wow, almost a whole week without poker now...
thank god im leaving for münich tomorrow! Hopefully I'll be able to catch up a bit there 
With that said, I won't be updating so much here until I get back, so dont forget to check out...
So now I'll return to doing the last packing and then I have to go to bed... need to get up early tomorrow 
Have a great week guys! I sure will ♦
xx vonki 
yea baby yea...
back to reality, snow, exams and cold... and obv having a cold. it sucks. 
the temperature difference is really a killer. Sunshine in munich, snowstorm in sweden ♦
but man, what a weekend... it was AWESOME.
but yea, I'll fill you in with some details later on... right now I just wanna get into MY BED and enjoy the silence hahah 
have an exam tomorrow, and I am so prepared to fail it. I mean, I did study a bit but I dont think I will make it. But care. 
xx vonki
So guess what, I laid awake all night coughing... my cold is really getting worse by the minute. So yea, didnt even go to school today obviously.
I have however played some more hands on NL50 SH. So far I really feel quite confident there. I havent played more then 1400 hands yet, but I still think I'ts completely doable... I'm already up a couple of stacks
So, it got me thinking. After 27k hands on NL25 SH, I felt ready to move up to NL50... and the question now, is how long will it take me until I take the next step? Any guesses?
I sat a goal at the beginning of the year to reach NL50sh/NL100fr before the end of the year... those goals feel kind of irrelevant now ♦
I'd like to think that I will be able to beat NL50 before the end of june. So basicaly in 4 months. Who knows, I might not need that long, I might need longer... But well, one step at a time. 
Since I'm going to Gothenburg on friday to party on with the swedish crew/members I guess I wont have THAT much time to play poker. I mean, I'm still behind at school too 
Hmm hmm. ♦
Thoughts/questions/comments are welcome.
xx vonki
Oh and ps: I ordered the book the poker mindset today! ♦
Yea that is the question, and my newest challange.
Is it possible for me to play 50k hands on NL50, and win 1500$ (aka 30BI) ? Rakeback/bonuses not included ofc.
It would mean I would need a winrate of about 6bb/100 which doesnt sound completely impossible. I mean yea, it will be hard but that's why it's a challange ♦
NL50 so far feels pretty much like NL25 did, only a bit more aggressive. But heck, I'm getting more aggressive too ♦
Unfortunately I'm still really ill I haven't been this ill in years actually. Right now it looks like if I wont be able to go to Gothenburg this weekend, which would really suck.
Needless to say I'm not really able to play poker atm either. It's quite boring beeing this sick actually, all I do is sleep and watch tv... and cuddle with my little teddy
Until next time, take care!
xx vonki
Good luck for your challenge and drink some vodka to forget that you're ill ♠_grin:
Originally posted by Kojika
Good luck for your challenge and drink some vodka to forget that you're ill ♠_grin:
muhahahahah, that's my student! monkey value line! 
Obviously kind of struggeling atm
But hey... when it get's tough you gotta fight some more.
Sure thang, will do.
xx vonki
True story?
Hmm hmm. What a bad couple of days I have behind me. The usual... runbad, suckouts, tilt. Add beeing sick(thus not beeing able to attend the PS-meeting etc), having problems at school and some other useless whine and you got a tasty whine-cocktail.
I havent been able to keep the frustration/anger/disappointment away. I dont know, I am just really in a very bad/unharmonic mood. I suppose beeing ill just makes me weak also when it comes to mindset.
I was thinking about just giving up and go to bed... but then it hit me. Why run away from it? Yea yea, it's not easy to turn around when having such a shitty day as today but... If I can manage to turn days like these around, world domination is near...
Neeh, I'm not giving in until I turned the bad mood into a good mood. so I might need to stay up for quite a while... ♦
As I'm sitting here thinking I'm already feeling better. Why focus on the bad things in life? Why not just be happy about the good stuff that's happening? Because there are good things going on, there always are.
Okay. Better mood [x]
But I said good mood did'nt I? Hmm. Is it even possible to turn from rly bad to good without a helping hand? This is probably one of those situations where you need your Co-pilot... (those who have seen the movie "up in the air" will understand ♦)
With a strong will you come a far way. I've spent the last 15 minutes thinking about all the things I'm greatful about in life and you know what?
Life is awesome.
It is, when you dont let things like this get to you. So what if you have a few rough days. How are you gonna be able to know what days are really good if you dont get reminded of what a really bad day feels like?
Quoting a very wise person...
remember: being awesome is better than feeling shitty
So there you go ♦ Yes, It's possible to turn your mood from really bad to good. All you need is the power of will. (and some awesome co-pilots obv).
True story.
