursday 6 hours each day and friday I am not sure what time is my flight haha so will see, if it is in the evening I can play also 6 hours. I do less studying this week. I still need to do through my notes before each session since I did lots of analyses.

goals on 29.7 – 2.8

play at 27 hours

post 28 hands on discord

rewatch my two last coaching videos

rewatch two coaching video of other people

go to gym three times

do morning cardio every day (short run)

do meditation every morning

wake up between 6-7 a.m

use NLP to anchor two new emotional state

Have a weekly call with my friends where we talk about goals in past and upcoming week