Hello, i always want to make a topic about this, but always delayed, but i just need to lay some steam off
I play hu sng speed on Pkr, mainly 6 usd ones. Hu format is the only type of poker that i really have good know about, and should make profits, but i am not. Why? Tilt? Bad bankroll managment? Bad reads and desicions? Nope, its pure bad luck.
To put it simple, i get the right decision about 80% of the time, Shove with the best hand, call with the best hand etc, but i get suckout on more than 50% of the time no matter what the odds are in my favor. For example what i am talking about there a few hands :
Table #53844774 - STT # 29711674
Starting Hand #2518269826
Start time of hand: 13 Feb 2014 13:51:11
Last Hand #2518269611
Game Type: HOLD'EM
Limit Type: NO LIMIT
Table Type: TOURNAMENT
Money Type: TOURNAMENT CHIPS
Blinds are now 50 / 100
Button is at seat 1
Seat 1: tamerlanoff - 10,517
Seat 2: Jafreiteris - 9,483
Shuffling Deck
Moving Button to seat 2
Jafreiteris posts small blind (50)
tamerlanoff posts big blind (100)
Dealing Cards
Dealing [Q s][6 s] to Jafreiteris
Jafreiteris raises to 300
tamerlanoff calls 300
Pot sizes: 600
Dealing Flop [6 h][6 d][9 c]
tamerlanoff checks
Jafreiteris bets 400
tamerlanoff raises to 1,800
Jafreiteris raises to 9,183 (all-in)
tamerlanoff calls 9,183
Pot sizes: 18,966
tamerlanoff shows [9 s][7 s]
Jafreiteris shows [Q s][6 s]
Dealing Turn [9 h]
Pot sizes: 18,966
Dealing River [T d]
Pot sizes: 18,966
Jafreiteris has Full House, 6s over 9s
tamerlanoff has Full House, 9s over 6s
tamerlanoff wins 18,966 with: Full House, 9s over 6s
Seat 1: tamerlanoff - 20,000
Seat 2: Jafreiteris - 0
End of Hand #2518269826
Table #53843608 - STT # 29711091
Starting Hand #2518221302
Start time of hand: 13 Feb 2014 11:50:19
Last Hand #2518221095
Game Type: HOLD'EM
Limit Type: NO LIMIT
Table Type: TOURNAMENT
Money Type: TOURNAMENT CHIPS
Blinds are now 300 / 600
Button is at seat 2
Seat 1: red666devil - 5,000
Seat 2: Jafreiteris - 15,000
Shuffling Deck
Moving Button to seat 1
red666devil posts small blind (300)
Jafreiteris posts big blind (600)
Dealing Cards
Dealing [Q c][Q d] to Jafreiteris
red666devil calls 600
Jafreiteris raises to 1,800
red666devil calls 1,800
Pot sizes: 3,600
Dealing Flop [K c][4 h][J d]
Jafreiteris checks
red666devil bets 3,200 (all-in)
Jafreiteris calls 3,200
Pot sizes: 10,000
red666devil shows [J s][5 c]
Jafreiteris shows [Q c][Q d]
Dealing Turn [J c]
Pot sizes: 10,000
Dealing River [3 s]
Pot sizes: 10,000
red666devil has Three of a Kind: Jacks
red666devil wins 10,000 with: Three of a Kind: Jacks
Seat 1: red666devil - 10,000
Seat 2: Jafreiteris - 10,000
End of Hand #2518221302
Its like as soon as i shove with the best, i got kicked in the ass as soon as the river comes, Two pair on the flop? Shove shove and the turn gives villan a set or a better two pair.
I am only posting two hands, i could post more put that would took whole day. I just post the example whats happens not everytime, but its more than normal
So if you still reading this, you think : what is this, another bad beat brag poker is rigged cry stuff, and say its variance, in a long run skill re..... what long run? here is my graph : 
So how much is that long run? I see posts in hu sng page where players offer they coaching and videos from the same amount of sng, but of course they dont look nothing like mine, or not even a slight downswing, just pure up, and thats on the turbo format where variance is much bigger than speed.
So the main question : What i am supose to do? The saddest part that i cant do nothing, watching videos or reading a book wont help my hands to hold up. I played poker long enough, i know how its works, but its just starting to feel that the skill and mathematics are useless if are not lucky enough 
I dont say that i wont get lucky, heh i do, got streaks of 30 win a day, its just no matter what i have it hold on , but as the graph says is not enough. Now its just feels like gambling, i dont play when i am loosing, and play more when i am winning, and i really dont like that. The situation if not that badd as the graph it says, i am up not down, thanks to rakeback and bonuses that pkr offers, they promotions and the graph dont include some mtt wins and for some part i think that big drop never hapened because i never had that big drop to more than -1k. But mine poker looks like that : Get rakeback, total 50buyins loose loose loose loose, get rakeback 70 buyins loose loose loose....
Oh and about push or fold phase in late game i am also run hotter than hot, deppending on the player and chip stack i can shove KT as i can fold A7, and for the saying i am lucky to get them right, but the luck stops here. They shove or call with worse range and they just hit any card they need.
Or just a shove fest from the villan, and from 1/5 stack size he wins the tournament with any cards he dealt, 97 27 38 etc against my AA -> KQ hands.
Coinflips work just as coinflip, if i ship with JJ against AQ i lose, then if i get AQ against JJ i lose too. (a bit overacting 
) but i think i am runing worse in those that i suppose
As i play on prk i dont have no tracking sofware, any sugestion where i can put my hand history to get graph with ev line?
So to close it up, put your opinion or a funny gif
