Hey guys
I am 23 years old and i live in Greece. The things here arent so good but neither are so bad as the media represent. I rent a small appartment which i live in a village near Athens
My character is really crappy and i have all the bad things human race can have. I am arrogant, violent, grumpy, overcompetitive and extremely stubborn. But the most bad about my character is that i try to make fun of everyone who i think is a lower human being Well i guess with so many bad things i have some good too. I am clever, friendly, having good sense of humor (in greek language at least) and really generous. Moreover i like to help other people when they need to
From the time i remember myself i wanted to be a proffessional football player. I was so obsessed to be known in the world. I always said some time people will mention my name next to top football players. I tried really hard but you cant plan everything in the life. Every coach i worked for, every manager who see me playing told me i can play in really top clubs. Like Manchester United etc etc. Something happen in a team that affect my mentality so bad that i didnt even want to touch a ball
I retired before even ''tire'' and i had to play football near a year. I gained wight month per month and my physicallity was non existance. From that time till now i have gained 23 kilos. Even though they doesnt seem bad i feel really uncomfortable
With poker i met when i succeed in the greek examinations. A friend of mine told me to play with them in a tourney. They briefly explained the rules and i was in. I finished second...for nothing. Yeah winned took all 
The next day i downloaded Doyle Brunson bible. I was the best and after the search i made all people told that this was the best book. I read it 5-6 times and i didnt understood a thing
Somehow i was winning every cash game we played. In one year i had only one loosing session. Always i was leaving with double and more of my buy in. I thought i was the best and online poker was rigged because i couldnt win a shit. After watching the slow process of lessthanthree and i started studying and playing 9m normal sngs. After my first 1k pass in bankroll i started seriously thinking of becoming a poker pro
At least if i could made 1-1.5k playing sngs i could have a nice life. And definitely i could do that. Well after playing some months with decent results i switched in turbos. I found them really hard and thoughts of online poker riggedness came in my mind once again. I fought improved and still stand
I dropped my university because i wanted to play poker. My decision i believe was good even though extremely risky because i wasnt that good to make a choice neither i had some amazing success. My parents fought me for that. Well all my family fought me for that so i left my home. I wanted peace to focus and not everyone to yell me about playing poker
Now i am stand my own. Trying to payback some doubts and i enjoy my life generally even though pokerwise i am not a crusher, i can make some decent money and i do enjoy poker even these dark times ♠_love:
The year of 2012 stigmatized my soul. It was the worse year of my life. I felt stressed most of the time and i really worried what i could do. I wasnt very good but i good make some money by playing. At least in the first 3-3.5k games i was feeling that i miss something. Even watching the videos and using softwares didnt help. It was a fight up and down in the limits. I hit some crazy swings for stt format but somehow i survived and i am grateful for this
No human can feel me when i was running 300bis+ bellow ev and in the end of the month i had to pay rent+internet+electricity and of course i have to had money for food. Moreover i dont like a girl to pay when she is with me so i was really really stressed. It was many times that i couldnt sleep, cursed God, broke things and cried. I really hope no one will feel the same way as i did. Even for people i really hate i hope will never have these feelings. For some reason even then i did enjoy poker. I dunno how is this possible
Graph of the devil's year:
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The dreamer:
As every person i have some big dreams for my life. I cant name them goals atm because i will be very unrealistic. The goals i have every time are very realistic. At least when you dream the stars you can reach at least half way 
So my dreams are 3:
- Become a highstakes cash game regular in live and online poker
- Travel around the world while playing poker
- Become a sharp sports bettor
The most unrealistic dream is the first one. I dont know if will ever succeed but at least i can dream playing durrrr, isildur, ivey etc
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2013 began again really bad which affected my mentality a lot. I run bad both in green line and red line and i feel extremely stressed and somewhat depressed. Again the feelings of 2012 have came in surface. I am again not able to sleep well and lately i feel i dont play really well. Especially the last 2-3 days. In the first 900 games i am loosing 300$ and both my lines are met. I am coolered all day and i mean really coolered but i cant change that
Even though i am lucky in all parts of my life when it comes to online poker i am extremely unlucky. Yes you may laugh, yes you may say there is no luck but this is the way i feel
The only thing i can affect is my play and as far as i am supernova i can make a somewhat decent living. I never wanted to be rakeback pro and this is definitely not my goal but supernova is my insurrance i guess
I wanted to put some realistic goals but in the higher level of ambition because i want to put some pressure in myself. Maybe i broke but i will try
50k $ post rakeback
Invest 10k in sports betting
Win this Diamond star in sharkscope leaderboards
Many people know me of my really bad manners in the tables. I can assure you the old Belthazorrrr is dead. My chat is off and gl everyone
♠_cool:
