Hello guys!
Unfortunaltey the time has come for me to post in this section.
I ve posted about downswings and my way of "dealing" with them in other sections of this forum, but I made those sections messy enough, so I will post this one here.
I ve been in really bad downswing for about 10 days or so.
Just cannot finnish a session in positive if my life depends on it.
I play NL30 SSS on bet24( fuckin ongame).
got 40% rb there but as I see it that rb will cost me more than I would ever imagine.
I just cannot beat anyone over there anymore.
I came from 30$ to 380 within 2 motnhs or so.
Been crushed at nl50 twice and once it was that hard that I had to move again from nl10 and grind my way up.
But it was always sometihng like that: downswing, few days of braek to recover, than grind to recover from losses.
But this time I just dont know what to do anymore.
I lost 150$ within last 10 days.
Been losing consistantly.
No matter what I do.
If I study the material I lose, If I take a 2 days off and come back I lose.
Just finished a 400 hands session, where I got beaten with AK 3x, QQ 2x, AA 2 x, JJ
What make me even more frustrated is that I never suck out with AK, and lost 3 times out of 4 against it with poker pair.
I am not saying that I play perfectly, but I easly beated limits as nl20, nl30 before, but at the moment a confidence in my game is so low that I just dont think I cannot win a session anymore.
Due to bad beats, losing coin flip or tiliting.
Whatever I do it just make me sink even deeper in this shit.
And I have no idea what to do, it make me wanna cry out of missery and frustration.
I cannot move away from balimng fuckin ongame and their stupid software.
THey seem to love drama and those A on river shit.
Just thinking to take my remaining money and run away, since nothing else seem to work anymore.
Just cannot see the light here and it feels like everything turned out against me.