Hey,
Yeah, tough times when you grind and everything goes against you... Only "solutions" I can think of is hiding your Cashier balance and focussing on decisions. Meditating maybe?
In the end, the lines go up 
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Damn just like i would be seeing my graph, im at the point where i just cant win anything, feels so bad, and yea cant even put volume because of that.
keep your head up, dont look at the graph/money at all, and grind it out.
we recently had a discussion and came to the conclusion it is best to not let your volume get effected by how you run, only if it effects your game already.
May 2018
Getting out of the 
hole the only problem i am back to 3$ 
will see how it goes when i face some real players on 7s
About game: starting to get back to normal pace. Not tilting so much even after loosing days but still lots of work on mindset.
Volume: ehh.. this time it's other stuff besides poker that prevented me to get 1.5K games. Not much to do about that, it's just life.
About 3$: really fun to play 
enjoying these soft tables.
June
Have to complete last games on 3s and get back to normal game. Just have to make those 1.5K games. Improve mindset - have to complete last pages of Mental game of poker and have to start looking for another book.
Future: Get back to 15s ASAP i am degenerating on 3s
June 2018
Bit late but i was taking part in Dance and song festival 1.-8. july . Took couple days off because it was exhausting, now i am back and ready to work. About June, unfortunately failed to get 1.5k games, i did good planning on my month but still life sometimes brings unexpected things.
Game: just have to continue work hard..
Master KPI of half year..
July
This will be shorter month so i probably won't put a goal of 1.5k games, i calculated 1160 games should be optimal. I am planning to 3table more will see how it goes. And need to complete ISP2.
July 2018
Didn't achieve volume goal but all the rest are done 
did complete ISP2(didn't receive feedback jet) and lots of small tasks, feels good. Unfortunately poker gods don't like me, c/ev 36 
that is disaster i feel stuck like i am not improving at all. Yes it's a small sample but even when i look at bigger time spread c/ev is 46 it is a bit better but still way too less for moving up in stakes and that is killing me 
i am putting in lots of work but i don't get rewarded for it.
After these last horrible months my financial situation is really bad right now and that is why i had to look for a job 
so less time for poker. Will see how i manage to combine work with poker. See ya next time!!
August 2018
Low volume because i got a job 
it's really taking all the time and physical/mental strength from me, so after work i am too tired to play. I assume this will change after couple weeks when i get used to it.
Got reviewed my ISP2 and bang 5/5 will have private coaching with Tilo..
In September the volume will be still low hope to get 500 games..