Hey Guys!
I used to play nl50-nl100 for like 2 years with solid results. Both full rings and short handed. the problem is that after gettig curhsed in September last year I struggle to rebuit my play and confidence. Lately been playing mostly nl 50 which till hell out of em but I do very little volume nad given that I ahve to paid expenses from poker I can't save enough to move back to nl100.
Some of you probably recognize me here. Fro everyone who would like to know about me more I still have a blog here in english community:
Blog
What I am struggling the most is the tilt. I used to be a guy that would preffer to grind like 10 hours of nl 50 (where I have had like 8bb/100 winrate) than nl100 (where I have had like 5bb/100 winrate) just to avoid variance.
So for like 2 years I had like great life no problems but then in September or so got crushed badly by variance. I end up running like 100BI belov EV and lost overall like 40BI in 130k hands period. So I got literally crushed.
This was also the time when I started to work with our fellow mental coach Erik Stenqvist.
This Year graph
There are just 2 problems. Another thing is I also developed some scary leaks where I just play scary poker that still works great at full ring games but not really at shorthanded lately.
I am also terrible at playing ZOOM/fast forward Poker, at best break-even if not worse. The 30k break-even period on my graph at the end is me trying to play fast forward poker 
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-playing more (at least 100k hands per month)
I struggle with the volume which make it hard to make a living from poker. Just due to my tilt problem I don't want to play. Most of the time I am too scared.
- move to nl200 the lmit I never beat.
Last limit used to beat is nl100 . I used to have like 4.5bb there just haven't been playing nl100 for like 7 months cause never have a roll to do so.
-Developing a better gameplan
-move to Thailand till May ♦
-just be happy overall so be less affected by poker results themselves.
I have pretty poor gameplan.I don't barell enough and call too much or fold too much in many spots. I play almost fit or fold out of position and can't develop really solid gameplan there.
I am really good in making money from the fish but really bad when it goes to playing vs other regs. I don't understand their strategy good enough and make some silly mistakes vs them.
I also noticed that many other regs consider me tilting as a read and they do things vs me to induce (e.g. limp/reraising vs me, or minr my cbets etc.) knowing that I am able to spew even vs nits.
I suck at 3b pots, don't barell enough and don't bluff enough and overall I odn't know what to do. Same in 4b pots when someone calls my 4b I don't know what to do most of the time.
I have the worst river call efficiency in the world like 1.18 overall. I just think that everyone try to bluff me off the hand so I keep calling 
I think that it will be a great learning opportunity. Most of the people here are way better players than me so I will be able to learn and develop better gameplan that will allow me to beat comfortably at least nl100 again.
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