Almost every month I start ok, I'm playing really great but all that time I'm allways scared of 1 bad session.. I feel a lot of tension during the "A game" in my head and it's like it has to happen. Few days ago I have decided to try NL25 Rush FR. Games were really easy despite under EV run and somehow "the session" just had to happen(4bi down in 2k hands). When I went through my hands I saw that I almost didn't win any bigger pots at showdown but still I made some mistakes that are not typical for me(non-sd). This is very critical for me because after "session" I usually play bad and I need a while to gather myself up. I'm good in a few days and then I usually start playing a winning poker again. I know 4bi is not a downswing or something but I know that "the session" is a problem in my head and I would like to get it out. Somebody has the same problem with the tension?
Here is my graph with "the session":
bb/100 is still great, near 4, but I have a feeling that I could crush that limit with 6+.
Maybe I should open a blog and keep posting results so I wouldn't play careless in that sessions?
I've decided to analyze my game in first few thousand hands and now.. My postflop game has improved because of some videos and stuff but my preflop play is just bad. I was folding a lot of hands on late positions. I've had 1 morning session today and I was just a little bit looser and red line is around the zero.. It was only 800 hands but still.. I'm just worried when my opponents start to exploit me that I'm not gonna see it and I won't tight up.
