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[Closed] My Trip among the Stars; a 12 month chronicle through SnGs, now concluded

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Atoks
Joined: 01.06.2008

Woot, just made platinum First time since I been a member of PS.com, I'm sure I'm gonna keep it for quite some time to come. Need to check out the learning material too. It's been a great week in terms of volume, played just over 600 MTT SnGs (9tabling 99% of the time). Really impressed with the volume I seem to be able to put in and I hope that I can continue this way.

I've also been thinking about the next challenge I will set for myself. My current 2week challenge has really motivated me to play a lot and play good ... must be that whole goals thing I've been deliberating about a few posts ago ... too bad I didn't commit to something sooner. Anyway this is just a trial challenge I guess, to sort of give me a feel for how things would go. So far I've had two significant downers (-50BI and -80BI) since I've started this but at the same time the sample isn't yet big enough to be able to draw any solid conclusions yet. Right now I'm about 40% done with my goal, another 60% to go and 5 days left ... wish me luck


Flows
Joined: 09.03.2006

gl with that!
i've never been platin... :( guess i'll first work on becoming a gold-member again!


NickParkes
Joined: 07.07.2008

Originally posted by Flows
gl with that!
i've never been platin... :( guess i'll first work on becoming a gold-member again!

You have to play more than twice a week then...

Grats on the platinum :f_thumbsup:


Atoks
Joined: 01.06.2008

Hey everyone :)

First off thanks for the congrats, I've already tried to take as much as I can out of the single platinum strategy article for SnGs or MTTs. I've been thinking about some of the things explained there for some time before I've read the article or any books on SnG tactics. It's kind of nice to again get confirmation that one does in fact have to take into account the fact, that if everyone folds to me in the SB and I have a very marginal hand, it's very much OK to fold on the grounds that the BB could have a very strong hand. Of course one shouldn't use that as an excuse to avoid pushing the lower ends of ranges whenever u can push ATC but it's a nice addition to the arsenal :) I plan to watch the platinum videos on monday after I finish my challenge.

Today though has been a weird day. I slept really poorly and got like a couple of hours most. When I woke up I was faced with some really unnerving news which required immediate attention. That kept me occupied until lunch and only after that I got the opportunity to get some more sleep. So my day was pretty much ruined before it even started and therefore the quantity (and maybe even the quality, played a few very iffy hands) wasn't what I'd want it to be. Still the dealer was on my side today and I got bailed out of some pretty nasty situations (instead of getting pushed into them). I have to say it's nice to suckout a few hands in a row :f_biggrin:

At the end of the day I was happy to realize I have just over 45ish% still to go till I reach my goal but on the other hand only saturday and sunday remain available for completion. I've been toying with the idea of playing 45mans on saturday and finishing up the challenge with 180mans on sunday but I'm not too sure how that would work out. Either way I'm going to give it my best to make it :) But what I really need is a good nights sleep and the dealer to work with me at least half as much as he did today :f_biggrin:

Have a great weekend folx and cya monday with a report of how it ended :)


Atoks
Joined: 01.06.2008

OK as promised, here are the details on my challenge:

First off the goal was to earn 5k$ in 2 weeks playing MTT SnGs, although the first idea I had was to earn 4k$ in 2 weeks. To make matters a bit more complicated I was playing 12$ 45 and 180 mans. Reasons for these challenge were:
-I needed the money but I didn't want to delve into my iron reserves
-I wanted to create a solid sample of MTT SnGs in order to figure out if it would be profitable to play them
-I wanted to explore the field that normally plays these games and determine if it would be a good idea to stick to MTTs or go back to STTs
-I hoped to gain experience for general late stage tournament play
-I hoped to hitch a great upswing and ride it all the way to heave (this one is a joke but hey :P)

The analysis showed that on average the field is about as tough as in the STT SnGs. The amount of bad irregular players compared to the amount of bad and good regulars does not greatly vary compared to the STTs. Also the latter stages of the MTTs turn into a STT type game where stealing the blinds and hoping the other guy(s) don't have hands they can call u with, meaning the it is hard to determine any kind of an edge. The prize structure is obviously different and the prizes are bigger but on the other hand an MTT lasts longer and u have to beat a bigger field in order to make it ITM. The real moneymakers are the the 1st and 2nd place, everything else isn't worth the bother because of the longevity of the MTT SnG. I've also concluded that a player has to be far more skilled in order to be successful at the MTT SnG. Postflop skills are not as important in the STT while advanced knowledge of the HU game is also greatly desired since the difference in 1st and 2nd place payout is almost 4BI. It is very easy to find urself in tricky situations where it's difficult to determine the best course of action since the math is more complex compared to the STTs (because of the payout structure and the larger field).

