Hello everyone,
I'm making this thread because I can't think of any other way to vent off my frustration, although I know it will still be there even after I finish typing. So what happened? Last week I had over $1k in my EuroPoker account. This week I'm down to little over $100. The best way to imagine how I'm feeling right now would be walking in on a killer raping your daughter's corpse. This is not an exaggeration. I have put a lot of time and effort into poker, it's practically been my life for the past year or so, and I regularly withdrew money to pay for pretty much anything I needed. And now my bankroll is almost reduced to nothing. The worst part isn't losing money. It's working hard for something, and ending up losing money for my efforts.
Before I started taking poker seriously, I already quit school because I knew it was not my thing. Back then, I was hanging around with wrong people, selling substances and regularly getting into fights. When I noticed how much money I could earn playing poker, it seemed like a viable alternative to jobs that can land you into prison. After this week I just don't think that's the case anymore. With my bankroll I can't even play NL10 without risking going broke, and there's no way in hell I'm going to waste my time playing for 60 cent pots.
What I'm going to do is start grinding SnG until I get back to $1k. I will not deposit any of my own money, by that I mean money that didn't result from poker winnings. If I won't see a noticeable progress in the timespan of one week, I'll just withdraw what I have left and prematurely retire from poker. That will be my profit from two years of online gambling, and that's where it will end.
And, as promised, I still feel as bad as when I started typing...
