Originally posted by NickParkes
Well Phil wrapped it up, and convincingly so... gg..
I couldn't watch the last hole... I just felt dirty... at the end I even would have been happy if Westwood had gotten up. 
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Well losing 4 in a row still sucks... I'm 0/4 this morning... but it was 3 setups and some really bad luck that did it, so I'm not too overly concerned, but it is good to take a break after that...
So, I will focus on something more positive... yesterday I had a really nice surprise, well I was expecting it but it came sooner than I thought... there was a knock on the door and the delivery guy had an early birthday present for me (bout 3 months early, and it wasn't actually from the delivery guy...)
This is what my darling, beautiful, gorgeous wife got me ♦ ♦ ♦ ♦ ♦ ♦ ♦
My own fishing machine!!! Now I have to get my trout, put them in the dugout and test this guy out... fishing season only opens here on May 8 so I am gonna have to wait a bit before I can take it out onto bigger waters... but I am very happy... now I feel the need to grind and grind and grind so I can spoil her rotten!
Well 2 things happened today... 1) I grinded a lot which is good, and 2) I ran pretty badly.... I had a lot of matches where the river dealt the 4-7 outer... and even some where I lost 3 all ins in a row while being miles ahead, but I was still able to dish out some decent volume as I didn't lose it and start yelling (again)... it's just that variance thing happening again, but still I am happy with how I played...
The weather outside is about as miserable as it can get... constant rain... but it is needed the farmers have been looking for it so we can't be upset... in fact it makes me glad I no longer live in Ireland where it is ALWAYS like this (bar the two weeks before the schools go on break ♦)
Anyway back to poker, it's a volume game, and that is still my focus for now... I can't acutally say how many games I have played today/this week because I no longer have any desire to look at my short term results, I just wanna focus on playing well, playing with the proper mindset and getting in good volume...
But I think I am done for the day...
OK, well in the last 30 hours I have dropped 15 BIs, and that hurts big time... so while I sit close to the bottom of the abyss yet again I am dropping down to the $20s again... I know I made a couple mistakes in a couple games due to the frustration of it all, and that is why I have decided to drop a limit for a while. Overall I got viciously unlucky, and that will hopefully balance one day, but I think that most important thing for me now is to play with the clearest mindset that I can, and if I don't drop I know that I will have that feeling of dread in the back of my mind that if I lose just 2 or 3 more I will have slumped into a new deepest part of the whole.... I have to say that I was really growing in confidence the last couple days as I felt like I was playing well and I felt like I was moving forward... this short burst of torture has really knocked me psychologically... so wish me luck as I push on thru...
OK, this is a stargnge day... I dropped down to the $20s, ran awesome with my hands holding and even a suckout or 2... quickly got my confidence back and moved back up to the $30s where I got brutalised again loosing all-ins where I was ahead numerous times... even getting AK in against AQ on a K72 rainbow flop wasn't good enough... but I reread the chapter in The Poker Mindset on playing for the long run and I am kinda left knowing that ALL the matches I just lost I got it in ahead and that my decisions were correct and so the long term will take care of itself, but with the frustration of moving down again. I don't quite know what it is about the $30s... I mean I am actually playing the same players, and my money is not scared, it is just that my luck is purely rotten and I cannot catch hands in the right places... one day it'll turn... I constantly feel like I am getting tested, and I know that it'll turn me into a really good player... it's just a constant battle...
I feel like I have been neglecting this site 
I Haven't really been on here the last couple days cos, well I have been distracted... In poker news I am back onto the $20s, grinding up again, but happy and enjoying life and content with the understanding that if I make good decisions I will progress...
But back to my distraction... you see I am kinda going batty, and it is driving my poor wife mad... I really wanna go fishing, it's like a craving so bad I can taste it... it's like being a heavy smoker and not having a cigarette for a week, but looking out the window and seeing boxes float by, and smelling the smell... if you're a smoker, you'll understand, and it is that bad... and it has me on various forums, researching stuff, tying new flies, getting new ideas, starting projects, but getting all the more frustrated as I now need time on the water and I have to wait until May 8... 22 days... aaaargh... and then my HRH asks me how my day was and I answer, well, I have found a new fly I wanna tie to target walleye but I need more bucktail, and I really need to get that dye for the rabbit... and then I get hit by a handbag...
So I grind to take the edge off, and I read, and I wait... but tomorrow, oh please please tomorrow, I may get some small respite as I should be going to collect my little trout to stock my dugout... then I can test out my boat, and I'll wet my 3wt line and ease the craving a bit... more like fuel the desire if nothing else, but at least I'll be able to do something! and I have a good excuse to be at the pond cos someone has to keep an eye on the cows as they should be about ready to calve...
OK, by now you have a small glimpse into how serious this is...
Well I didn't get to go get my trout today... I dunno when I will...
Got some good yard work done tho, and got a good few games in... stopped playing for the moment cos a suckout pissed me off... so, time to head outside then... I think it's more aggravation due to tiredness than the suckout itself, but I no longer have my edge so my time is better spent doing other things...
Well no poker for three days... been fairly busy sorting outside out, getting cows sorted and all sorts of sorts of things ya know... and today I woke up ready to grind, but instead we landed up going to get the TROUT and stocking them!! I am a happy camper today!
The Location
The Fish
The Release
Now be free and eat my little minions... eeeaaaatttt!!!!
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Hey Nick mate!
Nice to see ur having a good time with ur favorite hobby again 
U truly have a rare blessing in ur wife that she accepts u so that she helps u enjoy ur fishing even more I'm sure that with the motivation of winning at poker to spoil her will improve ur fortunes shortly ... u know, good karma and what goes around comes around So hang in there and enjoy the fish!