Now to actual results; the swings are absolutely horrible! In the past two weeks I've had three major swings, the last one occurred on saturday. These ranged between -45BI to -80BI and have had a huge effect on me. It is very difficult to say how I would've dealt with the downswings if I would not have had a bankroll that could've soaked up another 200+BI before I'd have to move down, but it is safe to say u can hop on one very harsh ride to busto-town without proper BRM (which is hard to determine). My own mission ended last night when the pokerstars software was experiencing glitches and lag which ultimately (along with me being sick and tired of poker) led me to ending my mission sooner then I wanted to (could've added another 40-60 games which could've made significant impact). When I woke up today and began looking at the results I realized that I had played just under 900 Games averaging just under 2.3$ per SnG. This puts me at under 50% of the target sum.

I have to say that I really enjoyed the first few days of this challenge. But as they first week turned into ten days and I started to feel the pressure of the deadline (hated deadlines like always) the enjoyment wasn't present as much and I will have to take a few days away from poker (already got a weekend planed with my GF ). I'm happy with the results but not overly happy with how the end product turned out ... I was sure I could make at least 4k$.

Thanks for reading, leave a comment if u feel like, they would be much appreciated. Good luck folks and cya next time :)


Flows
Joined: 09.03.2006

just keep playing! under 50% is still more than 0%
maybe tho goals were pretty high concerning variance? 80BI downs are just crazy...

aaaand: think about attacking the 16s! ;)

cya


Atoks
Joined: 01.06.2008

Yeah the result is good, I can't really be feeling down about it. It's just that I hate not meeting my goals. I guess now that I have a solid sample I can begin preparing my next goal :)

About the 16$ STTs ... I can't face them yet. I'm really not feeling them at all and I'm really not sure when I'll go back to collect the money there. For some reason I just couldn't find my form on them after the initial upswing and I'm not feeling the form coming back yet either. I know my feelings have very little to do with poker itself but right now I feel way more confident about the MTT SnG and it's likely I'll try out 27$ MTTs sooner than 16$ STTs.

I have to say that I've seen some very nice blogs pop up recently, I hope the bloggers keep up the good work and I'll keep track of how they do. I've been looking for an apprentice and still am ... so if anyone gets my interest there might be the option of me helping them on a regular basis.

Good luck to everyone and cya next time :)


Atoks
Joined: 01.06.2008

Helloes :)

I've been in an irritated mood of late and having serious problems sleeping. It's been going on for 5-7 days and I never really got round to exploring the reasons for why this was happening. Until when two days ago I finally realized that it seriously affected my poker play and my ability to make good decisions while playing. This scared me. Not so much because of the way I was playing but more because of the time it took me to fully realize this and act on it. I'm not the kind of person to give up easily when doing things I enjoy doing and am good at. I consider myself to be good at poker (going on brilliant soon I hope :) ) and I really enjoy the game. I enjoy it because I've spent so much time researching it and exploring it. It's not only about the money or the grind, it's always been the only thing that I was able to do because I motivated myself to do it and I challenged myself to do it. Ever since then it has been me and only me pushing myself forward.

My problem with sleeping is nothing complicated really ... I have problems sleeping a few days around every full moon. Though I don't see it's light in my room for some reason I'm very much affected by this. Tonight was the first time in the past week that I got more than 4hrs of sleep all-together and I feel great. I feel my poker hunger back and I feel my brain is ready to tackle any situation or problem I might face while playing poker next time. I'm pumped up and I can't wait to get at it. For this reason I will stay another day at my GFs, get another great night's sleep and tomorrow get back to what I enjoy doing most - developing my poker game.

