Summer of Success. Breaking through mental barriers.
Poker has always been something that I have done terrible at. I started trying to play it in 2012 or something, would get frustrated and quit, then come back in a year or year and a half in a different format and the same thing would happen. I recently started having success in November, but I was also in mad mindset that would make me very tilted and I ended up running into mindset issues and when my 2nd NL10 shot failed it really screwed up my mindset. I played MTTs after that and really liked the format. I got overly busy with studying school and nothing else, combined with just kind of letting myself go by ignoring fitness and health got me depressed. I really got myself dug into a hole, and I am starting this blog to help me get out of it. I thrive when I set difficult goals for myself, and I am doing just that this summer. I plan to break through the mental wall I have with poker and get back into the shape I was before I spiral deeper into this awful depressed mood.
This blog will keep me accountable. I will post my workouts, diet, poker study, school study (must be in classes over the summer.) I am going to make a busy schedule stick to it for the summer. Originally I had set a goal of NL25 for this summer, but I don’t think that is a good goal, it’s too results orientated.
Why Poker?
I truly think that poker is great for teaching life lessons. I think you can get very good at taking calculated risks, thinking ahead, understanding when you got lucky, and dealing with bad beats. I think Poker makes you mentally tough, and I need more of that. It’s something I want to get good at for life. It’s also cool, and we can win a little bit of money.
What is your plan?
I have a three week break after my last exam, so I will live like I would if I was a pro poker player until summer classes start. I found, for me, the effective way to form/break habits is through strict scheduling. I have put my schedule below. The busier I am the better in the beginning the better. Trying to make changes and not really committing to them ends in failure 100% of the time for me.
Something I want to start is a structured study group. I think 4-5 people where we all submit a hand on Fridays and go through an in depth review from the previous week’s hands on Fridays as well. The big problem I see in a lot of study groups is they turn into a huge whine fest and no real studying get done. If you’re interested in studying hard and making progress this summer please contact me.
What is going to be the hardest about this summer?
If the past is any indicator it will be confidence. I really have struggling with confidence my whole life. I think it takes a lot more for me to feel like I know what I am doing that more most people. When my NL10 shot missed and then I ran break even at NL5 it really messed with me. I am doing this to put myself out there. The more I put on the line, the more I am going to have to lose and the harder it will be to walk away.
The second hardest thing will be getting my diet right. I have been eating too much sugar and breaking that habit is going to be a struggle for a while. I have done this before and the gym is the easy part but fixing my diet will be rough.
I have a mindset leak where I want to quit when I am up, so I will combat this by using the schedule above.
What format?
The long term goal will be to crush both MTTs and Cash, but I think at this point with a BR of $200 it’s much more important to build a bankroll and build fundamental concepts of poker down. I also think since in Cash the SPRs on average are higher they can still be much lower. I suspect there is more transfer going cash to tournaments than the other way. I could be wrong but this is the way that makes sense to me.
What do you want to get out of this?
This blog is going to be what keeps me accountable. I have it posted on many sites. I will post some notes from studying, and my hand reviews of my own play. Blogs are very useful to get my thought process out and I will be able to get leaks found out by other players.
Most of my study Material comes from Weasel, but I also have Janda’s books, RYE Cash course. I am going to start with Pre-flop, the move into cbetting and defending. I am really going to focus on an exploitative approach for these small stakes. I have a background in Math, Physics, Computer Science and Machine Learning so as much as learning GTO is fun, I think the assumption that Villain will figure out my strategy (which is what GTO protects against) isn’t the best assumption. I think exploitation is a skill that needs to be learned, and it only makes sense to sharpen that tool first at the very smallest stakes.
I want this blog to be a well put together learning path for others to get from. I want it to be a good influence on the community. I am going to post my notes from studying, and do hand reviews every day. And talk about the methods and concepts I will try and implement.
Here we go everyone!
First entry for studying starts tomorrow

