Ok guys it's time for an update which I'm not proud over.
Since my last post I continued to play on NL50 and had some bad beats such as AA all in preflop vs KK, flop K, QQ all in vs JJ, flop J, flopping set vs flush draw all in on the flop, river flush and so on.
On top of that I also started to play some hands really bad so during the last week I lost over 700$ mainly on cash game. I also tried to play some zoom games, which I know I'm not beating and lost about 150$ there.
There are definately some hands which I think I could have played better. Like this one for instance. Even though I have trips and he's a huge whale, there is no reason for me to call the overbet shove on the river, the pot was only 20$ no reason to risk another 71$ for me. I need to learn and let go of these hands when it happens like this. Here is the hand:
PokerStars - $0.50 NL - Holdem - 7 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4
UTG: 157.74 BB
UTG+1: 107.54 BB
MP: 105 BB
CO: 356.2 BB
Hero (BTN): 162.42 BB
SB: 213.8 BB
BB: 377.66 BB
SB posts SB 0.5 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB
Pre Flop: (pot: 1.5 BB) Hero has K♣ Q♠
fold, fold, fold, fold, Hero raises to 3 BB, SB calls 2.5 BB, BB calls 2 BB
Flop: (9 BB, 3 players) 3♥ 9♣ K♠
SB checks, BB checks, Hero bets 5.14 BB, fold, BB calls 5.14 BB
Turn: (19.28 BB, 2 players) 5♦
BB checks, Hero bets 11 BB, BB calls 11 BB
River: (41.28 BB, 2 players) K♦
BB bets 358.52 BB and is all-in, Hero calls 143.28 BB and is all-in
BB shows 3♦ K♥ (Full House, Kings full of Threes)
(Pre 26%, Flop 70%, Turn 80%)
Hero shows K♣ Q♠ (Three of a Kind, Kings)
(Pre 74%, Flop 30%, Turn 20%)
BB wins 323.84 BB
Below is my cashgame graph from the dates 20201206 to 20201213. I lost about 500$ on cashgame and another 200$ on MTTs.
It's really hard when you lose so much in one week, but I will not give up and just keep trying to grind it back and improve on my game.

However the last 2 days has been good and I've decided to stick with nl25 now until I have about 45 to 50 buyins for NL50. The last 2days are looking promising and I made 329$ so far.

My current BR as we speak is now 2375$
Loss since last post -375$

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