@ nsavov hey thanks, yes when you look at it like that, it's pretty great start! Thanks for the reminder, need to look at that, and less the pure money aspect of the small bankroll at the moment. 
I guess I'll have to go and investigate to find some bewbs now... thanks 
I have tried meditation but only managed to meditate for one day, will try again at some point for sure. Astral projection, i heard of it, but never knew what it was, tell me more!
Day 3 early evening update
I haven't played any more since my last post, as I was watching some NBA games yesterday so didn't go to sleep until 7am, and woke up at 2pm (I had been awake for about 20 hours prior to this). I'm enjoying listening to some music lately that I haven't heard in a while, because I've been downloading some music from artists I like to listen to while grinding. So far I have Coldplay and Verve albums, I totally forgot how much I enjoyed listening to Coldplay's music, even the stuff back from 2000. In my youth ♦
I wanted to share my vision statement for poker I made which I'm going to refer to each time I play for the time being, starting before my next session today.
I play poker because I enjoy playing poker. What I enjoy the most is overcoming myself at the tables, for I am always really my only real opponent. I recognize that while technical skill and analysis are important to the game, they are secondary to emotional mastery.
I am in complete control of my emotions when I play. I no longer refer to bad players as ‘fish’ mentally, I refer to them as ‘bad players’ this helps me to remember that when they win pots they are still bad players and if I continue to play well against them I will eventually come out on top.
I am impervious to the outcome of individual hands at the table. I know how to play and I play in such a way that I will profit over time. I know this and remember it every single time the outcome of a hand happens.
Poker is something I have dedicated the majority of the next 12 months of my life to. I am going to be playing poker every day. For many hours. The quality of experience I have when playing is therefore really important because this is my life energy and time that I am using. I will remember this when I am playing so that at the slightest indication of any negative emotion I remember that the quality of my experience is just as important as any result in any hand.
Every day I will play well. I will enjoy my edge over the field. The art and beauty of poker is knowing that you have an edge. The biggest edge I can empower myself with every time I play is the emotional edge. When others tilt I will smile. When others open their ranges up because they are impatient I will smile and continue playing my A game.
I recognize that patience is the hallmark of great poker champions. The daily changes in my bankroll are not related to how good I feel about my game. I feel good about my game because I know I play well.
I realize that if some poker god came down to me while I am playing and said to me, I can give you 4x your current bankroll, over the next 3 days, but you will play every hand as a dog, and you will get it in bad but profit, but that in the future you will continue to play bad hands as a dog without this god mode protection, I realize if this option was open to me I would not like to take it. What this means is that it doesn’t matter if I win money, if I play bad I lose. If I get my money in bad I will lose, maybe not today but tomorrow. Likewise if I get my money in good I will win, maybe not today but tomorrow.
I am grateful to be in a place and time in the world where I have the great opportunity to be able to play poker. While people in other less fortunate parts of the world are fighting for their daily existence, I have food, shelter, and a computer which allows me to play online poker.
I am fortunate and I remember this each day.
These truths are important to me, and I will remember as many of them as possible, as often as I remember while I am playing at the table.
Eventually I will be rewarded with great results, and the freedoms that this will grant me. For now I will keep my sights on the simple step ahead which is simply to play excellent poker every time I sit down to play at the table.
I think this will help me remember what's important when I play. Looking forward to getting some play in over the Easter weekend. Have a great Friday night!
