As you know, Christmas was quite traumatic for me due to suffering a high level of pain throughout. I therefore planned on having a relatively low-volume month (is there anything else with me?) in order to give myself a chance to recuperate properly. I knew that if I made $1500 or so, that would be a good result. Halfway through the month, I'd already made over $2000 and it seemed I was heading for a really big score. Everything was great. Brimming with confidence, I decided to make a concerted run at the $109s. And then everything went bad. 

STT Tournaments: 650
Average buyin: $44.82
ROI 1.4%
EV Roi -2.3%
SnG Profit: $402.50
EV Profit: $-672.30
Estimated points-based rake back: $760.58
Deposit Bonus: $100.00
Gemstone: $300.00
Total Profit: $1448.48
Total EV profit (estimated): $388.28
Hours played: 91.3
$/Hr: 15.87/h
EV $/Hr: $4.25/h
In the end, thanks to the Gemstone promo, my overall profit for the month is very close to what I decided would be reasonable at the start, given my poor level of health. And yet my general sense of the month is that it was basically a failure. And of course that just shows the slippery way our minds have of forgetting the plans that have been made and the expectations that have been set and focusing on overly positive or negative aspects of our life. Objectivity, it seems, is hard to come by.
By way of illuminating that point further, my first reaction at seeing an EV loss of nearly $700 for the month is one of pure horror. So used have I been to the red line's constant elevation that seeing it nosing down below the $0 line was somewhat panic-inducing. And it's taken me the last two or three days to get my head around that nonsense. The reality is that I managed a comfortable 10% EV ROI for all the games I played below the $55s this month (a clear majority of the games) whereas I did badly at the $55s and $109s and, because of the enormous difference between the top and bottom buyin levels, running (and perhaps playing) badly at the high limit games has skewed the overall result significantly. To put that in concrete terms, losing one $109 game puts you in the same financial position as losing five $22s, but it doesn't take a genius to see that it's a lot easier to lose one game than five.
The graph showing the month's results in terms of buyins is not nearly so depressing:

As usual, the lesson here is that when moving up limits one needs to be careful not to place too much emphasis on short-term results at those limits (good or bad), since the relatively high buyins will have a magnifying effect. It's also worth pointing out, of course, that the higher buyin games are also tougher by nature (with correspondingly lower ROIs) which means one is more likely to encounter a losing streak. All that said, I won't be in any hurry to have another crack at the full ring $109s. I need to at least demonstrate the ability to beat the shorthanded games, where I'm currently EV breakeven after a very small sample.
Tomorrow I'm basically taking the day off in order to treat myself to lunch out in recognition of my death-defying Dog Gauntlet achievements, as well as putting together the Directors' second-quarter report in which it's jolly likely that investors will be fobbed off with further discussion of "the magnifying effects of high buyin games" and other accountancy tricks designed to make it look like I've done better during the last 3 months than in reality!