Hey All,
I don’t if you know my Blog Grinding for a Future... Big Al's Poker Blog... I am trying to be a Pro Poker player I have been doing this since probably September 2009. When I got serious grinding up from $100 I had on Party playing CGs SNGs and MTTs I got my BR to around $2200 toward the middle of last year. After Pokerfest MTT series on Party I decided that I should just stick to 1 game so I chose SNGs, because I didn’t think it was possible t clear Bonuses playing CGs or MTTs.
So playing solely SNGs I was doing quit well thanks to Party Poker World Domination Promo I eventually got my BR up to $3300 and made my very first Poker Cash out. This felt so good, I cashed out ~$880 which meant my BR was $2420 again which is 10BIs for $22s on Party, but then I was hit by the 9th of December.
Since the 9th of December I have hardly won anything and see my BR shrink all the time my BR got down to ~$1500 I took a week off between Xmass and New Years to get my mind fresh. I continued on Party for awhile I was pretty BE swinging between $1300 and $1600. I was getting really sick of Regs and the Blind structure on Party and I wanted to get SNG Wiz without buying it so I decided to get it through the SNG Wiz Site.
I chose Red Kings Poker Room on Ongame Network because I had heard good things about this skin. So on the 6th of May I moved there to get SNG Wiz and clear $500 FDB things were ok but again I was BE swinging between $1300 and $1600. When I cleared the FDB I was offered a special champions Bonus for getting Top20 points on some leader board, I got to choose a Bonus between $100-$2000. I chose a Bonus of $950 would be the max I could grind out.
Things were going well my BR was around $1800 and I got my BR up to $2180 before I was sent on a sharp downward spiral again. I started having some really bad days and long story short my BR got back down to $1300 again, but it didn’t stop there oh no. Snow my BR is just over $900 and hardly have a winning day I'm working hard on my game but nothing really seems to be working I have had to drop down to $5s and if I want to clear the last 2 increments of the $950 Bonus I have to grind like 12hrs a day (probably more because my mind is so bad that I cant play today).
Today feels like the straw that broke the camels back, after just a few games my mental game was gone I was thinking about all the stuff I am writing while I was playing which is obv not good. I feel like I'm faced with few options and I am really struggling. It feels hard justifying playing poker for a livening when I am not making any money.
The Reason I stoped playing CGs and MTTs is I thought with my nitty style and most sites shifting to WC rake that I would never be able to clear any bonuses and I'm not certain that I was a Winning player, and MTTs I was doing very well most of my BR was built from MTTs but again I wasn’t sure if my style was good enough because I play a really tight game and also I wanted to get fit so I thought that it was really hard to schedule around MTTs since they go all day.
I will post graphs of CGs and MTTs. The things is I love all the different types of poker I have played apart from HUSNGs and now I'm starting to dislike STTs.
Any advice would be awesome I feel I have 5 options atm.
A-Just Grind it through and keep working hard eventually you will get through it.
B-Just clear this increment of the Bonus because I have all ready got through most of it, and then move to Party or Stars.
C-DW about the Bonus go back to Part or Stars
D-do either B or C and then Quit SNGs and play either CGs or MTTs
E-Quit Poker and get a Job.
Here are my SNG graphs
All Games since 9th of December

Party Poker Games since 9th of December

Red Kings Games since 9th of December

Games before 9th of Decmber

So yer those are the SNG graphs
Here is my Lifetime CG and MTT Graphs
CGs

MTTs

Ok now that you have read through all that (I know it wasent fun) any help would be much apreciated. So heres a colection of all th threadsavers I have ever posted.
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