Hi everyone,
I am 20 years old professionally poker player from Slovenia. I usualy don't write on forums and i am not crying for every bad beat, but now i would like represent you my story which started with very ambicious start to running worse than it is even possible.
I started playing poker 3 years ago when i started playing for a few dollars and in meantime i was watching all poker videos (HSP, EPT, educating videos from online pros). I started playing poker all the time 8-12 hours a day and i belive that i become a great poker player especially in SNG. for first year and half i was winning player but i never respect my bankroll so i always got 20 bad beats streak and i lost all my bankroll. then i make another deposit and another and another. And finally i did some withdraws but i run pretty bad and i did not make a lot of money. But that time this was not so important. For me it was important that i become better and better. I analyse every my move especially when i got bust out of tournament. A year ago i stopped going to college becouse i realized that i become a great poker player. I had a plan that i will make a lot of money playing SNG and then i can go play live tournaments where structure is much better and i will become next Jason Mercier or Eugene Katchalov
I am playing online 8-12 hours every day for the last 2 years (100-200 SNG a day), and for the last 13 months i dont have a winning month, i made only 3 small withdrawals. The problem of that is that i run really bad. Every tournament i go out with 60-90 %. When i am reading this forums when people are writing those bad beats it is really funny becouse they do realize only bad beats and they dont count when they are lucky. But i if i am totally honest without a huge ego i am totally genious against players that i am playing. I become good enough that i dont make mistakes. Well, sometimes of course i do, everybody does, but i definatelly dont do mistake when i risk all my chips (except some cooler situations). A lot of the times they hit to me 2,3 outer... well most of the time. I Would understand if this would be matematicaly, but if i am honest i (for example; KK against 77) i won 40-50 procent of the time) and after around 10000 situacions i would said it is pretty sick. i always lost in some bubble or something.
I can tell you a million bad beats but i will not cry. The problem is that when i am watching ( EPT, events of online poker on pokerstars TV,..) i can see much worse players winning a millions of dollars and this is really sick. I do expect to win in future myself but i have a long way to go). I thought that i will be already millionaire but i run really but all the time. And now i can not even win money when i am playing double or nothing for 5 dollars. They hit some 2,3 outer every sng i playing. And i dont know what to do anymore.
A few days ago i had a plan they i will be playing 22 dollars sitngo on ongame and after a month i will take a bonus for rakeback. But i always lose my bankroll and EVRY SNG that i lose it is becouse of bad beat. i understand if i would be playing no turbo tournaments it would be better... But still i dont undersstand how it is possible that i lose every tournament in the most ugly way...
If someone have some good advice i would be appreciate, and thank yo for reading my crying and boring text ♦