Bye Bye 2015!!
This year has been very harsh for me, personally and financially. It was one of the worst years of my short life (actually the worst, I don't remember feeling sad any other 31th December ever before)... But today I feel like writing some thoughts I've had lately about life in general:
You (almost) always get it wrong the first time
How was your first poker hand? How was your first time driving? How was your "performance" the first time you had sex? These are some obvious activities that no one expects to get it right from the first time, but you know what? I think this applies to almost everything in life, even the most important decisions.
For example, your career. A lot of people don't work in what they studied, most people hate their jobs even if they are in their career's of choice, some people like me try to do everything they can to avoid having a job. It's a very hard topic and I don't know what could be done so that most of us would spend most of our time doing something we find meaningful and which is beneficial to society.
First time you earn "decent" money. I think this is something some people never learn in their whole lives. I, for example, earned good money on 2011 and had I been more thoughtful I'd have invested that money well to have some passive income (even if very little, but hey, I can live very comfortable with less than USD 1k/month). Instead I misspent most of it, and now with financial pressures I really regret some decisions I made.
Love. This is the toughest of all, I think. It is very sad to have loved and lost, but of course we also make a lot of mistakes here. I'm not going to go so deep in this matter since it really affects me in the moment.
But the conclusion I want to draw of all of this is positive. I hope, really hope, that one learns from their first time mistakes, and that the second time is muuch better! If I earn good money again, I'm very sure I won't misspent it again, since I am aware and mindful of my past mistakes and I'll hopefully finally have a passive income to stop worrying about financial problems. If I get to know someone who loves me and who I love too, I'm sure won't be making the same mistakes again, and would do my best to make her a very happy woman, day after day.
If you married and lived happily with your first love, or if you love your career and make good money with it, or if you have never suffered financial problems and have already passive incomes and savings for the future.. you are very lucky!. I think most of us don't get it right the first time.
You need to draw lines
Some other stuff I've grasped this year is about knowing where you stand in some matters. I think to really know who you are the most important part is where you draw your own lines. I explain myself better with an example: Bullfighting. This is something I'm sure survives in very few countries around the world, but it's been on the debate lately, since the mayor of my city banned Bullfighting altogether, praised by the majority of the population. They say its "inhumane" with the animals, a barbaric tradition which should be stopped. I'm sure that form of entertainment will cease to exist by pure lack of demand, but is banning it form a law really fair? Are all of those supporters vegetarians as well? If the life of the Bull matters so much, why would it matter more than the life of the chicken or cow you just ate today? And why would the life of the cow or chicken matter more than the life of rabbits, mice and insects who are slaughtered every year with industrial human farming? What I mean with that, is that if the bull's life matters so much, then it is a bit of paradoxical that we eat... anything at all, we should all die if we don't want to hurt another living thing on the planet, right? And that's what I mean for drawing lines. I personally, think that all human life matters a lot, but that's where I put the line. I couldn't differentiate between the bull or the cow, or the cow and the chicken. So, for me, banning bullfighting by a law is hurting the very minority of humans who enjoy that kind of entertainment, without counting the lost jobs, and financial damages...
That was just an example, but I think the same applies to most stuff in life. For example sex, some centuries ago oral sex was such a Taboo that prostitutes would charge a premium for that "service" and some customers would actually only pay for it and not actual penetration. There are a lot of lines to be crossed too, and I think it is very useful if you know where do u draw your lines there. Also with money. How much money is enough, how much is too much? If you don't draw a line you will never feel happy, no matter how much you earn.
Back to poker stuff
So, those were my lesson's learned from this year. I am very eager to reboot and start working very hard again in 2016. This intersects with poker in the sense that I'm back to grinding, I'm not sure if I'll be able to keep this blog updated, but I'm at least going to try to play poker again professionally and hopefully win good money, for a second time. I'm going to give my best for a couple of months and see how good/bad my results are. I'm changing formats, to play from now on Spin and Goes full time. There is a lot of uncertainty, but if I can learn how to play well, I think that's the format where there is more money to be made in the near future.
And if I fail, it's fine, there are more ways (probably easier ones) to make the money I want to make to meet my line. But I'm giving my best again, after a lot of mistakes and a lot of learning so far.
What benefits does being black member bring on pokerstrategy? (I'm kind of close in points, if I take off on the Spins I'm probably going to reach black member next year)
EDIT:
Milestone #2: ~100.000 NL 10 hands at 8.20 bb/100 !!!
Not 10bb/100 but oh well, I can't complain, I think I played well most of the time. Hopefully I can learn the new format too!
(I finally bought PT4 lol)
in 2016!
(so far, I use the phone only for convos and banking).