The point of this post? Know urself and be aware of urself and ur surroundings. Many things affect our moods and how we feel, try to stay one step ahead of them because that is the easiest way to dealing with them. I have now decided to plan my activities around the Lunar cycle (crazy as that may read lolz). If u urself know certain things affect u more than others, u should find a way to work around them and not through them :)

Good luck and have a great day! :)


Flows
Joined: 09.03.2006

Heyhey, this plan sounds very good! :)

So I guess you won't be at skype today? I could need a short 5min discussion! _confused:

cya

edit: I'm a gold member again! :f_love: :f_biggrin:


Atoks
Joined: 01.06.2008

Hey all,

it has not been a good week for me. First off I missed the targets I have set for myself three weeks ago, then the full moon began seriously cutting into my sleep time, consequently I began to play less and yesterday I also managed to get myself completely plowed (drunk) at a couple of parties. That resulted in me doing some pretty stupid things that no one should ever be proud of. To top it off I played a miserable game of basketball earlier ... it was as if I wasn't even there.

But regardless of what the cause is, it is a fact that too often I become complacent and careless. I think this is the single biggest leak of not only my poker game but also my life. For some reason when things don't really go the way I want them to I begin to lose focus, drop my guard and attention and the inevitable downward spiral of mistakes and poor decisions follows. It is as if I always begin to think "hey, I got this, it's not a problem for me" and then instead of focusing on finishing what I start I just wander off to the next issue before I really follow through with the first one. This is a quality in me that I really dislike and I really wish I find a way to improve this about myself. Suggestions or ideas are most welcome!

I wish everyone a very successful and productive week, but don't forget to find some fun in it too! :)


Atoks
Joined: 01.06.2008

allo allo!

Always did like that show... but if u thought things are great and perky poker-wise, u were wrong :P There goes ur smiley read from a few posts ago lol.

I've been brutalized quite harshly today. I won't go into too many details, I'm sure my esteemed readers can paint a picture of a seriously ugly trail of bad beats. I even took a few risky moves in the last few SnGs which I regret in part. There were some new faces at the tables, some very active players. But the biggest problem was the number of three-way pots I found myself in. After I'd push a hand I'd get a caller and then another! Obviously one doesn't need an equity calculator to figure out exactly how hard hero's equity gets slashed after the 3rd caller. I was extremely pissed off (still am a bit) but ...

Nick said it well in lennonacs blog ... poker isn't just about +EV play. While I've been working a lot on my mental toughness there is still work to be done in that area. Would be great if I could be completely cold whenever I would find myself in a series of nasty results. One or three situations in short succession don't really cause me problems ... it's when the number goes to five or more in the space of a few minutes that the temperature in my head begins to rise and I become hotheaded. Coupled with the problems in my last post (carelessness, complacency, taking things lightly, all of these terms apply) I feel I have a lot of work to do and I'm not really sure how or where to get started.

I have decided on a course of action though. I will tighten my pushing ranges in early spots more, try to find more spots for 3betting and pay even more attention to the way the other players will play their poker (this one will reflect itself on the notes even more!). As for the mental part of dealing with poker ... I guess thinking about all I've written here recently will be a start. But a solution to these problems ... I'll do my best to find them!

Keep safe folks and remember ... what goes down must go up ... if u flap ur wings hard enough ;) Cya!


Hey Atoks,

Seems we are working on the same things these days! _cry:
Nick has made some great comments on my blog and on his own about this subject as the three of us know we are winning players but are all going through the same mental blocks.

Thinking back to when I started playing poker those many many years ago, I never dreamt that my problems would not be what should I do in this situation or that situation but how to keep calm and keep a level head in the hard times.
When we start poker we know there will be downswings but we never quite grasp how mentally challenging these situations will be.

I have a new house mate and she keeps on going on about how easy my life must be. But without the freedom that poker gives me I dont think I would do it as a "job"
The mental strain and stress that we indure everyday is massive.

