27th July 2019
Last weeks mostly running break even.
This afternoon kind of tilt because AA cracked by KK.
KK cracked by flush and had to fold on river.
Decided to withdraw my money from Stars.
Stars $ 0
Unibet EU 92
Skrill $ 225
Total bankroll $ 326.
I am tired of it, too much work without gaining any money.
The poker journey 2019 is just bullshit.
Later that evening I had a very wild very nice randomness.
On Unibet I had a 1 cent-free ticket for a 1 chip shoot-out TN.
There were 554 players and I took the TN down!!!
I calculated that there must have been 10 flips with 0.5 chance.
0.5 to power 10 = 0.0977%.
My price was EU 22.63
So the multiplier was 2263. Completely incredible, what a pure luck.
So I must never give up, when skills are not enough, luck will help me!
This nice luck restored my mood a bit and gave me hope again.
Long time no update, because I was playing break even. Finally I had a winning month again.
Result October 2019
Mostly NL2: +$74
I invested $100 from my bankroll in BTC.
After a few months away from Unibet, I deposited EU40 from my bankroll and started playing NL4 again.
I get Pokerstrategy-points for playing Unibet and I want to get Gold status again. To restart studying W34z3l's videos.
Because it is important to rehearse the lines and not getting sloppy.
Slight winning at Unibet NL4. I accumulated 100 pokerstraty-points and reached Silver status.
So now I can rehearse W34z3l Walkthrough course. This course is from 2017, but the general stuff is always good to refresh my brains.
GGpoker never works at my PC, although it did 2 years ago. But nowadays allinasia.com never gives a connection. So unable to retrieve password and also don't know how to deposit etc.
2 years ago I played there a bit, but just breakeven and quitted. Now that Negreanu is an ambassador, the playerpool will augment and I would have liked to give it a try again.
Unfortunately having some trouble with my health. Last week after some bad beats I was very angry and frustrated. I quitted the game. I started to clean up the dishes. I walked quickly to my table and then at once I was out for a second and fall sidewards on another table. Since then my head is a bit dizzy and I have pain in the neck. I have to see a doctor.
Yesterday I was lucky in a free coinflip TN on Bwin. I reached 10th place out of 2000! And received $22 tournament money. So I can play a nice TN with that money. And hope to cash again.
Thank you so much Deralte and SKD. Today my head is much better and I hope that everything will be fine again. Next Monday I have an appointment with the doctor.
The doctor didn't find a clear explanation for the dizzyness. Maybe my neck was a bit distorted when I fall. Or the muscles in my neck are too tense.
The dizzyness has decreased the last days and most of the time I am fine again!
Last week I took a shot at NL5 and survived. I even made a profit.
Results December: +$55
The last 2 weeks of the year have come, so I look back at what my plans were for 2019.
The procedure about my house didn't bring a solution, so I am still looking for a better house to move to.
I found a catering job for some hours a week.
I played 18 TN of EU 20 in Belgium and finished twice 2nd and once 3rd and total profit was EU 166.
I played 3 TN in the casino without reaching the money.
Online cashgames are going steady.
The coming weeks I am going to think about further progress and climbing the mountain in 2020.
Last week I am playing Unibet NL4.
December is quite a good month until now, my bankroll increased with $94.
So I will end the year with a good result.
At the moment my yearresult online is $367.
Jared Tendler in his article today:
if you fail at reaching your goal and you become disappointed, have a secondary goal.
The secondary goal is a bit smaller and it prevents you to give up.
And remember your 'why'. For example my 'why' is not only to earn money with poker, but also a kind of intellectual challenge. Like being able to execute lines and to optimize betsizes.
Last day of the year. It was an average year, both for poker as for real life. Some good stuff and some disappointments. Online profit is $375.
Next year I will continue with the journey and I hope to see you in my new blog https://forums.pokerstrategy.com/forum/thread.php?postid=3093968#post3093968
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I wish you all the best for the new year and keep moving forward. 
