Hey all
I am on some sort of weird tilt mode and cant seem to break out of it
I play 15$ STT turbos ( Just moved up from 7s ) and NL20-50 cash
And am doing fairly okish
I recent went for a live poker tour at a casino and returned abt 11-12 days back
Played 4 tournaments, made FT for all, 2 cashes with 1 win ♦
And after the tournies were over id sit and play cash
Was playing like from 7 in the evening till 11am next day and again come back at 7 for the next tourney
Ive never played so much non stop poker ever before
After I came back i took a small break like a week and started playing
Everytime i sit at my computer I wanna play poker
Everytime a session starts I just wanna get it over with
Anytime i run deep in a tourney I am like wtf why did i even play this
I literally cannot tolerate at looking at my hole cards
I dont understand whats wrong and how to break this
Ive burnt some money but not significant, but cannot play like this itll hurt my BR a lot
The other thing is, i treat my live BR and online BR separately and my live BR is significantly higher than my online BR
This is also one of the reasons that make me think WTH its hardly 15 lets just get over with it
I was never like this before, it would always hurt me even if i lose 1$ playing bad or knowing i did the wrong thing
How do i deal with this
Its not like i dont wanna play poker, its just after the session starts i just wanna get over with it, dont care about results
I need to get out of this situation before i start playing again
I feel like a drug addict whose been ODed with poker
Any help will be appreciated
Regards,
Abhishek