Peace and love on all of you!
xx vonki :heart:
Also you took some of my monieez today so I hope that makes you feel at least a little bit better, too..
awesome post swedish lady (bow)
Originally posted by vonki
Why focus on the bad things in life? Why not just be happy about the good stuff that's happening? Because there are good things going on, there always are.
right attitude! that's how we roll
and gl in taking the moniiiez of other ps members 
i'm loving the attitude girl!
life & poker have been so tough for me lately as well. im just exhausted from it all. but now, i'll just have to be awesome instead. ♠_cool:
ty for the post. sometimes, everyone just needs a little reminder.
wat was it like for a girl in BMP? is it something i would want to aim for? i mean, is there something for women? or is it a complete boyzzz party?
thanks TwiceT Learned from the best... 
@ purplefizz: Life & poker are always gonna try to bring us down and put us through some nasty stuff, but awesome is the way to go! Just keep focusing on the things that makes you happy girl
About the BMP, it's hard to give a general answer. I mean, I was surrounded by boys 24/7 for 5 days ♦ But if you ask me, I loved it The guys were really truly awesome. Made alot of friendships.
I have always been one to enjoy hanging out with boys more then girls, so for me it was great.
There were plenty of girlfriends at the dinner as "+1's" too, so it was a nice mix actually. Once the club opened it was open for everyone, so it filled up with more girls too.
But I would say, if you were to hang out with the "partycrew", you are in for a good time for sure. And I am sure they would welcome you with open arms! As long as you are in for some parteh
xx vonki
What a badbeat... some douchebag stole my laundry-time
Stressing to get out of bed after a long grind-night and then some bastard stole my time... grrr. 
Oh well, there was a spot free tonight at least.
So what's up guys? Very few posts in here lately
I'm still on NL50, last 2 days I have played aloooot. Like 4k hands I think. Turned into quite a grindster Sunday's update will be exciting... ye, thats right. Still not checking results. I did the first 8k hands on NL50 or so, just to see how I was doing but it obviously made me realize how bad it was for me to constantly check.
I had a little case of tilt after my downer, but the last 2 days have been completely tilt free. Have been a bit frustrated at times, but nothing I couldnt control. So I decided to leave the first 10k behind me, I'm just gonna focus on how I'm doing this month instead.
With other words: Things are great really. Only school sucks, but that's nothng new
Stay awesome people!
xx vonki
Originally posted by vonki
So I decided to leave the first 10k behind me, I'm just gonna focus on how I'm doing this month instead.
Funny to read that... I decided exactly the same thing 2 days ago and it's going pretty well for me.
Good luck
Thank you my dear!
I spent the whole day studying yesterday, so I did'nt get time to play a single hand
But since I did my exam today (which I'm pretty sure I passed too, woho!), all I have left to say is...
Shuffle up and deal!
xx vonki
P.S Oh, and keep beeing awesome everyone!
Been a while since I made a proper update. Like I said, I have put the first 10k hands behind me. I ran bad, played bad and what not. So the last 10k hands(week), I've actually done my best.
I've had sweatsessions, mostly with my sweatpartner/coach XCheese It's interesting, because according to him I play very solid for a NL50 player... I wish the results would agree.
I'm looking forward to the next 30k hands on the limit, as my downer seems to have let go, and hopefully, it's time to stop breaking even.
Week Summary
10214 hands
+155,55$ Profit
+122,70$ Rakeback
+50$ Bonus
+ 1 Poker Mindset book
+ 6 Iron man days
Even though I am up a bit this week I am break even in total now (up with rakeback tho). So from here on, I hope it starts going uuuup. I'm not as nervous going to the tables anymore. I'm getting used to the new limit finally
I've also decided this week that it's time for me to get myself a coach. It's always nice with a 3rd or 4th perspective on things. Because from this point on, it's really important that I find my leaks and eliminate them.
I had a look around for which coaches are avaliable on my limit, but eventually I chose a person who doesnt really coach but who is a handjudge and who I think I would feel comfortable with. So I guess, next week or something will be the first coaching ♦ Looking forward to it
But yea, all in all it's been an okay week. The bonus, the book and the rakeback allone is quite nice, compared to what I was used to. But now, I've started getting greedy already But that's just fine I guess, it motivates me.
So hup hup, on to the new week! Bring it on!
*edit* Just booked my tickets to Prague to meet up with the partycrew for a crazy weekend So the next couple of weeks better not be break-even weeks
xx vonki
Oh oh oh. Sun is shining, snow is melting and I am smiling...
Moving towards springtime baby! Finally this long, dark and cold winter is coming to it's end...
LIFE IS AWESOME!
Poker is really swingy still run normal for a while, then run into setups (loose my aces vs a royal fx ♦). Seem to have some slight problems with tilt still, but hey that just gives me something to work on and it's not like I tilt really bad I just need to aviod letting it affect my feelings even just a little bit.
I'll update like tomorrow night or something, maybe monday... right now I wanna enjoy the sun!
xx vonki
