Lost 10 buy ins on weekend and dropped down a limit to NL4. Past two days i was breaking even on NL4, despite being sucked out here and there, today I lost 7 buy ins after playing 1k hands. on a f%&^&^$$^ nl4.
not even coolers, all bad beats. i di not tilt, just kept playing, though it was super hard to saty calm and tight, i had to take 10min break at one moment (at that time i had only lost 2 buy ins yet) after that break i played really solid, calm, tight, no fancy plays, good starting hands, abc poker. lost 5 more buy ins.
it would be explainable if i lost to regs, but no, all fishes, fncken callin stations catching flushes straights and all other hell, at one point i was really afraid of a fish hitting his flush again against me, so i overbet the turn with my top two pair, which puts him all in. and he calls. of course. has K high flush draw, no pair. hits his flush on the river.
now i was devastated. had to quit few hands later. i dont am i weak mentally, i felt i could continue, but what's the point, i'm not as angry as i feel helpless, like what can you do? don't push your top sets on drawy boards because villain can hit on turn? let them draw cheaply? fnck no
and i made some good folds in the heat of all that, like folding my set on a board with 4 clubs, so i really handled my tilt this time, which i am very proud of myself, but i still lots shit load of $
i know its a silly post and ill probably get over this by evening, but damn it, this is HARD.
sometimes i just dont want to accept that f556ckin b1tch variance
i needed to let it off me
thank you for whoever is reading this
sorry if its blabbery shit, but hey, this forum is for bitchy whining, right?
