my problem is this:
over the last few days my play has been quite terrible, admittedly due to mostly bad play which has led to loss of my initial 50 dollar bankroll, another deposit of 50 dollars and a 30 dollar deposit on 888 poker. this was lost over the course of 2 months, but my most recent losses coming due do several hands where im supposed to win 70 percent of the time preflop and even better odds postflop, but people keep calling my agressive bets and hitting their 20%ers either on the turn where a lot is already invested, or river, when most of the money is already in the pot. because of my agressive style i like to play against people who favour flush and str8 draws, because i give them rediculously bad odds to call and win the hand,,,yet my play has left me bankroll at $0...and me wondering what i should do next. last night i had only a small enough amount of pocket pairs to count on 1 hand. AA 2 times, lost both times, each pot vs 1 player, KK 2 times, 1 time was a 3 way pre flop all in lost on the river to a guy with 8-5 , another got absolutely no action. my final blunder was with QQ, where i raised big preflop, got a caller, flop came rainbow and a) gutshot str8 draw, i bet 3/4 and he called. next card filled a str8 (if he had it) but there was also a jack on board and i thought he had that so i went all in and he called instantly, showing the nut str8 and i wondered why players call such big bets pre and on the flop with like 9 high. today in the tourney i was in i got caught up against a very loose agressive chip leader, and i was 2nd in chips on the table. it was early and i already had a read on him. he raised every hand so i reraised with Q-10 in position and he called. the flop i hit my 10 and there was nothing scary of note. he led out and i called, planning to reraise on the turn if a big ace or king didnt hit. the turn was a 3 and i reraised his bet 2.5x what he bet. he insta called and hit his inside str8 draw on the river, bet all in, i called thinking i had the nuts because of the way he played the hand, and every other hand. i am commiting like 40% of my stack on the turn and he is calling with an inside str8 draw,.....wtf. and what gets me is thta people are hitting these 10-20 percenters...........i lost with every big pocket pair in the last 24 hrs and in the only tourney i play in i get a stack worked up only to be smashed by a 4 outer, getting 40% of my chips in before he hits and showing him im strong and mean business.....im mad yes, know i need to improve to become a winning player....but am wondering how i am supposed to become a winning player when i go all in and am a big favourite to win the hand and lose on the river everytime to either 2 pair, flush or str8. like how am i supposed to win when its 70/30 when we get the money in,,,,,but i lose .....everytime....its flabbergasting. i proceed to go on tilt and lose the rest of my money....a man can only take so much especially a rookie being told these hands like AA KK and QQ are great to go all in with but i am constantly going all in and losing with these hands....explain this to me as variance....or something i cannot explain.,.....i thought i was good enough to at least beat the micros but clearly i am not even good enough to beat the 8-5 offsuit with KK.....give me a break
