wow, so many things going on, i hardly can follow everything.
few things i wanted to say out loud on scamming theme in general:
I think there are at least 2 groups of ppl that cheat/scam: 1, bigtime selfish gamblers with no morals who just take immediate shorterm benefit before any other longterm consideration (possibly Girah, Max?) 2, for some reason a longertime RL "losers" w some sort of mental blocks who just dont know other ways (Simo?)
My take is that group 1 should be just beated to blood and thrown into jail. period. Group 2 is a bit more difficult to judge imo. Simo is not a spineless pig, i know that for a fact. He is just trapped in his past. Idk the details, but it's easy to keep running away from ur own feeling of shame/guilt. Anyone who saw the movie Catch me if you can, prolly knows what I am trying to get across here. The biggest problem w these ppl is forcing them realize they need to be honest w themselves and their close friends AT ALL COSTS. The ppl made big big mistakes in life, there is no easy way around. It's going to take a lot of tough effort for them to fight for their credibility/image/good lifestyle. To make this journey all alone is I think totally impossible.
Personal experience: I interrupted high school for 3years in the last year(even tho i was 1 of the top5 in the year and it was the best high school in the country, so by no means i am a slouch at studying, in fact i had an excellent shot at full scholarship at ivy leage unis) before finally getting back to final exams since i was questioning purpose of life. I was too tired of living tedious life and I was on the verge of suicide. My mental state was downright in shambles and I just run away from almost all of my responsibilities. I spent a lot of my parent's money. I traveled around mid Europe w nobody knowing where i was, just using credit cards to cash. I talked to homeless ppl on streets and almost got beaten up badly. I attended many spiritual seminars and studied religions "fulltime" while also playing chess. This is only thing i did for the best of 3years. That's my story, i eventually moved ahead. How was it? My family and basically 2 other best friends helped me in the end. Ppl i most hurt and i even feared to look them in the eye still found the love for me to give me another chance.
For anyone in the trouble: u need people!! Never give up on honesty. Admit u re a piece of shit and u don't deserve other than ppl slabbing and spitting on u! Admit u need help and look for the ppl who can give u help. Don't look for 1 person. Everyone has his treshold which when u pass, they just are so mad at u, they will not help u for a while anymore, just look for the positives in anyone and be hard on urself in not giving in ur former fears. Forget of what ppl think of you, just do what u have to do to get ur life on a decent track again and have that mission before u, only that ntg else. Moments when u come close to death or just utter humiliation are so good for life lessons since u finally can start taking ur freaking life srsly! U have 1 chance, 1 life! It's over soon u know, better make it good than feel sorry when u re old.
@TT: oh sir, u re the man rly! I rly appreciate ur communicating and social skills so much. U re blending so many ppl for so many good things. As Jonas said, i think, these bad things are bumps on the road which make us realize that we are walking. And u indeed are walking very fast, imo try to rly accept the value of these things from the positive side, even if at first glance it might seem there is none. U re so much stronger everytime this kind of shit happens, i know for good. U re a monster RL beast now! I know how many issues u re dealing with on regular basis and that life has been tough on u, but i think, we are seeing a great man and a leader for many in the making. Be strong and get strong!
@ur vids w vonki: actually i watched 1 when tired last week and i rly liked all the components of the vid, i esp liked how easy u re to communicate the points u want to make abt the hand. U dont waste time repeating things many times and u always stress the most crucial things instantly, very good clear explanations relevant to the limit +a very good interaction w ur partner vonki, i loved how u let her make her points on the hand and alw ask her proper questions, i can imagine micorstakers must be loving this! Only thing i ve seen as a downside was the selection of the hands, i am not sure which vid it was, but it had purely moster valuehands and she even played them correctly mostly, so i was wondering if she couldnt pick some more difficult spots.
Anyway gl in everything and plllls next time let me know abt the homegame
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