Still not sure how I'm going to work this, I want to force myself to enter something after a session. That just seems like a bad idea though as I'm usually pretty tired and grumpy right after a session. I want to win everything so even great session still can put me on edge, I rationalize it as me just being a competitive person but it's probably board line OCD. I tend to never be satisfied, which is good but also very bad. I'll just be life result oriented and say it's working for me for right now, that just makes life easier.
Had the day off yesterday, weather was amazing and I got to spend most of it with the girlfriend so I couldn't really miss. Slept in a bit late, took the dog to the dog park, did some laundry, did some grocery shopping, tried to fit in some Home Depot but there just want's enough time. Laid around after, made dinner and went to get get ice cream then chatted with my roommate when he got off work. I know it sounds lame but a day of being semi productive with my girlfriend is about as good of a day as I could ask for. I think any successful pro will tell you that finding happiness outside of poker is crucial to your overall well being. We are so fortunate we get to play a game for a living, it's also so important to enjoy the freedom that comes with that.
Speaking of freedom and poker, sick transition obv. I got some interesting new today of the degenerate nature. I have a good friend I've talked to online for like 5-6 years and but never met until this summer when I picked him up with my mother to drive cross country out to Vegas where him and I would be living for about 7 weeks. He lives about 6 hours south of me and it was good to meet him and were headed out to live with some other guys whom I had talked to online for a bit, but never met. That's another story though, back to the original one. Towards the end of the stay he told me his friend was getting out of the service early and wanted to come live with him as my friend was staying out in Vegas while I drove back home. My friend said sure, and the plan was both he and I were going to back this guy with hopes of maybe testing the waters of putting a small stable together.
He arrived into town and we immediately get him a roll online and he starts grinding. About a week before I'm about to leave it turns out that our horse has burned the roll playing blackjack online. Now, being that this is a good friend of my friend it's a very touchy area. It wasn't anything much, maybe like $500, but still it's the principal of it all. I'm not sure how much any of you know about staking but you're usually allowed to borrow against the stake as a horse to pay for things like rent and what not. You then have to win double back as you have to clear the make up and make the profit back but it's still pretty common. Obv with this horse being a close friend we were allowing him to borrow against the stake, handing him a chance to do nothing but play online. So when we find out he's spending our money trying to degen, it's a slap in the face. Long story short, we had a chat and we told him we'd give him another shot. Fast forward to earlier this afternoon.
My friend, who's never on Skype, sends me a PM. Telling me we have another issue, now mind you these two are from the same hometown and have known each other for years. They both stayed out there and got a two bedroom condo with the plan to get a bigger place with another friend of theirs. Obv the message says the same thing has happened but this time the roll was at $1500 and he was doing it 10 feet way from my friend while he was grinding. Now I'm put in a position where I have to be the bad guy, as he's not my good friend. The whole situation is a mess and I understand more why people don't like to get into backing, especially with friends. I personally have been backed most of my serious poker career, it's just been the right life choice for me. I have always respected the agreement and other than one incident other than this I have no issues.
I talked with my mates in Vegas about this as a guy we all knew was in a tough spot. It's the horse's job to make sure he is working as hard possible to win money on the stake just as funds should be available at anytime from the backer. It's a two way street but I feel like most horses tend to take time off when they are crushing or down swinging. If you're crushing then you should be playing more volume with the A+ game and if you're down swinging you should be putting in more volume as well as long as you're not spewing. Sitting in make up and not putting in volume is just bad etiquette and shouldn't be tolerated. It's a job and and business and to be successful you really need to treat it as both. If making a living at poker were easy than more people would be doing it.
I'm getting off topic, sorry. It's been a taxing morning and I am just kind of venting. My last session was ok, I played well but didn't really get deep in much and ended down maybe like $250. Bricking all $60's, $109's and the $215 I played was rough but to come out of with minimal damage is kind of a silver lining. The girlfriend was a bit homesick so she will be gone until the middle of next week. She never a distraction but not having her around means nothing but grinding hopefully. My roommate is off of work a couple days though so maybe I will go out a night or two and get some cocktails. Beauty of being a poker player is that if you wake up and don't want to work, well you don't have to. Downside being that is probably why most people fail, too much freedom is a burden for some people. Either way I will be putting in a lot of volume with her gone, hopefully build some momentum into the weekend and get a bink here soon. I'm a grinder so making small profits are fine but binks are obv what MTT grinders live for.
Sorry for the long winded post today, sometimes it's just got to happen. I'd like to give a shout out to a couple of my friends, Duffer and Edmund. One guy is crushing online, won the PS $11r twice in the same week and 5th in the Deuce. The other got 8th in the SM and is now crushing live PLO cash 25/50. Guys have me jelly like a donut but I am still happy and proud of them. GLGL as always, hope you enjoyed the read.
-Bobby Possum