Greetings
I've always been fascinated by cards. Tarot, everything. But poker affected me deeply since I was a child. I remember my father teaching me Poker when I was 6 vividly. Ok, it's getting a bit dramatic. I still remember my first game. It was a family gathering. Kids were doing stupid kids stuff. But I wanted to play poker with the grown-ups. I dunno if it was beginners luck or they just didn't have the heart to crush a child's winning streak but I won money from them.
I was like, wow, here's a field where I can beat the crap out of grown-ups! I can have their money without nagging or crying or begging! That feeling tattoo'ed itself all over my soul and yet I carry it.
It felt the same the very first time I sat on a table in Empire Casino's poker room. There were rich, successful business men, and I won their money. Ace as the lowest card in the deck, could be still laid over a king. I too, as a small-time foreign student with no prospect or anything, could win their money. I must say, It felt great.
My father always says even if the US President doesn't know how to play poker I wouldn't consider him a real politician. I can understand what he means.
Anyway, I started playing seriously back in 2009. Had excellent cash grinds live & online, also MTTs. Put FTP's downfall put a halt into my career.
And the wait! for every speculation, news, gossips, lies from maniacs, checking websites 50 times a day put me into a limbo state.
I have 5 figures in there, and yes I was stupid enough to trust FTP like a bank. And yes, I started my career with only $50 on FTP and it had always been +EV. But what happened wasn't fair and really derailed my life.
So I've waited, and played less and less and tilted more and more! If had just let it go the very first month, I could've started again and be way more ahead today. But I didn't. Whom would've thought this would happen. A year and not even gossips anymore?
I now, have realized I too am to be blamed for letting this plague blackening my life for so long ♠_confused: . Oh lol ♦
And with spending savings for a year, paying different mortgages in different countries! deciding to get married (hasn't happened yet!) and tripling my expenses, and try to be an Architect again after so many years with a baby buttocks salary! I could not re-invest much into the game anymore. So I've thought, it's alright, I start from scratch. I grind pennies again and save up and move up hopefully.
But apparently lady luck blew me a kiss, and I found myself, or better to say, a staker found me. So I don't have to start from absolute zero anymore. Which is I must say, really lovely!
Must thank again Simon for trusting his money with me. I've got a long-term recurring deal (If I don't screw it up :P) with $1500 for start to grind <$8.80 MTTs. And he's really anxious to move me up as fast as I can run. Hope I can make the best out of it and get back into the high BIs soon enough.
I decided to make this blog to keep track of my progress, improve my mindset and have fun with you guys through this restarted journey. And writing is very therapeutic for me.
I'm gonna start playing tonight. Wish you all guys out there good luck.
So here it goes.
