I'm starting this blog cause I need all the support and good advice I can get.
I have a gambling history and started to play poker as a substitute to black jack and roulette (I played at real life casinos). I busted my two previous bankrolls due to tilting after downswings and this is my third and hopefully final attempt to start my poker career. I banned myself from real life casinos and have managed to get control over my gambling habits.
I'm playing SSS at Pokerstars.
I reached 1375$ few days ago and things finally started to look good. I took a shot at NL200 and lost 6 buy-ins over 800 hands due to lack of reads, but I should have been break-even when analyzing the hand history.
I went back to NL100 and my downswing mixed some tilting continued. Yesterday I lost 8 times in a row, all of them ahead when money went in. Then I tilted away another 2 buy-ins and almost cried myself into sleep. My roll is down to 700$ and yet again I have lost my confidence and are questioning my skills. Though week ago I was sure I can beat NL100 with a decent 2-3 bb/100 winrate.
The problem is, I have a tough time in my life and I need to earn some extra bucks with poker, otherwise I can't handle the bills. This puts an extra pressure on me when playing.
My goals for May:
1. Play at least 30k hands at NL100 to get the 650$ cash bonus, clear it and buy 160$ insta cash bonus. Then cash out these bonuses to pay my bills.
2. Get Diamond status at Pokerstrategy. Should be easy with my current volume at NL100, will be much harder if I'm forced to move down a limit.
3. Regain my confidence and play my A-game from this point throughout the rest of the month.
4. Never ever tilt again, take a break as soon as I feel I have started to make mistakes (like I know that I should fold, but villain seems like a fish and maybe he hasn't that good hand and my AQs is good against his reraise range).
5. Put a stop-loss limit of 5 buy-ins, even if I feel I'm doing everything right. Because eventually it will have an influence on my game.
6. Post at least 2 hands of every session to hand evaluation forum.
7. Re-read all the articles and analyze my game in the aspects of: pre-flop, steals and post-flop.
8. Update this blog regularly with graphs, some interesting hands and my thoughts.
Any help, support and advice is much appreciated.


