it just got as crazy that i missed 3$ each 1k hands on NL5 which is 66% of a buyin and like this poker is just not beatable, since noone (their support, pt4 support and my affiliate) could help me i would rather take a more safe line ♦
i mean sure with rakeback bonus+promotions I still get more back than what "is missing" but i dont take the risk ♦
i am only mad for a short period of time so tomorrow my NL5 grind will continue.
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Wtf, that's just weird. No clue why that's happening then.
Gl with the grind again tomorrow, just make sure you're really not tilting anymore, not even slightly. And if you're not, go crush 'em 
Power of will > variance
fk poker. fk variance, i am stronger than you!
was behind ev 5.5 buyins at my NL10 attempt and variance didnt want to let me get easy.
I would not want to finish the day in the red and just kept on paliyng and playing and playing
#10khandsadaykeepsthedoctoraway
since i said "The Downswing that bothered me in the beginning of this year seems to be over completely now! (hopefully)" things changed again. Every day is a huge losing day for now. This time i am just trying to get through it by huge volume every single day. At least I can keep my cool for now and lough about it.
t-2.5 h til sunday million.
seems to be the prefect timing since i lost 12 buyins yesterday just to follow it up by another 11 buyins today.
at least i have the "i dont give a fuck anymore" attitude.
If i go broke i at least can finish the captor of poker for me. for now I cant.
I feel like I am playing fairly well but results + ev show otherwise (even tho i run hugly below ev).
I would like to give you one big tip for ther est of your lives.
Never say your downswing is over ♦
so for today. Sunday Million from Event Roll, Scoop 5 event 27$ buyin from stars coins. Festival #38 event on betfair for 20$ token.
Never say your downswing is over ♦
Yea you're just jynxing it by saying this. Kind of like talking about the weather. Say tomorrow will be a beautiful day and lo and behold, rain will come pouring down 
Good luck in SM and other tournaments sir
I expect to see at least a 4-figure score next time I come here. Anything less will not be accepted 
20$ tour top2 vs straight...
SM:QQ<88 3b pot he gets a set. I pot controlled and only lost 1/3 of my stack.
followed up by the next hand AJ vs J8 3b pot and he gets top2 while i get TPTK, nothing I can do in both of these spots I think... I am crushed...
still fighting in the 27$ but as expected I just cant win a single hand since this month.
Edit: lost the 27$ aswell. saw bigstack call last hand AJ allin vs another medium stacked guy,he lost it so i expected him to be a little on tilt.
He opened ud. I jammed my aces ( 30 BBS) and got the lose call from TT
River T for a set and my day is over...
Off crying 
in all seriousness i am crushed, having the feeling to not be able to win a single hand...
Spoiler: This Post evolved to an emo-post.
So some results which I did not ever expect to be possible considering the time I spend on Poker, Improving and around the game.
NL10: -10 Buyins IN 6.000 hands.
NL5: -33 Buyins in 30.000 hands.
I am Running hugly below ev but even EV wise I am clearly losing right now.
I am not confident in my game anymore and don't know how to change that feeling.
This is a netloss of 265$ in a single week. my Bankroll is not healthy anymore but still not to worry unless I have two more of those -10 buyins days.
Approach:
I don't really know. I am a broken man...
I tried to keep the volume high to grind through it as fast as possible but that approach does not work.
I had plenty of days where my EV was positive for a long peroid while I kept losing and losing. But at one point that changed and my EV went down aswell.
Even tho i thought I am still playing well and just running bad (I mean you cant see set over set, KK vs AA etc in the EV line). By now I am not sure if that is completely right. I will not play alot today and only check the hands I lost bigtimes to see if really everything is to blame on badluck.
So since mass volume did not work out well I will set a stoploss of 3 buyins (damn, I thought my Mindset got over the need of a stoploss).
that at least will give me multiple days I can start fresh and play my A-Game to turn things around and not go broke.
Going down to NL2 is no option. I would prefer going broke than going down. Than I at least can finish the chapter of Poker for me and invest my time on something else. MB I can find sucess elswhere.
For now I just go with the approach that I will have to work just even harder... Until I go broke my passion will just stick with this game!
finally a great poker day, made 10 buyins today which is the best result for a single day ever in cashgames. only 22 buyins down this month!
oh wait and another 10 on NL10 ♦
i am also just winning a 11$ tournament ticket on bwin, used those 0.55$ satty tickets and got an 11$ ticket now for rope-a-dope.
the ship is close!
I´m happy for you! Keep going and nice to see you beeing positive again. ♠_thumbsup:
Originally posted by Primrose6789
I´m happy for you! Keep going and nice to see you beeing positive again. ♠_thumbsup:
This 100%! Keep it up
thank you guys!
As for now my internet is down, I hope that will change until this afternoon or the daily grind is in danger! 
gotta ride the upswing!
gl ! running below ev is not the problem but the cards dealt by the poker room. William Hills and Iron poker is fine, but winners gives horrible luck. maybe try switching rooms will improve result 
thanks! Playing on pokerstars right now.
As it turned out bwin registered me automatically to the next 11$ tournament which was a powerfest event and I blinded out....
This sadens me! I fkn registered for a Rope-A-Dope Qualifier and R-A-D is sunday 20pm CET!
Bwin is so fishy with that stuff.
Whenever I log in there I feel uncomfortable after they stole my 150$ ~.~ add anotehr 11$ to it ♦
so bwin support seemed to be nice to me this time and credited my account with 11-Tournament $ which is nice of them.
On the other hand I am very very confident in my game again. I am playing well. While yesterday I turned a reasonable profit of 0.31$ in 4k hands (:profit:)
my ev was up 3 buyins. For now the most important thing is that I am confident with the moves I am making and the ev line is more important to me than the winnings even tho ev can betray someone as well. The feel is great, I get it in for the better often times and the suckouts/coolers/bad-beats come in bigger frequenz than before which is a good thing.
EV-Line closing in on 0 for the month (NL5), mb the weekend can push it in the green!
I have ~ 2400 Starcoins on Stars which might end up in a great Sunday evening tournament grind! (Bigger 11, Sunday storm + 11$ Tour on bwin)
Let's see if those tournaments run during Scoop!
MY -EV decisions in RL keep going! I invited family for BBQ tomorrow, as it looks now tomorrow from 15 pm to 20 pm will be the only time this week where it is raining 
Sunday mothersday + first refeed after innitial phase of my anabolic diet. YEAH BUDDY gotta eat 20 billions of carbs. <3
good weekend in my back.
Ev is positive already for NL5
just gotta get the money there now aswell.
Feeling very comfortable at the tables right now. barly doing any big mistakes I feel.
I finally learned to fold big hands when guts tell me that I am behind. few days back I would just make the crying call and blame luck for the bad result.
To steal a joke of a good friend:
how to play kings with the least variance
https://www.weaktight.com/h/59189ccad3904306438b45b9
