Back to grinding
It's been a while since my last update. I've been playing, but not grinding though as I want to. Too many things happening around me, my day job, my night job, my freelance work, guest lecturer, you name it. So poker has been in a 2nd plane for a couple of weeks. This week last five days I've played much more and I'm running hot.
However, psychologically I'm not where I need to be. I've been playing with an absurdly nitty bankroll management since the last downswing. I guess it is better than trying to win back all the losses playing out of my bankroll, but I need to find the balance to where I can play comfortable but earn a little more for my efforts.
I normally play 9 tables with a 100 BI rule. So in Full Tilt I have been playing the $2.25 stt turbos. But I have been winning this last couple of days and almost doubled my Full Tilt bankroll in 7 days, from the low $200's to the low $400's. This account is untracked here, so I have been demoted to bronze... once again.
I am truly amazed by what two fellow strategists have accomplished in very little time, lessthanthree and gedwashere91. It shows all the effort these guys have put into learning and practicing and I must say they are admirable. They have all my respect and both deserve all the good things that are happening to them.
So I am now really inspired to become a much better player. I will watch as many videos as I can, attend all the coachings I can manage to get and good things will happen.
First, today, before starting my session I watched a couple of psychology videos. I was a little more confident, but these things aren't magic, I have to keep putting up a lot more effort. Then I decided to go play at Pokerstars, with my high $500's BR, opened four tables of $10+1 stts and started playing.
Even though it is within the suggested, 50 BI somehow I felt a little uncomfortable jumping from the $3.40's to the $11's just because I have the bankroll. I busted fairly quickly (7th) in one of the tourneys and panic hit me again. I was trying to force myself to keep playing and focusing but gave through and went back to the $5's. I even cashed in the other three $11's, two 3rds and one 1st so I don't know what I have been worrying about. That level is not too much for me... Yes I have to keep practicing and studying but I will beat this level.
What I did in the meantime was playing the $6.50 stt turbos and it is pretty comfortable too. I played 10 of these, cashing in 5, one 1st, three 2nds and one third. I will play there til my BR goes up to $750 and then go up.
Even though most of the thousands of tourneys I've played aren't turbo, I think I am starting to like them more, so I will give them a shot.
Here is the graph of my last 7 days. Stats were: 170 stts, $148 total winnings, 46% itm and 30% ROI... sick heater.

By the way, yesterday I realized that my FT bankroll was once at $0.30 and I have managed to get it above $400 without depositing. I am really proud of that.
I read someone post in the forum that gold status is sexier and I agree... I will be shooting to become Gold once again!