I did not think that I had a problem with tilt.
I am able to take bad beats in stride -- within reason.
Well at least better than Phil Hellmuth.
I can win without going all gloaty and high-fivey.
Welll, at least better than Tony G.
I was wrong.
It is fairly easy to keep on an even keel when you win a few lose a few.
However since November 10, when I signed up for the Party 27% bonus, I have lost 18 All-ins, and won only 3. This is over a total of about 7K hands of NL 10.
This marks the worst downswing I have yet experienced, in terms of both length and depth. I am so glad I decided to use a conservative BRM -- I started w/ 100 NL 10 buy-ins
What woke me up to the fact that my mental state had deteriorated was the elation I felt when I finally won a hand. I had not even noticed that I was not playing with a full deck. Actually, come to think of it -- If it really wasn't a full deck that would explain a lot.
So I have now purchased, "The Mental Game of Poker" by Jared Tendler.
This blog is intended to document the journey through the book, and to document my journey from being a totally mental poker player, to a mentally adept poker player.
From "The Mental Game of Poker" by Jared Tendler
Think of the mental game as an actual game. As with any other game, winning requires skill and a good strategy.
It also requires an opponent. That would be me.
In my next post, I'll define the starting point, and the field on which mental game is played.
For now, we're playing those mind games together...
and a quote:
We shall not cease from exploration
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time.
T S Eliot in "Little Gidding"
If I'm not mistaken, the above is quoted in Hermann Hesse's Steppenwolf -- a book that documents a journey similar to the one we now begin...