Take care and good luck!
Yeah mate, I am really lucky... and so I got some grinding to do... and today I did, got a load of games in and pushed myself a bit... felt good, all sorts of psychological challenges today, but I felt I came through them pretty solidly... anyway, time to go make a fire and pour myself a drink... I love the warm weather!!
Originally posted by NickParkes
Yeah mate, I am really lucky... and so I got some grinding to do... and today I did, got a load of games in and pushed myself a bit... felt good, all sorts of psychological challenges today, but I felt I came through them pretty solidly... anyway, time to go make a fire and pour myself a drink... I love the warm weather!!
Now you sound Canadian.. it's "warm weather" but you need to light the fire....
Originally posted by 8979687
Originally posted by NickParkes
Yeah mate, I am really lucky... and so I got some grinding to do... and today I did, got a load of games in and pushed myself a bit... felt good, all sorts of psychological challenges today, but I felt I came through them pretty solidly... anyway, time to go make a fire and pour myself a drink... I love the warm weather!!Now you sound Canadian.. it's "warm weather" but you need to light the fire....
Fire outside in the firepit... not for warmth but for my entertainment 
Got ya, I love sitting infront of a fire outside!!! You have somewhere to cook your trout!!
One question Nick, do you eat the fish you catch or is just sports fishing?
I sometimes go fishing on the sea with my dad, but I always eat what I catch
Originally posted by RahXephon1
One question Nick, do you eat the fish you catch or is just sports fishing?I sometimes go fishing on the sea with my dad, but I always eat what I catch
The trout that I have stocked I intend to eat, by Sept/Oct they'll be a nice pan size so they'll be good and tasty
So not much in the way of playing today... but got to take my boat on it's maiden voyage... a short trip but so good to wet a line... I is happy ♦ ♦ ♦ ♦
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Right, actually had a poker like day today... probably helped that it rained most of the day, but I had an interesting day... and now for a moment of relfection...
Basically the week where I have been playing has been up and down and around break even.... then today I hit my mark to play the $30s again and I won 2, lost 5 and felt frustrated... and I realised that it was cos I feel like I dunno, I think it has to do with my BRM mindset... a while ago I wanted to experiment with aggro BRM and I find myself getting more and more cautious, so I think I am going to progress now with a slightly more conservative approach and concetrate on the grind... so I am back on the $20s, and that's OK... I have set aside a large chunk of my roll to withdraw for the wedding in June... so my roll is now the smallest that it has been in a long time... but the way I figure it is that if I am any good (and I think I am OK) then long term it will progress and I should be able to rebuild and get to the stage I wanna get to really badly... so, that's all there is to it... I am going to sit and think a bit more about what my BR plan will be in the near future...
I still have certain things that TT said in his BM post rattling in my head, 2 that stick out:
1. mindset >>>> skill and position >>>> cards
2. you must first learn how to lose before you can learn how to win
I reflect on the second point a lot when I go through bad runs, but sometimes they still get the better of me... so I am gonna cushion that with my BRM plan which is yet to be decided...
Anyway, tomorrow is another fishing related day as I am off to a whole day seminar thing with an awesome speaker and 8 hours of talking about and listening to things about fish, insects, weather patterns etc. To anyone not interested I understand how boring that may sound but seeing lectures titled like "Learn in-depth knowledge on what chironomids are and how to fish them" just gets me really excited... I'm really glad my wife understands me, not that she gets it, but she puts up with it... as much as one can... laters all...
Hey nick long time no talk! hows everything going??? kickass fishing boat there im kinda jealous, cant wait to go get me some walleye ♦
Just saw you're onto HUSnG's right now, which is what i've just decided to focus on ♦, I'm brand new luckily $11.50's are super fishy and its really not that hard, but maybe in a couple weeks when i kinda have SOME idea what i'm doing... we can do a sweat or something!
but yeah man keep going, your mindset continues to impress me and I have a feeling you'll go far, keep it up bro!
Originally posted by dadude77
Hey nick long time no talk! hows everything going??? kickass fishing boat there im kinda jealous, cant wait to go get me some walleye ♦Just saw you're onto HUSnG's right now, which is what i've just decided to focus on ♦, I'm brand new luckily $11.50's are super fishy and its really not that hard, but maybe in a couple weeks when i kinda have SOME idea what i'm doing... we can do a sweat or something!
but yeah man keep going, your mindset continues to impress me and I have a feeling you'll go far, keep it up bro!
Hey good to see you back! Well yeah, definitely when you feel up for it I am happy to talk strat and sweat and stuff... send me a pm and I'll send you my skype details...
Well what a frikkin awesome day... I had so much fun at the fly fishing thingy... I learnt so much and I am so pumped about the upcoming season... and then when I got home I played a session of about 2 1/2 hours whhich flew by... and you know what our poker mindset is helped so much by the things that affect us outside of the game, cos I was just as solid as I could be... the critical point was when I realised that I was truly happy and satisfied and even got in a fist pump when I got called by a hand that I dominated and then lost the hand and match... and the reason for that was that I had been working on trying to get villain to call me a bit wider and it worked... it obviously goes much deeper than that and with all the how's and why's, but it worked, and the result is inconsequential. Also I am still grinding the $20s and not even glancing at my roll... I really wanna play free of the burden of checking it and worrying about my next move up/down... I'll move back up when I have a comfortable cushion and I don't need to worry... focus on what is important and what we can control and the rest will take care of itself...
Anyway that's all from me for now, I am exhausted... but man do I have a busy time coming up 
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