Stopped playing for a while and before that was on a wicked downswing. Now I'm not sure where I'm at with poker anymore. Still know all the theory, what I should do in what situations but my reads have gone to hell. Can never lay down when I know I've been sucked out on. It's miserable.
Playing very infrequently now. Not enjoying it at all really but feel compelled to keep trying. One of my first games back I played a 1200+ tourney and came 31st, which was a boost but it's been downhill since. Every game ends with suck out and I feel just blessed when the best hand stands up. I can do what is right in a certain situation but always with a sense of fatalism.
My return to Pokerstars very much resembles the greenhouse scene of Scum. Hard to not take it personally. Can't play for long periods, just throw my toys out the pram and shut down the laptop.
How do you test yourself when you wonder if it's you or variance wrist-deep in ya?