He took a glass jar and asked if it was full or empty. They all said it was empty. Then he filled it with medium sized rocks, and asked again if it was full or empty. They all said it was now full. Then he took small rocks and poured them to the jar. They fell among the bigger rocks. Then he asked if it was full or empty. They all said that it was full. Then he took small grains of sand and poured them to the jar, asking once again if it was full or empty. And they all said it was full.
That jar is our life. First rocks are the foundations of our life: family, health, friends etc. Smaller rocks are things that make our life good but are not that essential: hobbies, music, good salary etc. And the small grains of sand are the little things that make our life good: morning coffee, good dinner, movies, sunshine etc.
If you take away those small grains from your life, it would still be pretty good. If you also take away the small rocks, your life is good. But if you take away the bigger rocks, your life would be pretty empty.
We all define our rocks and grains individually. Now the question is, what size of a rock is poker to you?
I stumbled to that story yesterday, while reading a book about treatments for gambling addicts. Part of my studies is to do practical training in the fields of social services, and I am spending 7 weeks in a project about centralizing the services for gamling addicts.
As I have been involved with poker and casino games (as a player and as an employee) for 10 years, I have seen a lot of different type or players. That story got me to thinking where poker stands in my life at the moment. As the Finnish community got more or less shut down, a medium sized rock was taken from my jar. Being a Poker School coordinator and a coach was the backbone for my income as a student. I dropped off from my daily job at the end of July, as I calculated that the income from those along with others would be sufficient.
Every cloud has a silver lining though. When I was working as a coordinator and a coach, I didn't have much time to play myself or do private coachings as much as I would have liked to. Now I have time for them. But now we come to the interesting part: pressure and stress.
As a student, the last thing I would like to have in my life is the stress of income. That's why I haven't ever counted my poker winnings to my income. It would be easy to do stuff like "I have 40 hours a month to play poker, so that would be 35K hands. With winrate of 10bb/100 that would be 35 buyins. Easy money." but we all know that variance is a bitch. A MAJOR bitch. If I assume that I would get $xxx a month from poker, what happens if I don't get it? What if I get a 100K downswing, meaning that I won't make any money in 3 months? I can't just increase the volume, as I have so much things to do in my life (that are those big rocks). So I would like to keep poker as a bonus, and secure my life and income in other ways.
I don't know how I will do that. Might be that private coaching goes up and I can get solid field of students. Or might be that I can be a coach at somewhere else, who knows. Or might be that I go to normal job every now and then along my studies. Or might be that I get an insane heater at the end of the year and earn enough of a cushion ($$$) to start playing for income.




