Bad beats, Suckouts, Coolers & some training

jules97 · 2013-09-06T22:55:03Z

I'll be giving blogging another shot. The purpose of this blog twofold. Half a whine/venting thread and half a poker training diary. The Whining Because I hate hearing all this hippy bullshit touted by these evangelistic 'mind coaches'. Such as: 'always be postivive' 'get the zen mindset' 'Don't let coolers, suckouts and bad beats effect you' 'Be positive though long breakeven and losing periods' Well fuck that. Poker like life is full of bad beats and coolers. Shit happens. Regularly. It's a regular occurrence like the tides of the ocean or day followed by night. Like that fucking mosquito that will not leave you alone when you lie down to sleep at night. Under the cover of darkness, it will buzz six inches from your face and you will flail your arms to no avail. You will hide under the pillow, but you will still hear it. Stalking, buzzing. Waiting patiently for that moment to suck your blood. You will get up, turn the lights on in a bid to obliterate it. But it will have vanished like it never existed. Until, like those tides, when you turn the light back on and get into bed. It will be back. Tired and frustrated you will yell to the bastard, 'JUST FUCKING BITE ME YOU FUCK, I don't even care anymore. JUST LET ME SLEEP!' And he will bite you. But not instantly. He will buzz around for another 15 minutes. The blood of a traumatized victim must taste better. 20 minutes later you are asleep and he bites you. You spend the rest of the night half sleeping, half itching your neck and foot that was sticking out of the blankets. That is life. That is poker. It isn't winning 10 buy ins a session. It's getting bitten. Every session. If you have to be deluded into some cult like trace state of mind to deal with this, you are a wimp. (plus it's all bullshit and not sustainable anyway). In this blog we approach our fucking one in a million suckouts head on. We tell them them and our opponents what to do. Specifically, to eat a bag of dicks. And you know what, venting helps. Screaming is a natural reaction to pain. Bottling the pain up and pretending it's making you stronger doesn't. /end rant Training Stuff I have been sucking at nl50 treading water and going nowhere for too long now and I'm getting sick of it. I'd like to get better. My plan is twofold. Do some training and then in about a month or so not be so embarrassingly bad that I can spend money on some coaching and not feel like I am wasting everyones time. Also if I haven't lost all my bankroll by then, in a months time I should have a decent sample size of hands for a coach to be adequately disgusted at. Krantz of Bet Raise Fold fame over in his threat, recommended this 'Systematic Training' thread at 2 plus 2. So I'm going to go over one thing dailly and post (or do the it) it here. Daily for the next month. Yes, I know. It's going to be painful... I see all these Gordan Gekko/Raskolnikov students posting how they're crushing. And figure I can do the work too and crush higher limits too. My other idea for a title for this blog was 'CRUSHING POKER WITHOUT RASKOLNIKOV, FUCK HIM. Plus hookers & blow'. In hindsight, I think I may have went with the wrong one. And in the vain of all great procrastinators, I'll be starting tomorrow. Or possibly after the weekend. Apart from the whining that is starting now. This is a regular occurrence. Hands like this. Not once a week. Not daily, Not even hourly. Every fucking 15 minutes. Pretending to be happy about it rather than audibly calling the guy a mother fucker is the wrong choice. Mother fucker. PokerStars - $0.50 NL FAST (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players Hand converted by PokerTracker 4 Hero (BTN): $122.71 SB: $90.20 BB: $50.00 UTG: $116.87 MP: $47.76 CO: $30.14 SB posts SB $0.25, BB posts BB $0.50 Pre Flop: (pot: $0.75) Hero has K:spade: K:diamond: fold, MP calls $0.50, CO raises to $2.50, Hero raises to $6.00, fold, fold, fold, CO calls $3.50 Flop: ($13.25, 2 players) Q:club: 7:spade: 2:heart: CO checks, Hero bets $4.75, CO calls $4.75 Turn: ($22.75, 2 players) 3:spade: CO checks, Hero bets $19.50, CO calls $19.39 and is all-in River: ($61.53, 2 players) Q:spade: SpoilerCO shows Q:heart: A:club: (Three of a Kind, Queens) (Pre 28%, Flop 20%, Turn 11%) Hero shows K:spade: K:diamond: (Two Pair, Kings and Queens) (Pre 72%, Flop 80%, Turn 89%) CO wins $59.03 On the topic of pain, fitness & mental coaching. I enjoyed this piece by Michelle Bridges, personal trainer of Biggest Loser fame. Getting fit brings many benefits, but having fun isn't one of them So, all you cheesy fitness "fun" pedlars, please stop it. They're not stupid, the punters. And even if they were sucked in by your gleeful promises of childlike playfulness, they'll see right through you about 90 seconds into the workout. Sure, you'll squeeze out your fair share of ...

jules97

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20.09.2013, 22:58 0

This hand was fun :f_love:

CUT, extremely bad, 60/40
BB, somewhat bad 29/10

I honeslty don't know how I'm not crushing these games 30bb/100 :f_cry:

PokerStars - $0.25 NL FAST (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

BTN: $49.59
SB: $36.57
BB: $62.25
UTG: $33.60
Hero (MP): $32.51
CO: $26.76

SB posts SB $0.10, BB posts BB $0.25

Pre Flop: (pot: $0.35) Hero has J♣ A♠

fold, Hero raises to $0.75, CO calls $0.75, fold, fold, BB calls $0.50

Flop: ($2.35, 3 players) K♣ Q♥ 2♥
BB checks, Hero bets $2.10, CO calls $2.10, BB calls $2.10

