hellou everyone ;D
i have been reading news, forum and watching videos on this site for 6 months... i read blogs too, but never really tracked one... so here i am, creating this blog... dunno why... probably because i know noone who plays poker online...(freerolls doesnt count) ♦... my friends play freerolls so...
I live in Belgium atm, moved to Belgium 1 month ago or so... i was born in Greece but moved to Bosnia when i was 3 (my parents divorced) so now im in Belgium with my mother and my stepfather... 6 months ago or something i started playing poker at some club, i really enjoyed it and started researching it on internet... at the beggining i watched pros playing cash games, i watched PAD, highstakes almost everyseason, watched the big game, partypoker premier league etc.. i found this site, watched alot of videos which have anything to do with NL holdem... watched even some omaha... but only basic stuff,since i cant watch or read any other... so i played freerolls as much as i could, finished 6th on bankrollmob site on some pokerstars leaderboards and got 12$... i knew every rule which beginner doest know, i respected my bankroll. after 1 month of playing my bankroll was on 150$... i played alot but not as much as i do now. then one day i went to my friends (students) in other city to stay couple of days... i played from there and lost all in 7 days... i was tilted the whole time, internet sucked, mice sucked, everything was different... i didnt realize back then that i am tilted but i was... i lost all, i felt sick.. its not like its bunch of money, but i just dont like to lose... who does anyway? so after that i started to watch and read all the time... tried to get many bonuses on every possible site... i even made ps account for my brother, mother and my stepfather to get 50$... but never really got it ♦
when i moved to belgium my stepfather asked me if i wanna play poker in casino... i said: "YES!"... theres just couple of things better than playing live poker ♦... so we went to casino in breda, he gave me 250e and said if i lose it doesnt matter, if i win we split 50/50..it sounded fine for me ♦. i took a seat on 2/2 cash game... never played this big, my max was on 0.10/0,25 online ♦... but i must say, online guys who play those stakes would crush these guys.. i joined with 200e in chips, i left 50e so i can see whats up in coffee shops ♦... while i was playing my stepfather played roullete and poker vs dealer... hes a big time gambler... after 6 hours of playing i left the table with 470e... i kept 250 gave him 200 and we put 20e on number 17 in roullette... we missed. after 5 days or so we went back, this time i lost all... i lost all when i was all in with KK... some old guy had... guess what? but atleast this time i had time for a coffee shop visit ♦ spent 36e on weed and hash... i still had more than 150e, i was saving it to deposit on pokerstars. so we went again day or two later, and again, i lost all... the guy had 53 and i had 44 on 124 rainbow flop... so that was my last time i played cash games live, it was like 1 month ago... but i still had my 150e to deposit. but there was a problem... my country on pokerstars account was bosnia, and ps does not support local bank transfer for people from bosnia... i didnt have any card which i can deposit... so after sending them e-mails like 5 times so they can change my country to belgium, they finaly did it, and when i installed pokerstars.be it said: "your account has been suspended until 17.09.2013, until you reach 21"... belgium goverment doesnt approve gambling until you are 21... then i made an account on my stepfathers name... and finaly deposited 150e/190USD... it was like 3 weeks ago... i started playing tournaments and 1.5$ HU... i moved my bankroll to 250 very first day (i was running guuuud)... i then i kept playing and playing... my bankroll had ups and downs, but small downs and big ups ♦... i had 450 at one point... but since then i am just going down... i feel sick everyday when i finish my session... from 450$ my bankroll now is 226$... i lost too much... i played alot of tournaments but my best result is 8 place 121$... just one final table... i lost too much playing cash games (tilted)... played heads up sngs alot of them.. at one point i played 7$, but i moved back to 3.5$... where i OWN them.... i really mean that... they are so bad... but the problem is i get so bored after playing 10 of them... then i lose... today i played 300fpp bi sattelite for some 250$ sattelite and finished 3rd, won only fpps which i really dont care about...finished 3rd when i shoved from the small blind with K9off 10bb and the guy with 15bb woke up with AK... i felt really sick... i cant win a tournament.. never won any tournament... i opened this blog just because many of you know what they are talking about when it comes to poker... and i want really to say couple of words who understands what i am talking about... so this is it for now... i will still post at this blog, i still dont know how to post graphs so dont ask me for it ♦
here is just one hand... so you can see what happens to me whenever i go deep in the tournament.
200 of 5k+ people left, 6k first price boomplayer hand , after 6 hours of playing i finished it like this.. btw i dont really think i am a pro poker player... i still am a fish... but i really think i have knowledge most fish dont... my main problem is sometimes i just get to emotional ♦... thats it for now... cya guys and really hope that someone will read the whole blog ♦...
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