Hey,
wanted to drop by with few words. Yesterday was first day in a last 2 weeks or so, where i just could not win. KK < AQ, TT < QQ, AK < AA , had to fold AA on turn. ofc thats all normal and happens to everyone , everyday, and i`m acting like a baby now, but if you have it in 2-3h period you can get crushed, Just needed to get it off my chest. I liked Mindcontrols coaching yesterday, was not my group, but i like to join other groups and just listen and have their Teamviewer open on 2nd screen. He spoke how everyone makes mistakes and monkeyplays – difference from someone making 7-10k a month and me is the amount of dumb shit we do.
I am still going to reach my goal and one day wont change anything. Realize and learn from the mistakes, dont ignore them and everything will be fine.
Ps. Tilt is expensive.
Hey Wassap, just a few words. Last week was not all that fun and easy, lots of character building days, toghether with not the most action and me playing meh – end in a small winning / break even. But i did not managed to put in normal amount of hands, apart from Saturday, Looking forward to this week a lot! Other then that, not much to add grind , grind, grind. Anyway i will talk to you all sunday, have a great week all. -
Hey weekend over and again had some character building days, with not the best action around and the ones i do play you dont stack easy, can get frustrating real fast. I played bad all week long, not the best focus or hours/hands put in this week. On better note, family issue is all sorted, grandma likes her new home, and her old flat is clean and rented out already – did not expect to sort everything that fast tbh. Anyway realy looking forward to the meeting, and meet the guys in real, should be fun and nice experience. Cant promise lots of pictures as my phone is quite crap but im sure there will be ppl taking them. Talk to you prolly once im back.
Hey I`m back from meeting. Was super fun to meet everyone and i got to learn new stuff and experience, was able to chat with few local legends 
who all are rly down to earth cool ppl and dont mind to give a tip or two Seminar was an eye opener as well and helped me realize my goals for near and more distant future. I am super happy i got a chance to be there, and be part of it all.
Lets go crush some fishes 😛
First week back, how was it ? Slow. Honest, i sat at pc lots, but could wish for more action, and the action i got not always things went my way. Character building weekend for sure, decent hours – poor resaults You loose a key hand and get angry, and have to grind back. But i had only one thought in my head – champions stand up one more time! And even tho the whole week felt like swimming against current, i felt that pre i would have lost way more in days like these, and now i managed to cut my losses and even be a few euro pluss. It`s not hard to play 10hours a day its HARD not to have action while you wait.
Where i lacked in this week was a schedual or daily plan. I just woke and sat at pc opened tables. No gym no nothing, zombie button clicker.
Anyway what i expect from this week. I have come up with a daily plan – will have 3x 4hour sessions with 1 hour brakes. I Will not play in anyother times but my session , i have gym in the moring even if i just go there to shower – does not matter as long as i get my self to start the day and be ready for first moring session in time. I have deleted shit i dont need from my pc, no more distractions. If i open a web page during 4 hour play session i have to do 20 push ups. (forums does not count posting hands/answeres – blog readings in not allowed tho) This plan comes to life starting tomorow (tuesday 04.08.2015). Will share resaults of the week at sunday.
Good luck and lets crush
anyway week over, and have to say i failed sticking to daily plan too many times, i might have done like 200-300 pushups easy this week. My game focus was not on, and i still rage over mistakes, was good points i noticed as well, did not quit game vs fish when got tilted, just used time bank on everystreet, for 5mins to calm down.
I feel angry for failing to keep to my daily plan to 100%. That is smth i will work on now.
Had very nice coaching with Ivan, i love talking to that guy, was pointed to some BS i had vs shortstack players and also what can i do to improve in general.
its my birthday, but fuck it, im at tables already, lets see if fish will bring presents today
This was one hell of crap week, after 4 days of me playing like shit. i took friday-sunday off to relax, forget about poker, clear head and get back to grind on monday. On my days off did not do anything super fun, Did go to see my friend who was taking part in bike drag race, that was fun to watch, ordered a pizza and watched a movie on sunday, all in all tried my best not to think about poker for those days. Beign down leaves a mark mentaly. i noticed i acted worse with my family, i am more aggressive and have shorter temper. – when you loose money thats one thing, but when people around start to feel your negativity thats totaly different and i did not like it at all. My game should not have affect on my life out side tables, atleast not that big. I still have lot to learn and week like the one i had is good experience and challange.