Turn: ($8.65, 3 players) T♠
BB checks, Hero bets $5.50, CO calls $5.50, BB calls $5.50

River: ($25.15, 3 players) 3♠
BB checks, Hero bets $24.16 and is all-in, CO calls $18.41 and is all-in, BB calls $24.16

Spoiler

Hero shows J♣ A♠ (Straight, Ace High) (Pre 30%, Flop 14%, Turn 81%)
BB mucks Q♦ K♥ (Two Pair, Kings and Queens) (Pre 7%, Flop 5%, Turn 0%)
CO mucks K♠ K♦ (Three of a Kind, Kings) (Pre 63%, Flop 81%, Turn 19%)
Hero wins $89.88

This one was unfortunate. He was probably x/f anyway. In chat he typed
"Huehuehuehueheuhuahueheuehe". They really should make a 'pool chat' for zoom, that would be fun.

PokerStars - $0.25 NL FAST (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

Hero (BTN): $49.82
SB: $71.33
BB: $27.49
UTG: $38.26
MP: $25.00
CO: $60.85

SB posts SB $0.10, BB posts BB $0.25

Pre Flop: (pot: $0.35) Hero has T♦ J♣

fold, fold, fold, Hero raises to $0.50, SB raises to $1.00, fold, Hero calls $0.50

Flop: ($2.25, 2 players) K♥ 7♦ Q♠
SB bets $1.10, Hero calls $1.10

Turn: ($4.45, 2 players) 9♣
SB checks, Hero bets $10.00, fold

Spoiler

Hero wins $4.25

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22.09.2013, 09:39 0

Oh thats right I remember why I'm not crushing. Lose every flip and get sucked out on every time.

2 hour session : 9 buyins below ev.... NINE :f_mad:

standard hand follows

PokerStars - $0.25 NL FAST (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

BTN: $26.32
SB: $27.42
BB: $12.50
UTG: $18.32
MP: $33.40
Hero (CO): $34.62

SB posts SB $0.10, BB posts BB $0.25

Pre Flop: (pot: $0.35) Hero has T♥ K♦

fold, fold, Hero raises to $0.62, fold, SB calls $0.52, fold

Flop: ($1.49, 2 players) Q♦ 8♦ 9♠
SB bets $0.75, Hero raises to $2.10, SB calls $1.35

Turn: ($5.69, 2 players) J♥
SB checks, Hero bets $5.00, SB raises to $10.00, Hero raises to $31.90 and is all-in, SB calls $14.70 and is all-in

River: ($55.09, 2 players) K♣

Spoiler

SB shows T♠ A♦ (Straight, Ace High) (Pre 74%, Flop 73%, Turn 7%)
Hero shows T♥ K♦ (Straight, King High) (Pre 26%, Flop 27%, Turn 93%)
SB wins $53.09

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29.09.2013, 12:54 0

This month I've been playing and getting my arse handed to me at nl25 zoom. One minute I'm having shots at nl100 zoom, next I'm getting fucking beaten up at nl25 zoom. It's fucking frustrating. Because I've worked hard and I definitely know more, 'think' I'm a better player than I have been previously, but I just keep getting fucking schooled.

Two recent highlights, include getting a nut flush in against a straight flush for 200bb. And secondly, I played my biggest session in a day, 8 hours and almost 7k hands in a day. I think I played pretty well that day. At one stage I was up about 6 buyins but ended the day I think slightly below breakeven.

I just don't know if I'm bad or suffering from variance. In all likelihood, probably both, I'm definitely running way below ev this month. But I think there is something seriously wrong when I'm at a peak to trough drawdown of around 60 odd buyins across multiple limits.

The worst part is I don't think I have been tilting or spewing money away. I'm just bad, losing money without even knowing why. I fucking watch coaching videos pause them and decide my play and then see what coaches would do and I'm getting closer and closer to coaches actual play. But.... I just keep losing buyins... I was a better player when I knew less...

So, I've come to the conclusion, I have to get some help. A coach. Who should I get? I don't know.

I'd like to go with someone from pokerstrategy, but who is the best fit for me? I'm tossing up, in no particular order between mbml, pleno1, oblioo and maybe raskolnikov. If anyone reads this and has any advice, please chime in.

My immediate goal, which I'd like to think is achievable, is winning at nl200. And further ambitions. I know it must sound fucking stupid, but it feels like I am so close to to getting there I can almost touch it. But also so far away that perhaps it's all just an impossible dream.

I can take criticism and can work hard and honestly think I'm the perfect fucking student. I could be a fucking fantastic success story or advert for a coach. On top of that, I'm also extremely modest.

But who can help me the most in the $/improvement stakes? Is one coaching a week plus homework enough? Is it worth getting a database analysis and working on that for a month before getting individual coaching? I don't know.
Fuck.

On a different note, I had a spare 20$ in my moneybookers account. So I decided to bet it on Cadel Evans to win the cycling road race world champs tonight. With a double bet promotion, the $20 bought $40 at 101 to 1. So go Cadel. Seems like this 101 to 1 bet is my best chance of getting out of this gambling drawdown at the moment...

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