I really don't want this to be a long post about how once i was good at this game then i f*cked it all up! Long story short, started grinding from 2012/2013, was moving through the micros quickly, started playing NL50, switched cities, had some personal problems, did not calcualte my spendings and there i was, without a bankroll. Oh, and i guess i must admit after all that i had a bad mindset, was not prepared for downswings, i thought i was very good when in fact i was just mediocre i guess, or at least nothing special.
But hey, i've restarted my grind, i was lucky enough to still have friends in poker community, even though how i treated some of them i wouldn't be suprised nor insulted if they gave up on me. I've started all the way back from NL2 and now i am at NL 10 and this time i want to give it a one final shot at this career. It's 2016, poker is not that easy as it was when i first started, but i am one of those idiots that never does anything easy.
Also one important notice, i live in a country where you can actually live an okayish life with NL10 grind and have in mind that i do have to withdraw money here and there. Unemployment is very big here, and most of the jobs i can find are shit and pay less than monthly NL10 income. I study something on the side, hoping to secure myself a backup career if once again i do not suceed at this.
So yes, maybe it's not the wisest of the choices but it's not all about money ( mostly it is though ♦ ), and to tell you the truth nothing i ever did or tried doing has made me feel like studying and playing poker and applying the concepts you learn into your game. So for the first time in my life i will not listen to others, or try to fit in by doing what everyone wants from me, and i will have one final go at this.
So why am i sharing this with you, my dear stranger ? Well, i used to have a blog back in the day, and it gives me motivation, setting challenges and trying to complete them. When i set it in my own mind with only me knowing it, i can cheat, be lazy and i can lie to myself how i did not have the time or resources.
When i set a challenge on a blog, it makes me work harder, simple as that ♦
Last month i had a crazy profit of 320 euros at NL5 games, mixing 888 poker and Ipoker, so i started playing NL10 this month. It is going okay, but for the first time since my restart i've had 3 bad days in a row and i feel that feeling of self doubt that ruined me in the first place starting to come back, so i decided to motivate my self with a blog, although i was planning this blog for some time now. Since it's almost end of November i will not post any challenge for December yet, and for the rest of November i would like to :
1 . Play more hands. Last month i played around 50k hands, and this month only 24k so far. I was out of town for few days but still i think i should have played at least 30k by now. So i would set my challenge to 15k more hands in the last 6 days of November. ( if i go into a bad run i will ofc stop this challenge and take a break ).
2. Spend 1.5h in the last 6 days of November on coaching videos. I was doing this at the start of the month but i got lazy in the last few days.
3. Think of a good challenge for December, something to get me motivated ( would appreciate any advices ).
That's it, if you have any questions or advices feel free to post! Oh and yes, anyone interested in seriously studying the game and doing reviews of sessions on skype, feel free to message me for skype.
GL HF 
