Liar Dice – Or, How I Became A Poker Addict
Well, it's time to add to the madness. Here it is... the one you've all been waiting for...
Cue drum roll crescendo…
... my... poker... blog.
I'm not sure how often I will post, but if you like what you've read, check back from time to time and I will try to let you know how it goes.
I daresay there won't be anything especially new or revolutionary in the ramblings to come. No reason for you to read this blog over any of the other excellent diaries already available on this site. Perhaps it's more for me; so that I can chart my progress (or record the downward spiral into one more crazy addiction...).
Background:
I'm 33 years old (edit: 35 now
)(re-edit: 36?
)(re-re-edit: hang one more year on the line) (oh ffs, I'm 39), originally from London, England. In the life that came before this one I was a high-powered lawyer in a big law firm doing very well for myself indeed. There was only one snag: I was stressed out all the time and not very happy. So me and Mrs Tim64 junked our jobs and went travelling. When we got back I spent another year writing a book (maybe it will be published some day – but probably not). And now I'm back on the job market, looking to do something less crazy than what I did before - and by now used to scraping by on a lot less money. And, most importantly, much happier.
I had always been vaguely aware of Poker - my dad and I used to play Liar Dice when I was a kid (a simple poker related dice game based on chance and bluff). Sometime towards the middle to end of 2008 I discovered online poker and specifically thefreepokerroom.com. I remember one time not long ago, sitting up in the early hours of the morning watching Obama getting to the White House and playing poker for imaginary chips, and thinking: "how cool is this?".
A long time ago, when I had more money to splash around, I occasionally went to casinos on work trips. I only ever played blackjack and always strictly according to 'basic strategy'. Sometimes I won; sometimes I lost. Overall (of course) I lost... a little bit. Whatever strategy I tried to employ (like betting 2 chips instead of 1 after winning a hand etc.) fell foul of the fundamental truth about all casino games: they are mathematically rigged in favour of the casino. It's impossible to win in the long run - unless you card count or something (and I'm nowhere near intelligent enough for that). But, as I started to get more interested in poker, another realisation hit me: in this game you're not pitting yourself against the casino; you are pitting yourself against other players. And these other players have no intrinsic advantage over you -- it just comes down to your skill and theirs. In principle, if you can play better than them, it is theoretically possible for you to make money.
Beginnings:
Being a nervous type and not one to take chances, I didn't want to risk any of my own money before I knew a bit more about the game. So one day I Googled 'poker strategy' and - surprise, surprise, - came across a site called PokerStrategy.Com. And the rest is history.
I passed the quiz, deposited £15 of my own money (by mistake – because Party Poker is set up to make you think you can't get the $50 bonus without also making a deposit
) and got the first $50. And I started the slow grind playing SSS on NL10 at the end of January this year (2009). I had a really good start and immediately started fantasising about being the next Negreanu. A few days later my winnings had disappeared and my bankroll was back where it had started. So I posted hands and grinded some more and eventually I was back to making a very slow but very steady profit. I managed to clear the $50 bonus and then, eventually, the extra 100$. Once I had cleared that I decided to try my hand at SnGs. I found SSS alright but just not involving enough. Only when you were the big blind and got a free play did you ever get the chance to evaluate the flop and play what I considered to be 'real poker'. It seemed too depressing simply to have to fold almost every hand or, with great hands, to try to get all your money pre-flop. No real ability to make decisions of your own.
So now I'm playing 3$ SnGs on Party Poker and getting royally screwed by their outrageous rake (20%!?). As so often happens I benefited from ridiculous upwards variance in my first few tournaments and had an ROI of about 300% after 10 or so trnys. I knew the figure would come down but still I had that mistaken aura of invincibility that comes with an early upswing. After a while I started losing more than I was winning and so once again it was time to get back to the books: articles, posting hands and ICM training. After another 200 or so SnGs, I have at last recouped my losses from when I was playing like an idiot, and have managed to get my ROI into positive territory again (currently an awe inspiring 3.75%
after 193 trnys). Obviously it's still a very long way off where I hope it will be long-term.
I'm planning a move to another poker platform soon -- hopefully one that doesn't dissect my internal organs for rake every time I buy in. And I'm hoping that less rake doesn't come at the cost of much tighter opposition - but we'll see.
The Future
Well, I guess if I'm honest I hope that one day I will be able to make enough money playing poker that I don't have to work (that's probably what most of us secretly hope, isn't it?). I have a strong suspicion that I will turn out to be not skilful enough for that. Again, we'll just have to see. If that's not possible then I think I'll be happy to settle for a bit of extra beer money and the occasional meal out on the proceeds. But the thing that keeps me going; keeps me studying; keeps me posting hands; keeps me watching GSN's High Stakes Poker at one o'clock in the morning… is the knowledge that there are some people out there who make their living playing poker. And so, that tiny, unrealistic, pie in the sky, dreaming bit of my brain keeps thinking: "Well, why not me, too?".
Current BR: $230
ROI: (3.75%)
Profit from SnGs: $21.60
Tournaments played: 193
Short-Term Aim: achieve bankroll of $250 and start playing the 5.5$ SnGs…
Good Luck at the Tables
Tim64
P.S. Thank you PokerStrategy!
Index of Key Entries (March 2013) - [WIP]:
On confidence and downswings
Terrible Tuesdays
The 1,000 Hand Challenge
Anatomy of a Downswing versus Anatomy of an Upswing
Frustration, Equity and the Misery Scale
One small step...
Remember to cry 'weeeeee!' as you slide back down
Incey wincey spider
The Mysterious Case of the Downswing with the False Bottom
One Thousand Dollars
Too little, too late.
Choosing the Right Path
To Infinity and Beyond (well, the $22+2 SnGs, at least)
Two Kinds of Break Even
Kid Poker
The Guilty Pleasure of Running Good
The Ascent of K2
Red line ponderings
December 2009 Update
When Lines Meet in the Middle
A Year in Poker
Cool Runnings but Tilt Resistant?
Taking Bets
February Review
Off Sick
Rake Machine
$6k Bankroll At Last
Planning to go Pro
First $1k Day
First 9man $55 shipped
Biggest cash pot
Resigning from Day Job
Struggling
Reality Check
Planning for Pro
The night b4 going pro - reflections
Day 1 as a Pro
New House - Moved In
First month as Pro
First month in profit
Filtering out the river raise
Tough Times
Upswingaments
Open folding Aces
The Tilt Hand
Jan 2011 - Donut or Hole?
The Ant & Grasshopper - MUST READ
Monkey Tilt
March 2011 - Discovering 6mx SnGs!
Black Friday Post
First 1k SnGs
Deliriously Happy
April 2011 - Best month so far
$55 6mx shipped
2.75k games
Oldschool Setup
May 2011 Wrapup - New High
The Value of Money
Full Tilt Suspended
Zero Hour - After the Crash
Runbad competition
Austerity Measures
Tomaloc Explains variance to me
Runbad Mantra & $55s on Party
$3k Under EV
First Year as a Pro
Plans for Year Two
Back from Holidays
Month End Barbecue!
Some clarity of attitude about the Red Line
Directors' Quarterly Report