just kill me now

insane monkey tilt at the end, obviously
and i just have to include this HH:
Full Tilt, $2/$4 NL Hold'em Cash Game, 4 Players
LeggoPoker.com - Hand History Converter
Hero (UTG): $492.80
BTN: $124
SB: $187
BB: $574.65
Pre-Flop: 8♣ 7♣ dealt to Hero (UTG)
Hero raises to $9, BTN calls $9, 2 folds
Flop: ($24) 6♠ T♥ T♣ (2 Players)
Hero bets $12, BTN calls $12
Turn: ($48) A♣ (2 Players)
Hero checks, BTN bets $36, Hero raises to $99, BTN calls $63
River: ($246) 2♠ (2 Players)
Results: $246 Pot ($2 Rake)
Hero showed 8♣ 7♣ and LOST (-$120 NET)
BTN showed J♦ Q♠ and WON $244 (+$124 NET)
what adds to the insanity of this hand is my range: this is the line i take with strong hands and probably loads of weaker pairs, all of which are obviously ahead of QJ, and i pretty much never take it with draws, as it's a good and completely standard 2-barrel spot, plus i would probably always 2nd barrel air here and even some draws beat QJ, e.g. KJcc, KQcc