Hey one more week has passed, no stoplosses but not much of resaults anyway, god i hate loosing, hate that feeling when you go to bed and cant fall asleep as you head is still in the game thinking and thinking wtf went wrong and where. my game has not been good, only thing that i can be proud of is my game select, no matter how shit im doing, i know where my money will come from and im not letting me get deeper into the ditch by choosing wrong opponents.
Its not fun to loose money, but that is nothing new, still i have thought about it and i think what i lack is taste of real success, untill now i have not withdrawn a single euro for my self. I have paid my shares, as requested, and kept rest for my bankroll as it needs to grow, i dont mind it, as i was able to cover my life expenses with my savings and side project, but i think if i had had small taste “of blood” it could give that boost you know like real sharks 😛 i need to work fukn harder and get off my ass.
I have stopped doing push ups as i dont even think about opening some shit internet browser no more while playing ^_^ it was an effective system, will have to see how i can implement in further, anyway lets pwn this week, enough is enough, im angry now.
Hey ho,
August is over and fuck that month. My first month that ended in red, i have had some low winning month before but this month we failed. When your results are shit – confidence shrinks, every negative thing that happens your brain only sees that and you think – omfg whole world is against me .. when in reality its just normal – when you make mistakes you loose – suck outs happen to everyone, only way to overcome it is to grind more. but i did the opposite, i play less, i was scared, demotivated. Like i said before, its a shitty feeling when you can fall asleep as you are thinking about all the spots where you lost and how you need to get back etc.
But fuck it.
What did i learn from all of this ?
*Play more – only way to get out of shitty spot is to grind it out.
*Don t look at results during session only if you feel like you are close to stop-loss
*Take advantage of skype group – talk to more people – I am not alone here.
I am not gona make any fancy goals for september just one * Play 225h *
The rest should come with that.
Ps. Well i have no more savings so its time to make some poker money or starve 😀 that should be a good motivation !
Anyway thanks for reading, and talk to you soon.
Hey guys hows it going ?
Just few words to drop down. I am playing longer hours and i have got used to playing long into night/early morning – 3 – 4 am easy. I like my new schedual, give me time to do homeworks / gym in the morning and still can put good hours with ok trafic. Game select leaves me to no as many OP to play but there is plenty. My game is still strugling, and same goes for resaults, last week i made a video of gameplay as my coaching and got review from coach, i loved the format, and he pointed out few leaks straigt away. Will suggest to do the same this week.
I am still going for them 225h for this month and even tho start was not the best, i am 100% sure i will reach it no problem.
Have a nice grind guys, good luck.
Hey. Been afk for a few days, had my reasons, will not go into detail as it is too personal.
Looking at my game / work ethics / motivation / results ever since i returned from Dubrovnik – it has been a real landslide down the hill in all aspects and I have noone else to blame but my sorry ass. Before the trip i wanted to reach NL100 soo damn much mainly to show my coach im not a scrub, when i failed that and i was like 250e short or smth close to that (bankroll wise), new month started and i just lost it. Even tho i was still motivated like never before (after meeting all the cool guys and experience the trip, the seminar – it was EPIC), my game got worse, we all make mistakes, but somehow i kept playing bad, every lost pot even if played super fine – was a tragedy, one thing that hurt me the most was to look at my result graph – went up up and then boom down like a rolercoster, and ofc i started to do the one thing that was total opposite of what i should be doing – Play less- I was scared to drop even lower, got angry over ever suckout and blamed EVERYONE else but me. Its been 6 weeks like this now. The only good thing and i prolly the most important thing i learnt – I CANT TRUST MY SELF. I need a strict daily plan to follow and double check on my self to do it. I will find 99 BS excuses of not to do smth or why this or that – the result – 8 month and still cant move up a limit, i did not read other people blogs “i did not want it to distract me” that was what i was telling my self – when in reality i did not want to see how far others have gone up while i keep going making same mistakes and doing worse and worse. I have been given a golden ticket to make my own god damn future, and i just piss on it…make me so angry when i thought about all of this..i have been paying for gym all this year i wont tell you how many times i have actually been there …. I never said this will be an easy ride…
Hey so september is over and nothing good to show for it. I did not reach the hours played goal as i wanted, had my reasons but all in all if goal is not reached then everything is BS excuses, no matter what they are. Results ofc are shit as well, thats why i started to do the daily updates on blog here to keep my self accountable for.