Together we can get through it :f_biggrin:


Atoks
Joined: 01.06.2008

Hey all,

sorry for not replying for such a long time and thank you for the support lennonac, it was and is much appreciated :)

I've been dealing with other issues apart from poker. RL has presented certain challenges and I'm just really not feeling poker these days at all. I think I'll avoid it for now, until I feel some sort of a hunger again and sort my life out a bit better.

For now, thanks to everyone for reading, this probably isn't the end but just a bit of a break :) Hope I'm back soon and I'll try to be even better then!


Long overdue, but congratulations on being featured in the Community Round-up as Blog of the Week. :P

Keep up the great work.

Best regards,

Bart


Flows
Joined: 09.03.2006

Congratulations Atoks!!

take the brake and come back stronger!


Atoks
Joined: 01.06.2008

Originally posted by EagleStar88

Long overdue, but congratulations on being featured in the Community Round-up as Blog of the Week. :P

Keep up the great work.

Best regards,

Bart

Thank you very much for this recognition! I am very happy to have my blog rewarded this way :) This only motivates more to get back to the game and again strive to improve and build on becoming an even better player.

I hope to be back with some good news about my (likely inevitable) return soon. Good luck to everyone!


Atoks
Joined: 01.06.2008

Hey all,

It's been a while but things are still the same mostly. I'm mostly breakeven at poker and I'm dealing with many RL issues which prevent me to be fully focused on poker and also to play as much as I would want. I have to say that this is probably the most challenging my life has been recently.

I hope to be able to go back to poker full time soon. I'm trying as much as I can to work on my leaks and I have also watched a few platinum videos since it is very likely that my status will be lost due to lesser activity. I just really wish that I sort everything out soon and go back to playing poker the way it's meant to be played - care-free and relaxed.

GL to everyone and I'll cya around :)


Atoks
Joined: 01.06.2008

Hello again!

It's been over a week now and it's been a shitty week. Not only poker-wise but RL didn't improve much either. Thankfully I've managed to work out solutions for both/all the problems.

I now have a Plan A and Plan B. Both are the result of many hours of thinking and deliberating on what the best possible solutions are. If all goes according to plan A I will have moved out our house by the end of summer 2010. If I have to use plan B it will happen no latter than first couple of months of 2011. Both plans rely heavily on what will happen with my bankroll in the near future and plan A has an added bonus of a newer car in spring-time.

As said it all depends on how variance will treat me over the next few months. I am confident in my poker skills and I firmly believe that in order to overcome the current obstacles in my life I have to set the bar even higher and focus fully on what would be my near-future goals anyway. Every time that I have set goals for myself I was able to make them come true. If not in the given time window then I was able to make em true shortly there after.

Those who follow my blog regularly will know that I spend most of my time playing MTT SnGs. Recently the variance in these games has caught up with me a bit and my bankroll has taken a big hit. However I was still able to cash out a lot of money before I was hit by this latest downer. I was very upset by this ... it's hard when one goes on a three week+ losing streak, even more so when one plays well and loses with better hands against worse ones over and over and over ... but ultimately what helped me overcome this was the analysis of my own game. Through looking over as many of my games as possible, thinking about every individual situation from early stage to heads up even harder and through some help from some of my poker friends (big thanks to everyone!) I feel I have managed to raise my game to a level not reached before. This very fact has helped me in my resolution to set new, higher goals for me in order to help me stay focused and on the track of consistency.

The added bonus of Plans A and B is the fact that it will solve all my problems. Considerable as they might be they are still the next logical step in my ambitions to become a poker professional and earn the highest sums of money possible. While after reading this latest entry some will go on thinking my ego is too big for my own good, I firmly believe that only setting challenges openly, like I have been doing for the past year, helps me to be even more motivated and focused. My goals and desires have always driven me forward and helped me realize my dreams and wishes, I expect the very same with these most recent ones ... Plan A and Plan B :)

So here it is ... out in the open ... for everyone to see and be like a beacon to help me stay on my path ... to poker heaven :) This also means that I am back full time and u can expect even more updates on what goes on in my poker career and partly RL. Stay tuned everybody and wish me good skill and decision making


best of luck Atoks. Stick to your game and you will make it!


Flows
Joined: 09.03.2006

this really looks like a plan!! Good luck and if you have trouble, let me know!