Hi gAsheks,
I've been reading about your worries :
And the attitude of wanting to grind is even worse.
Maybe it is better to not focus not so much on grinding goals but on:
- making good decisions
- finding guys that roughly play the same stakes and get in an exchange about hands & plays
- visit coachings or watch videos to see & learn
- maybe consider some other games to add some variety: SNG, Spins&Twisters, MTT, 6+Holdem ....
let us know if we can somehow help with your motivation... (.oO and report here: https://forums.pokerstrategy.com/forum/thread.php?postid=1986696#post1986696 )
CU,SvenBe