As for keeping things in one place: Will do. I'm just writing and trying to get better so I haven't really been playing much attention to keeping things "neat" on here, if you will. I'll do so moving forward.
I won't keep up with a blog. I'm old enough to know that about myself. Further, it will just wind up turning into a place where I vent so I don't think it's a great idea to invite that upon myself.
When it comes to mental game and reading books on it, etc - What would be the goal of me doing so? I'm going to tell you right now that I'm never, ever, ever going to be the kind of person Jared Tendler is lol. Not on or off the tables. I'm not a zenmaster and I'm never going to be. It's not going to ever just not bother me to go on month long losing streaks. Ever. I've pondered this over and over whenever people talk about good mental game online and I really don't see how good it has to be before one can just sit down and play the game. Poker players aren't known for being emotionally stable...at all. In live play, I watch guys go NUTS all the time over hands. I never see any of these poker players that just remain completely emotionally balanced while they play. They're all online? It just seems odd.
I've done a ton of work on mental game and it hasn't been a waste at all. I've become far, far more patient and a think first kind of person in my day to day life. As said, though...there's a limit on how much one can just deviate from their personality. I wouldn't *want* to be the kind of person who didn't experience a wide range of emotions and that's not really the kind of people who succeed in this world, either.
I guess if I never lose in life or in any other poker venue other than WPN, I really have nothing to complain about. It's just ridiculous that as an American I have to fight, scrape, and scratch for small amounts of money in online poker and be relegated to a few sites globally. I have other talents and things I'm good at and I already know they would pay off (literally, financially) much, much more than online poker would at this point. If I feel that way, virtually everyone feels that way, and that's pretty much the case in America today. Such a small microcosm of society plays online poker anymore that even if legislation did drastically loosen up for us, I don't think there would be any drastic influx of new players once they saw how difficult the game was. People play this game to make money and time is money. I wouldn't make less money doing *anything* in this country. That's the only thing that makes me question "what's the point?" which is entirely logical and practical. I know some will say "yes but if you work hard and really stick it out, it's worth it". Is it? How realistic is it to expect to make 60k a year playing online poker as an American? There are at least three other paths I could embark on and be earning that kind of money within a month. Again, it's not just me in those shoes - It's every American.