Ok, so I have played like almost 0 Poker since the end of agust when I so nicely wrote that
super encouraging 2 sentence post in my last blog which has been laid to rest with the piles
of other blogs in the latter pages of the Your Poker Blogs Section.
For those that are new to reading my blog, I am 8979687, been playing poker since June of 2008 or so.
The whole speel can be found at the beginning of my old blog. I ended up Tilting while playing FL, and
I had had enough of finding myself getting so upset over nothing.
When I ended my last blog, there was no real loss, or major problem with my BR. It was just that
after convincing myself over and over its just a game of random numbers where you can use
the odds in your favor, I found myself getting pissed off when the odds meant nothing and the
worst players I had ever seen were making profits and I was steadily grinding it out to what felt
like a pointless end.
I finsished up with a BR of like $360 Canadian. Thats what I ended up with when I withdrew the whole thing.
I have been having fun with play money again, and figured I would give Real money another solid shot,
this time, to eliminate Tilt, or reduce it greatly, I am starting with .25c US on Pokerstars.
There are 1 cent 990 or something player hyper turbos that pay out like 2 bucks for first.
thats a 25 buy in start ♠_biggrin:
There is no goal here to turn it into xxx amount of dollars, and no time limit to hit something or forget it,
I have my whole BR sitting with me, but I want to start out from scratch, so that I can enjoy the buildup
however long it takes me to do it. I figure this way when I do get up to higher limits, I can relax about the
results and money, because if I was able to make it somewhere with .25c then there is obviously no worries.
I seriuously want to find a way to detach myself from the monetary aspect of this game, and it is sooo hard to do
because most of your decisions at the beginning of a poker day are based on your BR. IE what site to play on what
limits have the right traffic that I can afford to play etc etc.
I can play the hardest video game ever and not get mad or throw my controller after playing soo long to have
something unlucky happen to me and have me lose everything to start over. There are all kinds of other
examples I can pull up of trying and failing or even having a rough time with but not getting mad at.
So maybe if I can actually not give a fuck about my results and I mean TRULY not care this time, I can have
the same outcome when the fish are biting but not biting the bait, biting me in the ass and wallet.
Thats it for now, thanks for reading, I will even post charts and graphs again, and update regularly.
