hey guys,
its been a while for me but i felt like sharing my poker journey that happened this month. obviously i have played before and the fact im without a job for now i thought it might be time to play some poker again. originally my plan was to go for $1k in august. i decided to start with around $300. at first i was trying to climb playing the 45man mtsngs on stars and add mtts. in the past i was always doing well but this time everything went so wrong. i was streaming as well for the most time. i think that and run bad kept me away from reaching the results i was hoping for when i started. i dropped to around $100 after like a week. motivation was really down and i wasnt sure what to do. next 3 days i managed to break even at least. i took a day off firguring out what to do and decided to try plo. ive played that in the past but my weak mindset was always holding me back at some point.
i took like $40 of the remaining money and gave it a shot. on august 12th it started and i played like 200 hands on plo2 just to see if i felt like doing it. i wasnt really motivated and i kind of wasted a lot of time although most of it i guess i was watching plo content. next day was better. i put around 1k hands of volume at plo5 and was up 5 buy ins at the end. money almost doubled ♦. next day played around 1,6k hands and a nice heater.
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next two days i put 5k hands of volume in and i was literally running like shit. i had reached $250 bankroll at some pointbut the run bad was always present. at the end of august 17th i was officially a losing player. i was kind of crushed honestly as i was almost running $250 under ev which basically were all my possible winnings. look here.
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i was thrown back all the way to all the times i felt so crushed when trying cashgame. stuff like "i dont understand why im always so unlucky at cash game" went through my mind all the time. i was in the state again where i was convinced i shouldnt be a cashgame player. anyway, i kept grinding with some success i guess. i was slowly climbing.
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with some $ from a chest here and there i managed to get to around $250. i decided to take a shot at plo25 as the games were super soft at the point. i played a huge session and finally the rungood started for me. in one session i managed to not only chase all the ev i was missing but even end up over ev after all the hands played. was a great feeling.
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on august 21st i actually reached the $1k mark. i actually managed to turn $40 into $1k within 9 days, what a great feeling ♦.
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of course i kept playing. i did a lot of table selection and aimed for almost anything that looked really juicy. i always did content on the side, disussing hands and watching videos. at some point i kind of realised my style was really different to most regs. im playing 24/13 with 4% 3bet. at the start i was playing like 30/18 but quickly learned to tighten up on the micro stacks due to the big rake distribution. i would say a week ago i was mostly playing 21/11 with 4% 3bet while recently (plo50+) im more at 25/15 6%3bet.
august final result.
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im obviously super happy. my mindset is still super weak. just last weekend i kind of threw away at least $700 after i went on a $500 downswing. made really stupid decisions. im surprised my mental state allowed to bounce back from it after all. ill take time for the last two days and find material on how to build a better mindset as i feel this is needed on higher limits where swings obviously hurt a lot more. i could post a lot of hands of really big whales that sucked out on me in the craziest ways imaginable. i even reached a point where i punshed myself in the head. silly i know but its hard to accept losing to someone playing 98/53 44%bet (not even joking he played like that for around 144 hands and was only down 2 buy ins in the end. he was even up 7 buy ins at some point which was super hard to accept). i kind of feel blessed that variance was on my side especially towards the end. ill try my best and to continue like that in september 
VS'
