
And the story:
Just have stepped up a new limit. Everything was just like during the limit before [1]. Then I dropped 130BB in one day [2]. I didn't understand what happened. But I shrugged it off and started the slow recovery [3]. Then today, half an hour before I sat down to play [4]. An epic, 120BB downswing in 30 hands in one sitting. First I ran into some cooler in HU, then as more joined the table I slipped into some kind of apathetic self-distruct tilt mode and started my freefall.
It is paralyzing - I have never experienced something like this before. On the other hand, I made some guys happy. One of them called me "superdonk" in the chat. WTF have just happened? What now?
I should move down a limit. But will my ego allow it? What should I do? I have no self-confidence left. Why did I allow things to get out of control?
I needs halp