My goals for october are easy – 225h played, and get to intermediate group. Those are easy enough goals, which i will reach with hard work and dedication. As for gym / outside poker life, keep going 4 times a week to gym, 1 time squash if possible. No time to waste see you at the tables
Hey ppl,
working hard / playing hard. Have decent hours already and finaly have the nice hunger for game, i can play 10h a day and wake up and just want to start to grind again. I missed this feeling, in last two months. With more hours played we are showing results as well, if i did not play like brick in few major hands last night i would be even more in +++ but if i`m too dumb to avoid silly mistakes, i have to pay for them with my money. Anyway very motivated to grind, need to work on my gym routine, still need more dedication in that area.
Time to hit the tables, talk to you all soon.
Hey wassap,
while i`m waiting for action decided to drop by to leave a few words.
2/3 of october are done, and have to say that last 7 days have not been as good as the start of the month was. So I will need a very productive last 8-9 days of month to reach my goals for october! Lets go!
Hey guys, been a while. October is over, and its not fun to admit but i did not reach any of my goals for the month.
Hours played 220+ – failed
Move to intermediate – failed
Gym on regular basis – failed
Even tho i finished month with profit – i am angry with my self, yes i can blame it on more then 1 reason why things happened as they did – but they are excuses, no one wants to hear others cry about shit, and i wont.
What will November bring ? Well first i have to find a new flat (not 100% sure) but after a talk with landlord, he made it quite clear, that my days in current one are counted.
I would prefer not to move at least until new year, as it is just too much hassle and i could use problem free time to grind atm. All in all there are a lot of things currently that take away my time and concentration, i have to say big thanks to one of the guys, who keeps an eye out for me, and pokes me in skype time to time, and is just super nice to talk to. Sometimes i feel like a bastard because i just unload all the negative shit that is around me, but he just keeps encouraging me and its a good feeling knowing that someone else believes in you – its rare, so thank you buddy, much appreciated.
I am not going to set any specific goals or challenges for November especially week 1 ( as i will be busy looking for flat, etc) – Main one remains as always – stop sucking and get to Intermediate.
Hey
my fight with myself continues, there have been good days and bad ones in November, and honestly 2 things that make me keep getting back to PC and sit my ass down are the challenge me and 2 other guys made for us and a quote from Confucius ” It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop.” When i look at the starter groups I dont recognize almost any names there, as everyone else who started with me are either miles ahead or finished. Well that is the result of my fucked up head and work ethics. I still know i will finish this and i will reach my goals. This challenge i have with hours played for this month, showed me i don`t really need a day off.. or that i wont die if i sit at tables for more then 6-7 hours a day.. I have had a few messages from people that read my blog and want to try poker as profession – all i can say it is much harder then you think, and you have to really bloody want it to make it… poker cant be your 2nd or 3rd priority, i can tell you that from my own experience.
November is over and still results are not as good as i want them to be, i did end in profits but nothing worth mentioning.
Only thing i can be happy about last month is i returned to gym, so my battle in that front continues as well.
December started with few loosing days, but i turned it around last 2 days and now we are heading to profit land. The plan is to play as much as i can till x-mas and then have a family celebration and newyears with friends. But right now, all focus is on playing. The small group i have with few other students really is a good spot to vent and discuss stuff, is getting bigger by the day, and there are more and more new players. Anyway lets WIN. gl at tables 
Its 2016. Damn time flies, i have returned from much needed time off/holidays with family in countryside, was a good few days with no PC no poker. Had nice Christmas celebrations, and then New years with friends, on my way back home after all the celebrations I already missed poker. I spent last few days making a daily plan and set new goals for my self. “pull your shit together” was told by a buddy, and he is right. No more losers talk and long emo posts. I know what i have to do, and how to do it, now its just a matter of actually fukn doing it.
Here`s to an epic year!!
Hey guys,
Im still playing, i would lie if i said im happy with my results for Jan so far, but what I am happy about is the hours i can now easy put in. I joined the 4k challenge group, but only 14 days ago, first week of Jan i knew i would not be able to play the hours required to be there as i had shit to do. It is a very motivating environment, you see people just like you grinding day after day, you see their results, you share hands, talk strategy, laugh off a bad beat, or brag how you out played a donk. No matter the weather, i keep on going. I still have issues with volume, but i keep adding hours, and good sites when i can.
Been going to gym on regular basis, thanks to a gym-buddy who wont let me slack, mostly cuz i`m his ride to the gym 😀 so its a good deal 😀 Sometimes due to diet plan, and gym + long poker hours i feel real tired, but then I look at other ppl results and i stop whining and get back to PC
Stay strong people,